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Welcome to the Meropide Rags and Riches!
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I will make my store policies clear as possible. :3
-You can pm me on items if you wish, just so as long as if there close to the ab price on the item. Will not trade items for other items.
-the lowest that I will go is 2% lower than what is either listed or ab price (depending on item).
- I may change policies if I see fit.
Enjoy shopping.:3
Where All kinds of items are sold!
I will make my store policies clear as possible. :3
-You can pm me on items if you wish, just so as long as if there close to the ab price on the item. Will not trade items for other items.
-the lowest that I will go is 2% lower than what is either listed or ab price (depending on item).
- I may change policies if I see fit.
Enjoy shopping.:3
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Agreed on the staff being shady bit.
Trigger Warning: depressing s**t is depressing, man.
Before I ramble a little on the subject, I want to make it very clear that I'm safe now.
So, I was being isolated by my narcissistic bio egg life donor. I had no physical friends to speak of because anytime I talked to anybody irl, she'd freak about how horrible they were. In full detail. Of course, said detail was delusional at best. I was dealing with undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder (I've since been treated for it and am aware of triggers and whatnot), so I was absolutely terrified of making her angry with me. Of her dumping me.
The isolation wasn't just with friends. It was family as well. She made damn sure that all of my father's family wasn't involved. Her family lived in several other states. She claimed she wanted me to go to college, but when I attempted to do so, she didn't really help. So it got to a point where I just... gave up and sat at my computer 22 hours a day. And she was okay with that. With me pretending to be happy. And for awhile, my own delusional sheep world Ernya family really did help. Honestly some of my fondest memories, despite how sad that might sound.
If it wasn't for my heavy online life at the time, there was no way in hell I would have met my wife. So while the isolation sucked for sure, I am finally free. Are things perfect? No, of course not. But life isn't supposed to be perfect. That would be boring as s**t. But I know that when my wife tells me she loves me, she means it. That it isn't just regurgitated "I have to say this to you because you're my kid" bullshit. I will probably be dealing with the mental aftermath for years to come, but that's what baby steps are for.
One of the biggest realizations that occurred to me that something was wrong, was when I caught covid. She hadn't wanted me to get the vaccine because insert delusional logic here, but still demanded that I went to the grocery store by myself via paying a neighbor (that she hated when they weren't around) to take me. I landed myself in the hospital and damn near died. Who was with me? My wife. Where was my mother who had isolated me for 34 years? At home with a million excuses.
Once I got out of the hospital, I had to go live in a nursing home. I was there for a little over a year as I learned how to walk again. I actually received thoughtful Christmas presents for the first time in years. I actually sat there and cried. In front of a room full of people, no less. I was an awkward mess, but that's okay.
Meanwhile,
My wife drove once a month for 3 hours straight to and from, across state line, on a days off (she works full time). For 13 months. My mother, on the other hand, who lived literally down the street, visited me a grand total of once. And I practically begged her to do so. That was the final nail in the coffin. Even now that I've been out of the nursing home for a year, I'm still having some difficulties breathing and walking. Stairs. Are. A. b***h. I have to hold onto things like I'm a 95yo, but it has improved, slowly but surely. Because again, baby steps. I still use a nasal thing for sleeping with. It's annoying, but hey, I'm alive!
Thanks for that, rofl. I do think I'm better off without all that drama too, even if I damn well miss the site as a whole on the daily. Chuthulu probably would have come later down the line!
LMFAO that's great. More than glad to be of service! rofl And of course, absolute hit me up for an rp when you're ready! heart Preferably on the other site though, for my own sense of sanity, rofl.
I had absolutely no idea that Pantheon or Sapherna had that issue. That's... shocking. We all know that these doll sites get flooded with teens, younger adults, and easily manipulated (due to poor mental health due to no fault of their own) peers. I had actually joined both sites, but didn't stay on either. I loved Pantheon's dolls, but the site's theme was actually plagiarized and their doll's layering system just confused the ******** out of me.
The whole sheep/doll/persona is a story in and off itself, but I will say that it's by complete accident... I just... sorta went with it. Because why the hell not? rofl I'm glad I was able to inspire you and anybody else into enjoying the cuter side of life, honestly. I adore cute things just as much as spooky things. They make a great mash up together! Aw, I'm sure your little sheepie is well loved! <3
I have absolutely no idea why, but Burnticle seemed to really favor Misfitbaby. Like, hardcore. Almost as if they knew each other irl, which is fine and all. I just wish that when users know each other irl, they don't treat others differently they only know online. Especially if you're a moderator or very active user, which both of them were. I got that feeling too. I think a lot of the userbase was "I'm in college, this is a hobby." and that is equally fine, but hobby or not, it's not difficult to be nice to your peers.
I had a love-hate relationship with Charlie, honestly. And did so much to his surprise at one point. I had blocked him, then unblocked to apologize for getting upset over something so trivial. Even now, if he were to contact me, I'd still probably play catch up at least for shits and giggles. I think in his case he was dealing with the whole, "I'm surrounded by girls with this hobby and don't know what to do about it." syndrome. I think a lot (not all) gay men have security issues with having hobbies that are stereotypical considered "for girls". That's just my hot take though, I could be entirely wrong. I just hope he's doing better as I know at one point he wasn't doing too well (stress). I know at one point he was manager at his job. Some sort of coffee shop. It actually sounded like it was fun.
I was pretty tight with Alice. I can confirm that she was very, "OMG I'M DROWNING" while all this was going on, so I seriously doubt if she was doing anything to upset your scheduled on purpose. She was doing okay while she was just a mod, but once she got bumped to admin it went downhill. She stopped posting as much and even I was left asking if she was okay. Emy basically dumped a ******** ton of the workload on her, but didn't actually give her permission to do any of it by herself. I still talk to Alice sometimes. We actually have each other's phone numbers! Eternally my footfoots emotion_kirakira
Yeah, I think there were quite a few rules that Ernya took way too seriously, but I think I understand why. Emy was pulling from Gaia's shittastic 2010 userbase with the tektek ads. She didn't want that cesspool ruining her baby, rofl. Even with all of Ernya's problems, if Ernya reopened right now, even with Emy as admin... I would join. But would I pay for it the second time around? ******** no. Just add ads to the site instead.
If you weren't an oldbie, if you posted too much, posted too little, weren't a forum reg, didn't do certain avatars, did do certain avatars, lacked expensive items, too nice, too mean, didn't play the exchange 'right'... The list just goes on. You were pretty much shafted by certain people for sneezing in the wrong direction. But that sort of userbase comes with the territory of being a smaller site.
I always tried to talk to everybody and roamed the forums at large. It also didn't help me that I have a bit of a noticeable avatar style as well as (at least back then) a very loud post format. Bold deeppink space sheep. Man, I miss it sometimes. I feel like I made some users uncomfortable with how... happy I came across. And I started to feel like a bit of a mascot for the site. I know that probably sounds weird, but I do believe that misery loves company and I just don't normally complain about irl on public forums.
And of course, not only am I loud, but I'm obnoxiously proud about sharing my opinions. So I wasn't one of those users you could easily intimidate off the forums.
Charlie... had issues. He was very fair weather friendish. They originally didn't even want me on the team, including Burntcicle. It wasn't until I directly asked Emy what was going on, that something was done about it. I think what happened was that I had submitted a writing entry into a contest and in said entry I had used a user's username and they all thought I was just "name dropping friends" and that was not my intent at all. I just wanted to use a name that was a regular of the forum, to help solidify the reader's experience so they'd be all, "Hey, I know that person too! They're super nice!"
Of I can't know that for sure, but I came to that conclusion after back reading in the volunteer forum from around the time the contest took place. It sucks cause I wish they would have just approached me and been all, "Hey, do you think you could edit your entry because x reason?" I would have happily done so.
In the end, iWrox did most of the volunteer work. Even now, I still feel so bad, but I was dealing with a lot of unresolved emotional ab*se at the time. I was clinging to Ernya for dear life and fell apart in the process.
That last year was terrible.
I'm absolutely gossip granny, but Ernya isn't around anymore. So feel free to take what I've said with a grain of salt, rofl.
For Rping, I try to realize that everybody's abilities are different, but even still, I don't want to sit there and just ugh myself through their terrible posts.
Chuthulu is cute! heart
Right? Just enough fantasy to keep me interested, but grounded enough to keep it sane. xD
Yay! You really think so? I think apart of the problem with Ernya's story was that like... nobody gave me ideas and high fantasy is just not my thing. It pissed me off cause someone then proceeded to be all, "You're not sharing the writing process with us." Um, like what? All my drafts were RIGHT THERE for you to give input on. Silly bean, you. I'd like to expand on that though. Move more into high fantasy every now and then. Maybe one day.
Another issue I had back then was sentence structure. Idky, but there was one particular comma flow that I used repeatedly. I've since gotten over that though, or at least I believe I have. Even now, I do still want to improve my writing and I think writing with others helps keep me on my toes, honestly.
I can 100% tell you right now that it wasn't Prezrok's fault. The night the site went down, I sent him a strongly worded email with a link users had flocked to and not only did he respond directly to me, but also to the chat group. Then on top of that, he reopened Ernya and that was how we got those last 2 hours. Emy shut it down. I understand that she just wanted it to end, but FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU, that's a rant for another day, rofl.
But let's be real here. Ernya had the best damn dolls. Period. Yes, there were some creativity issues in regards to the types of items being made, but that's a standard issue across doll site boards when they're newer.
I'm picky with my partners, but only because I don't want the annoyance of just letting them have all the fun. That's unfortunate that happened to you.
Well, my main merfolk oc is a hybrid angler fish x electric eel. A pissy bioluminescent fish that lurks in the deep. They're a chaotic neutral who'll eat their own kind. Nonbinary gender wise, because fish. But they present as a femboy. I <3 me a good femboy oc omg.
I would give you a link to read more about it, but my stories with that particular partner are harder in nature, so they can't be posted on the public forum over there. emotion_sweatdrop
They have more monstrous characters. So while technically it's merfolk, it's not exactly Disney. It's more lovecraftian, which I think is pretty great. Not exactly sure about plot just let, but we do know that it's gonna involve a slow burn using elements from Good Omens. BECAUSE I AM A CHILD OF DIVORCE season 3 needs to hurry the ******** up! T____T;;
Sweet! Feel free to throw brainstorming at me. I know my profile bio over there says I'm full atm, but you're special. d:
Yeah, it's pretty great. Not only is TR my favorite light fantasy magic more realistic world, I enjoy doing research when coming up with artifacts and archeological dig sites and whatnot. It doesn't hurt that my little mini group all gets along so well! We support each other and whatnot. Our ooc chat is pretty great. <3
https://www.roleplayerguild.com/topics/191426-the-dark-beyond/ic
https://www.roleplayerguild.com/topics/191603-the-dark-beyond-adventures-in-candyland-prequel/ic
I like to think that my writing has greatly improved since our Ernya days:
https://ernya.tumblr.com/post/87218038920/ernya-a-humble-beginning
I'm so glad that tumblr still exists. Emy would have deleted it, but she didn't have access to it as it was user ran. Mostly by iWrox as I have no idea how to tumblr, rofl. It makes me happy and sad at the same time, but it's nice to be able to reflect on it sometimes. There was another post ready to go, but it died along with the site. Hidden away on the volunteer staff subforum.
I do have other non-human oc and whatnot, but I'm just picky about the story, my partner's ability and whatnot. My 1x1 partner and I are talking about merfolk in our ooc pm atm. We're scheming ideas and such, lol
Oh and,
If you decide to join that roleplay site I linked you, feel free to hit me up over there as well. Because yes, I'm Lexisheeps on there. In case it's not obvious. <3
And for the roleplays, I've got a Tomb Raider/Indie Jones/Nate Drake/John Wick inspired rp going. One main one, and then a prequel for it. It's got a very sol/soap opera feel to it. Much more character development than TR/IJ/ND ever offered. Is fun cause I'm playing with my favorite fandoms/inspo and my oldest OC. xD Did you see my Adventures storybook on Ernya? It's that OC's life story.
What type of OCs do you have? It's been a hot minute since I've played a game.