Dear Demetri,
I'm sorry I'm not sending this in a PM, it must be awkward reading this on my profile, I can only say I didn't have the time. I wanted you to know that I wont be on for a long time, I'm going home, back to Canada to tie up some loos ends. Sophie has more info if you really wanna know. I'm sorry, this is not fair to you, I know, but I feel like if I ever want to be truly happy I need to do this, no matter how hard it's going to be. I'm being let out of the hospital tomorrow and my plane leaves a couple hours after my release time. I can only hope you will understand and accept it. I wont be gone forever, I don't think I could be gone for so long without at least talking to you. Please forgive me for leaving you like this, it wont be forever. I want you to be happy, it's my only wish. If I could, I would make you the happiest man alive, but I'm incapable of doing this for various reasons, some of which you know of and others you'll never hear of. I love you with all that's left of my heart, it belongs to you and only you.
~John