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Greetings, human! Now, before you leave, let me tell you a few things about me... Which will turn into a lot of things. Eventually. You just watch.

Yes, I made this profile. These are not my pictures, though. I take no credit for them.

My name is Jackie. Some people call me Kiki. Yes indeed, what a strange name for an even stranger creature. Don't be alarmed...I don't bite much (although Jesse is the exception). I tend to be quite calm, and I think waaaay too much. But when I'm with Jesse and friends I feel exhilarated, and thus; turn hyperactive in the presence of a few selected people. Once my bubbly and outgoing personality is out... You better watch out. I'm completely random at times. I have a low self esteem, I can be quite annoying, I like helping others, I'm smart, and I wear glasses sometimes. I have nothing against gay or bi people or people. It doesn't take much to make me happy, just love me and smile for me and hug me and I'll be happy for the rest of the day until something ruins it n-n. I'm 16 years old, but I'm usually acting either 5 or 40.

I like: Spending time with Jesse, listening to music, chocolate, singing, writing, drawing, painting, attempting to play the guitar, hanging out with friends, my choir girls =], hot topic, ice cream, cookies, smiling, laughing, DDR, Full Metal Alchemist, Full Metal Panic!, Fruits Basket, Bleach, Naruto, Dears, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, Deathnote, Family Guy, C.S.I., helping others, etc.

I extremely dislike: celery, Jody, people who base ideotic behavior on even more ideotic reasoning, lies, fake promises, thieves.

Did I mention I tend to think a lot? People don't usually get to know all the deep stuff I think about. I think about human behavior, world problems and solutions to certain things. I like things that people would consider un-beautiful, like dark, twisted, creepy things; I find them wonderful, they're beautiful in their own way. I tend to like things that make me think; things that surprise me. I REALLY adore surprises, because usually no one gets to breathe without me knowing about it, and surprising me is difficult, though I do wish it would happen more often. In a good way.

I get hurt easily and badly, and I won't usually show it. Mainly because I believe it's not important, and it'll just go away. I'm wrong about that most of the time. Lately I've been adopting more of that 'whatever' attitude, but I want to change that. It's becoming like a self defense mechanism, because the truth is I care too much. Life is too boring as it is, lol. My personality is basically contradicting. My words are and aren't at the same time. I don't lie; but I DO joke around. I make sure people know I'm joking, though. I extremely dislike liars.

I don't judge anyone till I get to know them. I'm trustworthy and more of a peaceful person. If someone talks s**t about me behind my back, I'll just act distant; but I won't start anything. Gotta warn you though... You DO NOT want to get me angry... You just don't. There's only a FEW people that have seen me truly angry. I do get annoyed more often but I rarely get really irate. People that stubbornly believe in rumors that are WRONG and about my friends will usually make me pretty annoyed. I dislike it when someone bases their extremely ideotic behavior on s**t that's not even reasonable. It really makes me wanna punch someone. Don't worry, I never have. Although If you start acting like a complete a*****e; you might be first one I punch.

I love my friends and family. Jesse, Mommy and daddy, my kitty, grandpa, grandma, my other grandpa and grandma; my nanny and all her family, my godmother and all her family, mauricio, my aunt Soledad, Linnea, Mariana, Ms. Mahnken, Pj, Kate, Gary, Stephie, and well all my friends =].

My boyfriend, Jesse, means the world to me. I couldn't have asked for a better guy. He's the most wonderful ever. He's everything in my eyes, everything that I've ever wished for and wanted. I love him with all my heart, with all that I am. He taught me not to use the word 'hate', and he brings out the best of me. I love how he undersands everything I tell him, how we finish each other's sentences, how we say things at the same time and answer to our questions before they've been asked. It gets to the point to where he could be saying "You know the thing in the uh...Uhm..." "Yeah" "Is it...?" And I'll know exactly what he's talking about, Lol. He's back now, and it's the reason for my happiness. He gives me strength to go on, even though I'm scared of growing up, I feel better knowing that he'll be there with me through it all, it makes me look forward to it. He's the only guy I've ever truly loved, and would do almost anything for, give my life for. I love my baby, and we'll both do whatever we possibly can to keep this relationship going untill the end of time.

One of my best friends lives in Peru, her name is Marianna and I miss her bunches. We've known each other for 15 years. I got to see her last year; and that was great, but I do wish we would talk more.

My other best friend is amazing. She is my wonderful un-blood-related sister; her name is Linnea. She makes if diffucult for me to be depressed, lol. Of course, innocent me is just trying to be miserable and Lin just comes around and makes my day, lol. It's so amazing how we'll spend hours and hours laughing about absolutely NOTHING at all, and how we're there for each other. I call her parents mom and dad and her house truly feels like a second home =D. We have so many inside jokes, and I truly value her friendship.

Ms. Mahnken has been there for me whenever I need her. I will just pop into her room, and chat with her for a while. She always seems to understand me and gives me good advice. She's always concerned whenever something's wrong, and will walk me to my next class if I need to talk more. Ms. Mahnken and Ms. Weihs are my favorite teachers =]. M&M's for life!

Another person I know I can trust with my life is PJ. We haven't been taking much lately but he's always there to listen and give me advice when I'm really gone. He's a wonderful guy and a great person. I'll always love him too, no matter what.

Katie, Katie. Wow... Although we have our ups and downs *cough* Cellphone *cough* she's always there for me. She can be quite the character, or try to be; but we both know I can look right through her, lol; that's why she's awesome when you get to know her. I probably know her more than both me and her think I do o-O, which is quite odd. But yeah... She's there for me when I go all emo and waddle up to her to complain, lol.

Gare Bear is my bro for life. He, well, he tries to care for my problems, but I guess his way of trying to help me is by being a guy and going all you-shouldn't-do-this, you-shouldn't-care-too-much on me, lol. Which I would have hoped he would have noticed by now saying that is quite useless, I can't help caring too much. But he'll be there nonetheless and listen to me complain, for hours on end if necessary. He tries to cheer me up. We've had our share of problems, but what matters is that we're still there for each other. Just your average typical brother-sister relationship, lol.

Stephie is awesome. Her and I share and obsession with Egypt and anime in between other things. She is a very good listener, and I know I can go to her for some serious advice-listening session, lol. She'll always have a smile on her face, and althoguh I don't think she knows it it helps me cheer up =].

They help me go on; they're the reason I'm still here. If I would ever lose one of them, I'd be devastated. I guess they'll never truly know how much they mean to me. But I'll be sure to remind them ;D.

I have many other best friends and friends, I love them too, they know who they are. I just don't know what I'd do without my friends and family, lol. In a way I'm like a parasite, I need someone in order to survive.

Anyway, see? I told you these were going to be just a FEW things and uh... probably not. I was right. I know myself... And I don't at the same time. I'm forever evolving. Sometimes I don't like change. And damn, this is like a Jackie novel, lol.