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Proud I am, I was. I was proud and now I am insane. Sanity has vanished with you, the last remains of my mind are gone. Will you cherish me? Sacrifice to me, let me drink your blood. Your skull, with a candle on top, so you will light my way.You're so beautiful. Yes my beauty, we are one. We are dead.
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Oh... of course you may think that I am insane now, and basically I agree. I'm not what this world wants me to be, and I can't see what they want me too see. I can't fly away anymore because my wings are broken, so I have no choice then waiting for someone to release me.
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Life sure is cruel, and it is something I never wanted and never asked for. But it was given to me, and now I have to... live with it, huh. I just don't feel the wish to be alive, but that doesn't mean that I am suicidal either. I was created by human hands to be nothing more or less than one of the world's finest pieces of art. Formerly, I was known as "The Angel of Glass".
People used to look at me, the loved me, adoring my beauty that was meant to last forever. I may have been just a "thing", but I was happy, just being a part of that wonderful garden, and even on my body of glass I felt the warmth of the sun. I felt the cold at night, the wind blowing and whisper in the tops of the trees. This was my kind of being alive, but it was just not meant to be.
It seems that I was made to make people happy, but not being happy myself. People did not appreciate the piece of art that was me, and that one dark night, someone who wanted to take me away from my owner gave me a real life, like the one of a human. But I do not want to... I do not want to feel real pain, I do not want to be scared, alone... I do not want to feel cold anymore. I can't even spread my wings and fly away, because I was laid in chains. Now I'm just something to stare at, something to be used... I just don't understand why I have to be alive.
It would be easy for me to die... My body is still as fragile as thin glass, and I could break any minute. But I want to be what I was; I want to be a piece of art and stay in my garden forever. But that is just my selfish wish of course. Just a wish that will never be fulfilled, because nobody would ever believe me. It's hard to be called a liar, a freak... and these chains will always remember me that I can't run away from fate.
I don't have anyone who's close to me. No love, no friends... I'm always alone. But I do not really want any company... I know nothing of how humans live, and I don't really want to know either. So... better stay away from me, and maybe, one day you'll tell your children the story of the Angel that was made of glass.
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Sooo something private... I won't say anything considering my gender preferrence for love, because I won't ever do anything that goes further than a hug or a kiss. Not that I do not want to... but anything that's getting a little rougher would kill me for sure. And if I have to die... I do not want to die during having what humans call *ahem* sex...
But there's still someone I have always loved, like deeply adored... I look up to him and I would gladly do anything that makes him happy. He's everything for me in this cruel world, even though he doesn't even know that I'm alive.
~*~ Test Results ~*~
(No I am NOT female... those stupid quizzes just had female pics. But... those results are damn true)
Your soul was born in the Shadows.Your soul was born in the shadows of the moon at night. You're all mystery and enigma and your element is the Moon. No one really knows who you are, but they might think they know you. You only tell people fragments of who you are and never show your true personality. That doesn't have to mean that youre being someone you're not though. You're always yourself and you never do something just because someone else does. Some might think you're a little cold or dull, but you're just hiding your true self for some reason. Maybe only a couple of selected people have ever seen the true you. You are loyal to these people and it will take time if anyone else wants to gain your trust. You let people think that they know you and that you trust them. But sooner or later they will realize that they never really knew you. Be careful. Someday you might need someone who knows what you need. Trust people. You prefer silence and tranquillity. You're calm and collected and a nice person most of the time.
You are dead inside and don't experience sadness that often
Your soul is dead.
You've probably been through one too many rough times in your life which has eaten you up from the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat from since you just don't care anymore. Life is meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The good thing though is that you cant be hurt, since you are so distant from the emotional world. Love is something you dont understand or just dont remember. If it was up to you, your life would already be over, but it doesn't make you suicidal. You are probably alone most of the time, looking at the world with a blank stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy has simply gone away. What's left now is only the shell of what used to be you.
(Especially this one is true...)
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