Hi Light.
I miss you. I've been so afraid of coming on here, this was our place. And the last form of communication I had with you. I'm sorry I screwed everything up.
But I'm trying, as much as I can to go on. You were a part of me, my other half. I'm just so sorry our making up was so short.. then I lost you. I was blinded.
And you were right. You honestly were always right.
Thanks for the balloon. It came when I really needed it.
It's almost the 20th.. I'm going to do something special for you. I hope you like it.
Oh and I hope you're proud of me. I made it this far in life. And I'm mostly living for others, not myself.
In Amsterdam there's a place called dementia village. It is exactly what it sounds like. It's a village for people with dementia, instead of us herding them all into a
nursing home.. where they're lifeless and barely existing. So I would like to try to get one of these over in Ohio. I can't stand seeing the people in the nursing homes every day..
In that sad state of existence. So I'm trying.
Help me babe? Help me not give up. I want this. And the people with dementia need it.
Love you so much, forever and always.
Your Fang.
Hey there.
I never really found out what happened or why you disappeared. But you were extremely kind and gentle to me. Even with the little interaction we had with each other, you gave me some hope for the world and hope for my own future. I wish I knew what happened to you or where you went, but I'm hope that wherever you are, you're happy. You seem like such a sweet person, I think we would've been good friends.
Just coming here and visiting your page, I can see that people love you very much. I hope that some day I'll be able to talk with you again, and maybe draw some more pictures for you.
~Victoria
I hate Gaia. It's not the same without you. I just come here to reread our messages. I'm glad I kept the engraved bracelet you gave me on here. I regret though, that I threw away all our pictures. I have none of us.
Christy gave me the best idea. She said to put your lock into a bottle, and have it as a necklace. I wanna give one to mom too..
She wears your necklace now. That butthead didn't want to give me the blue blanket I gave you. xD
So.. it's raining.. it's days like this you liked the best..
I have so many memories coming back to me. Ones that I thought I forgot.
Mom really needs you right now. She's trying her best to live without you. As am I but.. you gave me that dream. No matter how much I try to tell her that you're trying to reach her through me, she doesn't believe it. She needs something of her own.
Our song so far away.. I hate that song.
Because it's even more real now.
I'm thinking of giving Final Fantasy XIII another shot. Not because I like it (I definitely do not), but because you did. There's got to be something redeeming about it, if you liked it so much. Which I know you did.
I bought a new gun. It's a Ruger SP101, which is the one I talked to you about getting, when you finally got to a place where you could afford to get a gun. I named her Ellie, after the female protagonist in The Last of Us.
One of these days, I'm going to get you a grave stone. A beautiful one. No gravestone or inscription on earth could do you justice, but I'll do my best.
It's nice to have a place to talk to you where we won't be bothered. It's been a hard couple of days. I miss you. Mom misses you. She finished getting your stuff from the apartment.
Chris I miss you so much. I'm here in Elko right now. I wish it were to see you alive, to hug you, to just be with you. I'm going to see you tomorrow, and then never again.. in this lifetime anyways.
Your mom gave me the wolf stuffed animal I gave you when we were together. Wolfie is his name. I'm gonna sleep with him from now on. I noticed you didn't wash him.. I'm kinda glad you didn't. I really wish we would have worked out. I really did want to marry you one day. I'm really glad Keeby has you now. Kinda jealous actually. You have so many friends that love you. I'll keep them for now, love them, for me as well as you. I'm.. Not going to be ok seeing you tomorrow. My mom doesn't want me freaking out she says. I know I will. I just loved you so much. I still love you so much. And it is just so horrible that I have to wait to see you again. Can you help me? I'm gonna go to bed now. I love you. I'm sorry I didn't say it enough.
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I miss you. I've been so afraid of coming on here, this was our place. And the last form of communication I had with you. I'm sorry I screwed everything up.
But I'm trying, as much as I can to go on. You were a part of me, my other half. I'm just so sorry our making up was so short.. then I lost you. I was blinded.
And you were right. You honestly were always right.
Thanks for the balloon. It came when I really needed it.
It's almost the 20th.. I'm going to do something special for you. I hope you like it.
Oh and I hope you're proud of me. I made it this far in life. And I'm mostly living for others, not myself.
In Amsterdam there's a place called dementia village. It is exactly what it sounds like. It's a village for people with dementia, instead of us herding them all into a
nursing home.. where they're lifeless and barely existing. So I would like to try to get one of these over in Ohio. I can't stand seeing the people in the nursing homes every day..
In that sad state of existence. So I'm trying.
Help me babe? Help me not give up. I want this. And the people with dementia need it.
Love you so much, forever and always.
Your Fang.
I never really found out what happened or why you disappeared. But you were extremely kind and gentle to me. Even with the little interaction we had with each other, you gave me some hope for the world and hope for my own future. I wish I knew what happened to you or where you went, but I'm hope that wherever you are, you're happy. You seem like such a sweet person, I think we would've been good friends.
Just coming here and visiting your page, I can see that people love you very much. I hope that some day I'll be able to talk with you again, and maybe draw some more pictures for you.
~Victoria
Christy gave me the best idea. She said to put your lock into a bottle, and have it as a necklace. I wanna give one to mom too..
She wears your necklace now. That butthead didn't want to give me the blue blanket I gave you. xD
So.. it's raining.. it's days like this you liked the best..
I have so many memories coming back to me. Ones that I thought I forgot.
Mom really needs you right now. She's trying her best to live without you. As am I but.. you gave me that dream. No matter how much I try to tell her that you're trying to reach her through me, she doesn't believe it. She needs something of her own.
Our song so far away.. I hate that song.
Because it's even more real now.
Been far away for far too long.
One of these days, I'm going to get you a grave stone. A beautiful one. No gravestone or inscription on earth could do you justice, but I'll do my best.
Did I tell you your urn is beautiful?
Your mom gave me the wolf stuffed animal I gave you when we were together. Wolfie is his name. I'm gonna sleep with him from now on. I noticed you didn't wash him.. I'm kinda glad you didn't. I really wish we would have worked out. I really did want to marry you one day. I'm really glad Keeby has you now. Kinda jealous actually. You have so many friends that love you. I'll keep them for now, love them, for me as well as you. I'm.. Not going to be ok seeing you tomorrow. My mom doesn't want me freaking out she says. I know I will. I just loved you so much. I still love you so much. And it is just so horrible that I have to wait to see you again. Can you help me? I'm gonna go to bed now. I love you. I'm sorry I didn't say it enough.
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I HAD MY HEADPHONES IN. emotion_donotwant
(my avatar is always male anyway)