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mandychuu

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Last Login: 09/21/2024 12:35 am

Registered: 10/07/2004

Gender: Female

Location: United States

Birthday: 10/11/1990

Occupation: Store Consultant @ FedEx

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"Pet the dragons to watch them grow,
and be amazed when they show you how much they know."

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Processor: Intel i7 7700K

Motherboard: MSI Z270 GAMING PRO CARBON

GPU: EVGA GeForce GTX 1080ti SC2 Gaming

Memory:

・16GB Intel Optane Memory Accelerator M.2
・1TB HDD
・250GB SSD
・16GB DDR4 RGB RAM

Cooling:

・Asetek 570LXL 240mm Liquid CPU Cooling System
・x3 120mm Corsair SP Series High Performance RGB LED

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・Fae Farm
・Minecraft
・Palia

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・Animal Crossing
・Pokémon Scarlet

About

Mood: Forever mourning. emotion_heartbroken

elder millennial. lesbian demisexual. sometimes-writer, retro video game enthusiast, media consumer, true crime aficionado, and dog mom.

“Always be a first rate version of yourself and not a second rate version of someone else.”

— Judy Garland

Hey, Gaia. It's been a while, so I guess it's time to reintroduce myself.

I'm an oldbie, a millennial who suddenly has found herself a noob again. I started on Gaia when I was in high school and was active through my college years with spurts of activity in my 20s as I tried my hand at this thing called "adulthood."

What have I learned? That most of us are just winging it. Some have careers while others are continually seeking new experiences, but most humbling, I learned that we all have things we don't talk about. We go through rough patches in relationships, distancing from friends, and suffer the loss of those who've been with us through it all.

In the last handful of years, I've cared for my father who's been through a triple bypass, is battling stage 3 prostate cancer, and just survived an honest to gods brain parasite that most people don't live through.

In December of 2022, my mother suffered a massive stroke and is currently in a nursing facility doing physical therapy so she can at least come home in a wheelchair.

I've also lost a handful of family members and close friends who raised me and watched me grow up, and let me tell you, none of that gets easier, especially when you begin thinking about your own mortality and how others would survive your own death.

These days, I'm really into cozy gaming. Pokémon and Zelda games will always be my first loves, but give me your Stardew Valleys, your Animal Crossings and Fae Farms. Minecraft and Slime Rancher are fun and exciting in all the most wholesome of ways, and I appreciate that far more now these days than I did when I was young.

I'm recently just getting caught up with Demon Slayer and have planned to start Delicious in Dungeon soon, but I'd like to explore other anime and manga too, especially the yuri titles since I've been living authentically as my queer, lesbian self for the past nearly four years.

I know this is a novel of an "about me," so I'd like to thank you for your time. It's precious, after all. Please, always feel free to leave a comment just saying hello or message me. Whatever you prefer. And if you ever need an ear, I'm here to listen and give advice when asked. I try to keep a pretty open mind and extend courtesies where others don't. Just like it takes a village to raise a child, it also takes that same community to lift each other up. Positive thinking can be hard if it isn't something you're used to practicing.

I hope you have a fantastic day, wherever you are. heart heart heart

In Memory of My Sweet Valentine

[ View her obituary.* ]

Recently, I've had to suffer through the worst experience of my life and losing my partner to a fatal car accident. She had many mental health struggles, and I hope that wherever she is now, she's at peace.

To her, I'd like to say:

"Valentine, my love, I'm so sorry that you had to battle so many demons all at once, and although you felt the love and support of all of those around you, it was never enough to put those demons to rest. You fought so hard for your beliefs, protected and defended those who couldn't on their own, and lived your most authentic truth, regardless of outside opinions. Your life was cut tragically short, just as we were embarking on our own journey together as a queer couple navigating the world we lived in. I will always cherish our time together, for you were my soulmate, my favorite person in the world, and the person I knew with which I wanted to spend the rest of my life growing old together. Your Little Bella will always love you."

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If you have the means, please consider donating to the GoFundMe campaign arranged by her sister. We're all grieving in so many ways, but there are still many loose endings that need to be tied up. If you don't have the means, I encourage you to please share the campaign with your communities. On behalf of her mother, father, sister, niece, and nephew, I thank you.

*Please note that Valentine decided years ago to abandon her legal name for one of her own choosing. Sadly, we never got to make that change official because we were planning to do so when we got married. When referring to her, please remember her chosen name: Valentine Lovella Snow.

In Memory of Family and Friends

Summers
March 21, 2001 - March 27, 2015

Mary Catherine Schafer
October 2, 1930 - July 20, 2024

LaVonne Jeanette Miller
August 23, 1939 - July 1, 2022

Norman Peter Leonardson
May 29, 1929 - June 2, 2013
[ Personal Blog Post ]

Kim Elaine Reilly
March 10, 1951 - April 28, 2010

Martha Baggett Schwartz
November 19, 1950 - December 8, 2008
[ Raider Funeral Home Tribute Wall ]

Dirk Alan Leonardson
November 18, 1956 - October 4, 1980
[ Memorial Page ]

twenty one pilots - Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover)

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please consider donating to my girlfriend's gofundme campaign after her tragic passing.

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tripIe hex Report | 09/10/2024 4:45 am: Oh my heart breaks for you! I think you could torture yourself forever with the not knowing for sure. Please try to be kind to yourself, as hard as that is probably going to be.
tripIe hex Report | 09/10/2024 4:30 am: Thank you for sharing her with us. You've written a beautiful tribute and I hope she's found peace too.
DorkieSin Report | 09/02/2024 1:45 pm: Yeah it seems that it would be. It's devastating something like that can happen... I hope it gets better for you...

Your favorite Pokemon is Pikachu? Wasn't expecting that. I do love some Vulpix. I have a mini stuffy of Vulpix on my desk
DorkieSin Report | 09/01/2024 9:52 am: Hope you're doing well,
I wanted to know if you have a favorite Pokemon?
Blackberry Heartilly Report | 08/02/2024 1:57 pm: Love the art in your siggy! heart
runescape player marukke Report | 07/31/2024 1:13 pm: thank u !! its not for depression its for adhd but if it helps w my adhd i will likely feel less depressed !!!
stop dragon my cat around Report | 07/28/2024 3:15 pm
Turkey Mama Report | 08/01/2021 9:56 am: Oh my goodness, I had not heard of ohtori.nu... thank you!!! Now I can delve even deeper into my Utena rabbit hole, oh my I'm into trouble sweatdrop heart The Nanami cosplay on the site is amazing, reminds me a lot of the one I made so many years ago. I'll blame you for getting me re-obsessed 4laugh
Turkey Mama Report | 07/31/2021 8:28 pm: Haha yes, definitely needs more cowbell rofl

There is a new Utena manga out?! Holy frijoles I need to check that out! The original is great, it's actually prequel to the series. It's not nearly as weird, but in other ways it is weirder. And yes, the movie... well... it's Utena indeed dear!! whee heart
Turkey Mama Report | 07/31/2021 12:51 pm: Utena is hands down my favorite anime 4laugh heart I own the entire collection, manga and even the movie. Can't tell you how many times I've watched it and I find something new every time. Here's my Nanami avi, hope you like her! Eventually I'd like to have one for every character. Working on Juri now~