As I lie awake at night, I watch the clock tick the minutes forward. The hours pass, and I still can't manage to fall asleep. How long have I been lying here? I can't help but wonder...what are you thinking about right now? It's early in the morning...I can picture you sleeping right now. You're lying in your bed...so calm...peaceful. So beautiful. So silent.
Tears slide down my face...you're just so amazing. I feel at rest watching you sleep inside my head, and my body relaxes. It's just...so nice to feel at peace. I wipe away at my wet cheeks, and roll onto my stomach.
I can't breathe anymore...the oxygen just isn't coming. I sit up, but no air still. Just pain. I choke for air, and finally it comes. My eyes shut themselves, and I fall back to my pillow. It's so soft...and I feel so safe.
Almost as if I'm in your arms. So safe. So perfect.
Help me....... Caitlin, help me!!! I'm losing everything; everything about who I am and who I want to be. I'm not doing bad in school or living an immoral lifestyle....in fact quite the opposite. I'm doing everything perfectly.
But I'm dying. I'm losing sight of reality. Sometimes I'm just sitting in class or in my room and suddenly I am swallowed by horrible thoughts. I cannot really explain correctly.....but I'm taken to a different world where everything is death, and selfishness, and loveless, and isolation.
And there's no one here to pull me back to reality......and thus.....it's getting harder and harder to tell which is reality.....
I need you. I think you may have been the only thing keeping me for slipping away.
Help me....... Caitlin, help me!!! I'm losing everything; everything about who I am and who I want to be. I'm not doing bad in school or living an immoral lifestyle....in fact quite the opposite. I'm doing everything perfectly.
But I'm dying. I'm losing sight of reality. Sometimes I'm just sitting in class or in my room and suddenly I am swallowed by horrible thoughts. I cannot really explain correctly.....but I'm taken to a different world where everything is death, and selfishness, and loveless, and isolation.
And there's no one here to pull me back to reality......and thus.....it's getting harder and harder to tell which is reality.....
I need you. I think you may have been the only thing keeping me for slipping away.
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