The things that make me who i am

Hey everyone! Well i dont really know what to say about myself, but I guess i could tell u that I'm a totally random, spaxmatic, animal loving, usuallly happy person, buti do have a slight emoish, dark, depressed side. actually, i wont lie that part of my personality jst resently blossemed. i randomly get depressed wen i have time to think. & yet i can still go right back to being meh happy spaz self... =? i have becom kinda self concius. not lyk i alwasy think i look lyk s**t but lyk idk. i jst am surprised by comliments & usually think the persons lyin or w/e. its kinda lame. i;ve started to view myself as a loser. but most...almost all meh friends say i;m not... lol. i have actually made alot more friends this year & thats been hella nice xD Um...I'm an only child and i am curently a freshman in high skool...& collage!!!(no joke bout the collage part!) which would make me 14!I'm actuallykinda young for meh grade... all meh friends r older then me, basically. lol
I own and ride a horse named Noel! if u know anything 'bout horses she's a dark bay, thoroughbred mare, off the track! shes 12 and her b-days March 19th! shes a real cuttie & is always there to make me happy wen i'm sad. unless thers food them screw me. lol still luv her tho! I also have a female black lab mix! shes a big, happy, fun dog and i love her to pieses! she 7 but if u'd never met her u'd think she was 1 or 2! she resently had to have DOUBLE knee surgery ); even after that she still is just as fun, youg acting, & happy(if not more so cuz now shes out of pain! woohoo meh puppy's mmk!). you can ask my friends she loves to play and also loves ppl! I love animals and seem to have a conection with them.(fyi, almost all i meet seem to like me and i seem to understand them) i know it sounds weird & u probably think i'm a freak now but w/e its ur opinion & u deserve to have it! anywho i love all animals and big on animal rights and so on.
So far i've managed good grades in skool...my fav classes r math, and pe, i think...?
Music is my life! w/o it i would die! lol not really..well actually maybe i wud. speciall now. its wut gets me throw the day alot. but anyway, i love to listen to music! i'm good with almost anything. but meh fav generias(sp) are alternative, &/or rock. i also lyk dance(a lil, well basically jst botdf & ppl lyk them). i guess u cud say stuff lyk metal, & screamo & stuff lyk that r meh favs too. lol so ya stuff around that. srr if tat makes no scence. altho if u've actually read this far u have probably relized i dont know how to arrange words in a way that they make sence to others. lol so srr.
I haev recently gotten a much dirtier mind then i used to or then most of meh friends do actually... well, i always have but thanx to sum of meh new epic friends it's come bac to the surrface. lol i can turn a lot into somethin nasty, even when no one else getts it. Um idk what else to say...if u got any other questions pm me or leave me a comment... xD


Some stuff i've read resently & i like:
~those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind
~Things to be thankful for
-Be thankful for the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means you have enough to eat.
-Be thankful for the mess you clean up after a party because it means you have been surrounded by friends.
-Be thankful for the taxes you pay because it means you're employed.
-Be thankful that your lawn needs mowing and your windows need fixing because it means you have a home.
-Be thankful for your heating bill because it means you are warm. -
-Be thankful for the laundry because it means you have clothes to wear.
-Be thankful for the space you find at the far end of the parking lot because it means you can walk.
-Be thankful for the lady who sings off-key behind you in church because it means you can hear.
-Be thankful when people complain about the government because it means we have freedom of speech.
-Be thankful for the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means you're alive.
~fun experiment:
Before you go to bed, brush your teeth (naturally). While brushing, try to list five good things about your day, no matter how stupid or insignificant they seem. You got a good grade? It counts. Your little sister wasn't as bratty as usual? It counts. Dinner tasted good? It counts. Your hair and clothes looked just right when you went to school this morning? It counts. One day closer to vacation? It counts. Little things also make your own day less crappy.
~You are alive. This makes a difference to somebody in this world. A positive one. It could be your parents. It could be the old lady on the street whose bag you picked up and handed it to her. It could be the hot guy on the bus you smiled at. It could have been the foreign tourist whom you showed the way to the station. Or even the neighbor's cat you pet. Chances are you turned a really crappy day a little less crappy.