I kissed you, feeling it truly was our final goodbye. That final foggy night in October could forever haunt me, if it wasn't for the sunlight that shown in my room the next morning. I opened my eyes and let in that golden light, feeling it radiate through me and found that all the pain I have felt before, those tears I shed that night, was merely from releasing what I had bundled inside. As I packed up my things and turned from my sobbing mother's face I found my release in that car, on that road. I built myself up, I saved my own money and stepped out from that torture. My world was opening. I opened my eyes and let in that golden sight, feeling the views flying by me fill me with happiness and release. I found that place I had once ran to, the old riverbed, and mourned the lost childhood behind those closed doors. Those nights of bloodied sheets and held in sobs. Slowly my head raises to that forlorn sky and the slow, small smile that creeps silently upon my face gives me a new strength to stand and get back in my car. To where am I going? I don't know, I have no idea, but I'm done living in the past, I'm done living with people who do nothing but tear me down. Here I go, finally a raven stepping out of its dark and becoming a dove, forever flying in shining white and gold.
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