My History
"Maybe I know, somewhere, deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone, or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself
That I am content with loneliness
'Cause none of it was ever worth the risk..."
~ 
~ Why I’m On Gaia ~ ~
I'm just here to find partners willing to roleplay and write stories with me. If you're interested, send me a message.
Full info in my journal which is currently under construction, please be patient with me.
~ ~ About Me ~ ~
~ More people call me Rin than my real name.
~ Music is my life - I listen to it 24/7
~ I sing all the time
~ I'm a very introverted person.
~ Relational status: single
~ I'm German with British and Scandinavian blood mixed in.
~ I love all my pets dearly - they're my furbabies. I have two cats, Shiva and Roberto, two guinea pigs, Aloy and Talanah, and two fish tanks.
~ I'm more of a tomboy than a girly-girl.
~ I'm 5' 5"
~ I have 6 piercings and 2 tattoos. I had more piercings but I had to take them out due to being allergic to pretty much every form of metal.
~ I have hazel colored eyes.
~ I'm allergic to pretty much everything. I get allergy shots every other week.
~ I love to paint but I stick to paint-by-numbers or ceramics.
~ My birthday is February 25th
~ I'm addicted to lip balm - even if my lips aren't dry, I put it on. Now that I'm an adult, I've switched to lipstick during the day.
~ When people ask me if I'm fine, I lie... a lot.
~ I worry about everything.
~ I have a bajillion nicknames such as Rin and Rinny-chan, and even some weird stuff like Magee, Polar Bear, Z, Wiggles, and Peanut Butter.
~ I am an addict to sugar - I've let it rule my life for several decades. Now I'm a recovering addict, trying to keep it out of my life as much as possible.
~ ~ My Greatest Achievements ~ ~
Graduating with a Master’s degree in Health Administration with the honors of Summa c** Laude.
~ ~ My Greatest Loves ~ ~
Japan - From their country to their culture.
Studio Ghibli Films
Water - I love everything about it, from the creatures who swim in it, the silence when you are under the surface. It is the best escape from life.
Animals
Writing and Reading
Painting
Music and Singing
Movies and Shows - Especially period pieces, sci-fi or fantasy.
Video Games - Favorites include Ghost of Tsushima and Ghost of Yotei, Horizon Zero Dawn and Forbidden West, and Final Fantasy X.
~ ~ My Greatest Disappointments in Life ~ ~
Fibromyalgia - This disease has taken a lot of my dreams away.
My Genetrics - Fibromyalgia is a part of it, but I have numerous other auto-immune disorders and a half a dozen other health conditions I'm trying to correct.
Fear of Relationships - I've been burned so much I push everyone away at this point who tries to get close.
Kidney Stones - I am highly proficient at growing them. I stopped counting at 30. I call them my b*****d children. My biggest (thus far) was 25mm.
My Inner Voice - She is immensely unkind to me.
Hope - I find it almost always leads to disappointment.
Trigger-Happy People - You are entitled to your opinion and I'm entitled to mine. Don't get all pissy because they don't perfectly align with yours.
~ ~ My Favorite Quotes ~ ~
~ "Being happy does not mean that everything is perfect. It simply means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."
~ "Life is about trusting your feelings, taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing life goes on."
~ "People say 'hate' is a strong word but so is 'love' and yet they throw it around like it's nothing."
~ "You can't change what has happened to you in the past. Because what happened to you in the past is what made you who you are in the present."
~ "Sticks and stones might break my bones, but words can shatter the soul."
~ “What you do with your life is really only half of the equation, the other half—the more important half really—is who you’re with when you’re doing it.”
~ "Life isn't about worrying, that's a waste of time. And life isn't about being perfect, it will never happen. Life is about finding yourself and finding people who accept that person."
~ ~ Avi Art ~ ~
Siuyeh
"It's like screaming, but no one can hear.
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important.
That without them, you feel like nothing.
No one will ever understand how much it hurts.
You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you.
And when it's over and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
So that you could have the good..."
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