A day late and a dollar short lol, but yea, Happy Birthday Shana-Chan~ we all miss u terribly and even though the years have drug by slowly I still think about u often and I look at ur picture on my wall often. . . .
Allot has changed over the last little while now, about a year or two now give or take, and honestly I am unsure if u would be pleased with how things are now. . . . </3 however, even though many of us have gone our own ways, I am still fairly sure everyone thinks of u often and we all miss u, Happy Belated birthday~
oh and I apologize for failing to post on this every year as I had originally planned to, I have been enduring allot off and on throughout my life as I am sure u are aware; but either way, I will stop boring u with my mundane mortal issues lol
I miss u shana, and I still wish to this day that u were still here with us, maybe many things in our lives would be differnt than they are now. . . . .
you would be so proud of ur siblings and ur mother and father both seem to be hanging in there, and they miss u all the time, as I am sure u know, , , , ,
~hugs tightly~ I luv and miss yea broski, thanks for everything, if it weren't for u, I don't know what kind of life I would have even had, or if I would have had a life at all really.. . . . .
and all because of a lack of interest in physical activities and a shared interest in a book lol. . . . .
god I miss u terribly, and I didn't even get the grace of knowing u nearly as long as I wish I had. </3
anywhoot, happy belated birthday again, believe it or not I spent the last several hours trying to figure out for sure if it was yesterday or not -face palm- my bad. . . . . . I'm sure u have a sharp edged book ready for me. lol emo
stupid laptop hit submit, anyway... I miss you so ******** much man. Yeah know, more so now than ever, I wish you would let us take more pictures, and get more videos of you, because... ******** man, we have like next to nothing from you. Katie has your stories, Libby has your art and some of your stories, your sister has all your stuffies, and I'm sure your family kept most of the rest of your things, I only have a couple of drawings you just so happen to have left with me, and a couple of pictures I came across by chance.
I really wish you were barred here, or your plack was put here in lakeport. I really wanna go see you Shana.... if I could have switched places with you, I would. IN A ******** heartbeat! I wish I could have been there so I could try to save you....you could still be around... yeah know? even if your family still moved and took you, it would suck but at least you would still be here... yeah know?
I haven't stopped thinking about you, not ONE ******** second, not at all. I'm going to school to work for Disney, like I told you I would. the band idea we had died out a little before you left us, and it hasn't been spoken off much except in terms of laughing about our past. I still plan to make our movies like we talked about. I wanna get a tattoo in your memory.... but i have no idea what to get... I was thinking getting a tattoo of you when you were little and have it say rip Shana-chan your birth date and your death date.
I almost wish that I had lost my mind when I heard you had left, or a little before so I could live in a fantasy land that you were still here, that way I would have to cry as much as I have sense I lost you. Funny thing is, I haven't cried over anyone or anything else as much as I did for you, and I haven't really cried much sense you left unless I am thinkin about you. You be so proud of your sister, I believe, she is still an anime fan, she draws from what I see and it seems to me like she looks after your brother, but I'm sure you know all about all of us. I'm sure your watching over all of us.... at least I hope you are because even if we can't see you, at least you could still be around us. I miss you so ******** much, so ******** much Shana.... it still seems so ******** unreal, like your going to pop out and laugh at us for believing that your gone, but then I have to force myself to come back to the reality that your gone. I'm crying again, and its been so ******** long sense you left.
my ******** christ you would be so much older now. I wonder how you would be if you were still around in our lives, would you be a car person, a truck maybe, or maybe would you prefer your walking? Would you have gone to collage or straight to the work force.... would you still be beating people with corners of your books? would you be dating people already or would you be holding out for the right one? would you have moved out of your parents house, or would you still be chilling at home? you would have been what, 21 or 22 this year? you could be chilling with all of us, roleplaying, drawing, chatting and being as awesome as you have always been! it feels like sense you passed the rest of us fell apart, so quickly.... so very quickly.....
we have all been thinkin about you allot recently.... and as the years go on, i find out more about what really happened and how you really passed, and it makes me more and more angry to think you could still be alive....
g'dammit shana! why couldn't you have lived? why did you have to leave?! I wish so ******** bad that you would come back to us, I wouldn't ask how, I promise I would be happy if you did, even for an hour, a minuet, I wouldn't care, I just want you here!
I think I need to wrap this up for a little bit, I will write back to you as soon as I can. ~tight hug~ I miss you so ******** bad Shana! please be safe and happy where ever you are! Please don't forget about all of us, we all LOVE YOU so very much!
I am so sorry that we cannot hug you and be with you still.... however I am sure you are doing well where you are....
I just wish.... yeah know.... I wish that what happened didn't....
but I guess everything is meant for a reason I suppose....
I have had many dreams.... many of them had you in them.... you were still alive and doing well...
one of them was soooo real... I woke up and actually thought about asking libby for your number so I could call you...
but... when I came back to reality... I cried...
it sucks that you were taken from your family, your friends, everyone, and everything....
its sad really.... you never got your first car.... you never got your license... you never got your first job, never got your first bf (as far as I know), or anything.... you left this world so early... that it seems like you didn't get the chance to really live before you were taken...
it kills me to know that a couple of years has already past... if anything.... I think about three or four years has passed....
every day when I wake up I remember you, and think,' we were soooo fuskin lucky for meeting you... and even having the chance to even be known as your common friends amongst your very short life'. it was your friendship to me that brought me into a whole new world I never thought I would come across....
I still draw....
I bet you already know that.
heh...
god this seems so.... unreal...
I can't believe you have been gone for soooo long....
you know... I never got to see your family before they left... I never got to let your family know I was sorry for their loss.... I never got to find out what really happened... but then again the only people that know are the people who were there....
libby misses the hell out of you... you know that ~small smile~
we all do....
dammit shana... we're all getting older... and it just doesn't feel the same without you, you know that.
~small laugh~
you were amazing!
you were one of the best friends I could ever have met in my whole life....
it just sucks that you won't be there for the rest of our lives....
well where ever you are shana.... just know we all love you, we miss you, and we all hope to someday meet with you again, be you be reborn or us come and join you where ever you went to.
you would be so proud of zenze.... she is planning on going to Japan still, and she knows allot of Japanese, she is doing very very well for herself.
Katie too, she is doing very well, and is growing up to be such a beautiful young lady, although she is working allot and hard recently and having a hard time here and there, but hey who doesn't....
Sara is doing well, but I don't here much from her recently....actually not much at all >>
rochelle, is doing very well with her art.... but she is going through a little bit of a cruel game where people hurt her heart over and over again.... hopefully that stops soon...
kotweet, I see her here and there, she has matured allot!
I don't think you ever met lyssa, but she is one of libby's closest friends now adays...she is a pretty neat person, and libby, well she is doing pretty good from what I hear.... she has a job and everything.... but her family is kind of leaning on her right now, beings bob can't go back to work, as far as I have been told, and jo, I don't think she ever had a job when I met her, but yeah..... her brother lost his job to, so libby is working really hard recently... well...
I am going to end this with a short sweet and neat "Happy 19th Shana, we all love you and miss you!"
hello, shana-chan, happy 18th birthday. I hope you are doing well where ever you are. I can't believe it has been about three years already sense you were taken from us. well at any rate, we all miss you shana-chan, and we all still think about you. :2nod: so where ever you are up there on the other side, we all wish you a happy 18th!
hey shana. I hope you are happy where ever you are, and I hope you know that we all miss you. I just wanted to post to wish a happy v-day, and I hope that you are having fun chasing your enimeies around with a binder with sharp like corners. lolz, we all miss you and we all love ya shana.
Don't ever put that s**t on this persons page or you will be reported! Respect the dead! I don't care if you knew or not but don't you ever put that s**t on there again!
*looks down at previous comment* Jesus... stop posting stupid things... especially not Shana-chans... cause she sadly was killed in a car accident, so really.... stop posting stupid crap here... *shakes head* I am sorry Shana where ever you are. we all miss you and we hope where ever you are you are having as much fun as you usually did with us, and the anime stuff. miss ya Shana, have fun where ever ya are, and I shall post here some other time.
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