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first off i wanna give a shout out to all my friends oo yea and erin, how did u like my a**? haha yes if your wondering she grabbed it as we were walking up the stairs immatating one of my friends. lol. it was hilarious it made me jump tho and r awsome teacher mr. swencki (and hes kinda cute) looked at us and sed "im goin to pretend i didnt see that ha! well n.e. ways...r school is being renovated but were goin to be out of it when its all said and done goin to the high school razz its so awsome bc half of it is finished and b4 that tho it was so OLD! haha but im glad that im goin to high school next year altho i will b scared haha
Sometimes things happen that you cant prevent. Like love for instance, or pain, to me they're all the same. Just the moment you think you have everything going for you something worse than ever before may occur without your approval. I am writing this in regard of Stan. He died from cancer that he had already beatin' once before. Sometimes when things happen you can't prevent them so love the ones you have because this could happen to anyone. You don't have to care what I put or even read it but I am paying my respects to him. He died of a very rare cancer and my oldest brother and him we're some of the greatest firends. To see my 19 year old brother in tears is horrible. Stan didn't deserve this having to be in the hospital a lot in his life time. All I want to state in here is you love every minute of your life because every minute could have been the last for him so he cherished it, just like everyone else should.
MY LOVELY POEM
in public i smile to hide my aching pain
my head pulsing i can feel my wrists drain
i am drowning in postponed emotion
i told myself that its not worth it
but when i think of them together
i feel incomplete
i feel destroyed
i feel betrayed
i feel as if my heart exploded and somehow is still beating
and with every single, independant beat
my head fills with the memories of how it used to be
i was thinking of all the unforgetables
like you holding me tight
or sneaking over to my house very late at night
or when i fell asleep in your arms and i felt as if we were inspretable
and you staring into my eyes rite before you kissed me
just to imagine that we will never share the same emotions again
and that she will get the attention from you that i used to get
how can you just jump into something right away and forget all about me
were the feelings you felt for me overtaken by the feelings for her?
i cant harldy stand to look at you
i no that i cant aviod you forever
and that i will have to face you sometime
but your immaturity of this departion is overwhelming
calling my fone saying you want to tlk with your new girlfriend on the line
or acting like we never had anything going on between us
you have hurt me greatfully and you dont even care
you are too tied up in your own feelings and emotions to think about mine
or to consider how i mightve felt after u broke it off
or to even give me a second chance to prove myself to u
its almost like we were never together
its almost as if those feelings were never real
and that u lied to me about everything u ever said
i want to believe you lied about it all to get over you faster
but when u swear to me those feelings were real
its cutting me deeper than ever before
i dont think i will ever recover from this tradgity
i am lost and broken without him to hold me
i will never have anyone who will be here for me when i cry
i will never have anyone who will risk everything just to come see me
so i was just wondering if i should just give up or keep on trying
and just mayb he will discover his true feelings for me
but i higly doubt for a second i am a guilt in his mind
he doesnt care that he shattered my heart
but the thing is i still will luv him no matter what he does
and no matter who he is with i would hope that he still thinks of me
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rite now i have one of the sexiest guys on the planet and we been goin out for exactly 3 monthsnow and im gettin tired of his ******** ex gf callin his mom and s**t tlkin everyday to her i mean ********! im about to kik her skanky a** and shes3 years olde
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