Exactly two years from today, I commented on this profile (same time too) and I also believe it was the night we met. <3
Well, it was early morning for you. :'D
Oh you. I'm leaving a comment on your profile again.
I feel silly for leaving so many comments on here in the past after you left initially, it seems a little creepy and desperate now, hah, but it still remains that I miss you. Or... yeah, for lack to eloquent words, I suppose that'll do. C:
Uh, yeah, if you find this, look on your Eternally Snow account, yo'. I put something actually sort of worthwhile there, hehe. <3
So... I was off by two days, but as of 11/11/07 (Sounds fun to say, and hey, those are my graduating years for high school '07-'11), it's been a year since we first met each other! Whoot! Or at least I think. Its the day I first commented on your profile, and then you commented back the next day. :3
I still miss you, but I suppose I can see where you're coming from if you don't wanna come back. -huggles- Plus you're like.. in college now? Maybe university? So you're probably loaded with work and all.
Would I be wrong in assuming that you're going to surprise me and pop up on my birthday? That would be a nice birthday present, just getting to talk to you.
And it's strange, you've somehow become like some magnificent but fleeting dream that I don't want to forget. I hardly even have proof that you ever existed in my life, except the messages online and this profile. I really, and truly still want to talk to you again, because there was something different about you-- maybe it was the fact that you were the only one in a long while that I felt I kept even just a small connection with. You see, most people just come and go on here, you friend request them, and then they accept, but do most of them ever talk to you again? In your case, I guess they would, because you're just awesome, but for me, things were just starting to get lonely on here. I came home from school or woke up on the weekends hoping that I could talk to you on here because I felt that sort of security in our friendship and I didn't want it to fade. Sorry if that sounds creepy. So I guess, your leaving was sort of a shock.
I don't know. But even if you don't come back, no matter how strongly I wish it, my memory of you will always be the one who said things that didn't seem real or I wasn't sure if you really meant them. Things like, "You don't have to worry about me ignoring you" and thinking that everyone was beautiful. And you know, it was kind of strange for someone who seemed so warm to be called Snow, y'know? Forgive me if this all sounds like a pile of mushy junk. I /do/ mean this all though.
Although... I'm not sure if I should keep dwelling on your memory and waiting for you. I've been telling myself a little bit recently that if you really wanted to talk to me again, you surely would have done it by now. So, is this a lost cause? I don't think that i want to let go just yet.
And I started roleplaying! Haha. You inspired me to roleplay, and you have no idea how badly I wanted to join in one of your roleplays when I lurked upon your posts. -is a nerd.- Oh yeah, and I don't know if I've already told you this, but that time I had a headache and didn't want to get off to lay down was because I wanted to talk to you some more. And when you said that you were waiting for me that one night and I told you to go to sleep, it wasn't because I didn't want to talk to you, it's because I felt guilty in a way for making you wait, and plus, everyone needs their rest, no?
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