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emily_afton_lalala Report | 11/13/2009 2:34 pm

yoooo
so i need your home number
because you're invited to my birthday party
december 4th
5-10 pm
my house smile

ello01 Report | 07/27/2009 4:44 pm

yeah

emily_afton_lalala Report | 06/29/2009 10:08 pm

i can see why my face is generally pretty awesome

razz

emily_afton_lalala Report | 05/29/2009 11:01 am

why thank you i got it from my mama!!
XD

emily_afton_lalala Report | 05/27/2009 10:34 pm

haha i love your outfit

Hypedd_jj Report | 05/06/2009 5:40 pm

thank you darling!

Murcerykiller Report | 05/06/2009 1:23 am

shtuoff?? do u mean stuff??

Western Influence Report | 05/05/2009 7:32 pm

Haha, thanks.
But it's the way I feel.

Western Influence Report | 05/05/2009 7:10 pm

I know, but it's just a stupid thing that goes on in my head, I guess.
And I know, I love you guys! All of you! My family, my friends, everything!
But I know that with my family, it's a required love- I was born into this family, you have to accept me as I am.
With my friends- you guys love me, and I love you too. But people grow apart most of the time anyway.
Myself- I don't really like myself. I screw things up, and I can't handle my own life. I can't be a good enough friend, I can't be a good enough daughter, I can't be a good enough student, lover, artist, person, etc. What am I worth if I can't get anything done all the way through?
With something like that, I have someone who is closer to me than a friend but is like family, must think I'm good enough to help make them better, and loves me because I'm me. I need something like that.
My life right now:
"When you try your best, but you don't succeed; When you get what you want, but not what you need; When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep; Stuck in reverse"
(Fix You, Coldplay)

Western Influence Report | 05/05/2009 6:57 pm

Practically, yeah.
But I think I really just have longing for what I had before.
I loved her, and she loved me as far as I knew. I have never been as happy as I was when I was with her. She made me feel better than anything else in the world. I felt genuinely loved for the first time. Not because it was required- because I was who I was, and she loved me.
I miss the feeling of belonging. Of being loved like that. Of having something more. Having SOMETHING to ******** LIVE FOR.
Right now, I have none of that. And she gave that to me.