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Well... I'm Back... sadly. My attempt was ruined... thanks to the ******** paramedics. Aparently you make loud noises when you start seizing... Should have taken more pills. I was just recently released from the clinic... I never thought i would get out of there... Im glad im alive now, i really am... I've missed people, one person especially. Angel. 'Mental hospitals' [Aka. 'insane asylums' scare me. You can hear the screaming of the insane... you can hear the weaping when you walk down the halls that arnt sound proof. Im limited to what i can do right now. I have no freedom, No friends, no real reason to do anything. They dont expect me to work and they have me in this treatment center that is like an apartment building. I hate it here... Im watched all the time because they all know i still want to die. Im still depressed, i still dont see the point in being alive. im not allowed to contact anyone. Not even my sis. All i can say is what the hell has been up, people?

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UltraSexxx

Report | 07/31/2008 5:09 pm

UltraSexxx

...

Aiden.

Please come back.

I miss you so much.

Do you have any idea how many days I have spent crying over you?



I miss you.



I hate this.

It's all my fault.



If I hadn't broken your heart you'd still be here.







Aiden.



Please.

Come back.





Please still be okay.



I love you.





Even though you didn't keep your end of the promise,



fer ever and ever babe.
UltraSexxx

Report | 05/23/2008 10:21 am

UltraSexxx

Hey Aiden.

I know you can't see this..

I don't even know if you are breathing anymore.

I miss you baby..

You have no idea how long I have cried over you.

I love you Aiden.





For the longest time you were the only thing I was living for.

Just being able to talk to you brought up my day.



My dad beats me Aiden.

The other night I came so close to joining you up there.

Still thinking about it.

I miss you Aiden.



Hopefully I'll see you soon.



I love you more then anything

No one.

I mean NO ONE can ever take your place in my heart.



You are the one, the only.



Maybe I'll really be your Angel soon.

Maybe even your guardian one.



I hope I see you soon babe.



Goodbye..
UltraSexxx

Report | 03/11/2008 1:45 pm

UltraSexxx

Yeah.

Made me cry.

A lot.

And now I don't even know if you are alive.



I loved you Aiden.

I did.



Now I don't even know.



Please..Be okay..
ProphetOfNull

Report | 02/02/2008 8:37 pm

ProphetOfNull

Hmmph.......Well, you may not know me, but listen to this.......

You were given a life when you were born

You must make the best of it

Make the thoughts that were once invisible,

without music, without heart,

Make them audible, but not in your ears

Deep down inside our hearts

we all really want to live

Until we have fufilled our purpose in life,

Whatever that may be....

So listen good and listen clear....

You should make your life pure until the day it ends.....





Dont try killing yourself again, you idiot

Youll make your friends cry
Jinxie713

Report | 01/15/2008 10:16 am

Jinxie713

Hi. I like your profile.
UltraSexxx

Report | 11/08/2007 7:46 pm

UltraSexxx

Note to self;



I miss you terribly
UltraSexxx

Report | 10/28/2007 5:35 pm

UltraSexxx

Welcome back love.

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UltraSexxx

Report | 10/10/2007 3:24 pm

UltraSexxx

Thank you so much love.

I love you.

I do







Thank god you are okay.





-Angel
UltraSexxx

Report | 10/09/2007 6:21 pm

UltraSexxx

Ohmygod.

Honey I'm so sorry.

I love you so much.

I do.

And I'm sorry about what you had to go through.

But it hurts that I wasn't around to help you.

I'm crying again over you.

This time it's happy.

Just to know you are alive is wonderful.

Please

If you EVER get the chance.

Give me your phone number

I have free long distance now.

I want to hear your voice.

Please...
UltraSexxx

Report | 08/29/2007 8:58 am

UltraSexxx

I don't care if you see this.

But I loved you.

I did.

And you lied to me.

you said we'd be together forever.

YOU LIED.

I wish I could see you.

Just to know you're ok.

But I can't







I loved you.



I really did.





So I guess this is goodbye..





forever

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