The Hangout....where sanity is overrated.

[Abandoned Dreams]

Akahoshi

I'm extermly sad right now so I'm going to bed before I start balling and soak my keyboard with tears.

So good nigth and I'll be aroud tomorrow maybe.

Why? What's wrong? gonk heart  

[oni cypress]

akahoshi if this makes you feel anybetter, i just cried myself to sleep on thursday night, don't ask me to get into it.

any way i hope you nget better really soon, but it is okay to cry, and sometimes it even makes you feel better. and its always best if you snuggle up to something, a cat or even a teddy bear.
i snuggle with my cat.

never good to hold things in, its damn not good for you, believe me from personall experience.  

[Akahoshi]

I'm to upset to sleep.

AD - In short I no longer have a lotto partner because shes to busy to help run it. Thus I'm doing it myself and I'm pretty sure I'm going to close it because well it's not doing to well and I can't keep doing it myself so by next year I won't have a lotto anymore and there goes on of the reasons to stay on Gaia.

I'm down this guild and my quest that keep me here so if I get anymore bad things happening then I'm most likely going to leave because I won't be albe to take it. I've got way to many things going on in my head that it making me over emotional.


*note: I am extermly emotional right now and I may not leave, but at the moment I'm really confused and trying to pinpoint why I'm still here on Gaia.  

[Abandoned Dreams]

Don't worry, you'll find something else. 3nodding And you always have us here, right? We like having you here... heart  

[Akahoshi]

Oni that didn't help.

AD I won't find anyone else because I don't want anyone else, for the reason that I don't want anyone else to leave me. And I know I have you all here but at time that's not always enough of a reason to stay on Gaia.  

[axel]

AD, Shiro and oni all speak the truth.

we love you akahoshi. :3 heart take care, love, and know that whatever you do you'll still have friends here.  

[Abandoned Dreams]

Akahoshi

Oni that didn't help.

AD I won't find anyone else because I don't want anyone else, for the reason that I don't want anyone else to leave me. And I know I have you all here but at time that's not always enough of a reason to stay on Gaia.

I know what you mean. Just know that if you ever need us, we'll be here. Even if we're not enough reason to stay at Gaia, I hope that you realize we do care for you and want you to be happy. And if you'd be happiest away from Gaia, then you shouldn't feel obligated to stay. heart  

[Akahoshi]

AD - I'm kink of stuck in a damned if I do and Damned if I don't situation.

If I don't leave I get stressed and become a hurmit that never leaves this guild and always wonders why I'm here, and at the same time If I leave I'll just be a shut in wondering why I ever left.

Gah, I think I'm going to close down the lotto refund all the gold for the tickets, and then just take a month off to think about everything and just get settled and everything like that. I think that would be best, I'll take all of november off, that way I can still do the halloween thing which will be a nice going away thing.

Ok I'm decided that's what I'm going to do.  

[oni cypress]

sounds like a vcation, or holiday. its always good to have one to clear your mind and sort everything out. if your o secide not to come back, well then i guess i'll be missing you. but if you ever find your self fown again, you know where to find us.  

[Abandoned Dreams]

Whatever you think will make you happiest. No one will blame you if you come back early, though. heart  

[Find_The_XdOGx]

Akahoshi> I hope a break is what you need. 3nodding It certainly helped me, I have to say. =3

Good way to clear the mind.

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