Introduction Thread

[Rei ojou-sama]

Hi
My name is Ali and I just got diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I got it preaty young for a girl but what can you do? At first I just got EXTREMLY withdrawn and I would shout out bisar statements that made no sence to anyone. I tryed to kill my self because it seemed like the only logical thing to do (Yeah that makes sence!). I was put in a mental hospital and the said I had GAD. They put me on Risperdal and then sent me on my way. Then the next year I started hearing voices and seeing things. It took every ouce of my strength to difiy the voices. I was completely dibilatated. I was put in a mental hospital again and they put me on more Risperdal and did tests and stuff and they said I was like uber paranoid. I had all these conspericy theorys. They said I had Paranoid Schizophrenia. Well I'm out again now and I'm trying college. Every day is a struggle and I hope I can make it.  

[K r a z y k a t]

Okay, here goes.

I'm Kaitlin, I'm 12 and I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression. When I was 7 I started not wanting to go to school. I would just cry at first, then it would progress to hitting, kicking, and throwing things across the room. I was then taken to a therpist. The therpist could only help me so much, so he recomended a psychologist to give me some medication. I was doing good until fifth grade, that summer I decided that I did not need my meds anymore and I stopped taking them. Later that year, I started thinking about death. My teachers were worried about me and then I ended up in an offic again, talking again. I went back on the same meds I was taking. That was two years ago and I'm doing much better, I'm still more reserved and I cry easily, but other than that I'm just an average kid.

Whew, done.  

[Lot Lizard]

My name is Adrian. I'm 15 and live in California. I've never been formally diagnosed, but after doing a lot of research have "diagnosed" myself with borderline personality disorder. I also go through swings of depression, especially during the school year. I used to be suicidal, but am not anymore. I am a self-injurer trying to quit for the fifth time. I guess it's like quitting smoking. I used to have a psychiatrist who I lied to because I was afraid of what might happen if I said anything. My whole experience of jr high school was me almost going insane. I saw and heard things for a while and got really paranoid, but once I left middle school it all went away. I'm still a tad paranoid. I don't tell anyone anything about the me I keep to myself. I have a widely known facade, if you will. I'd like to have a career in abnormal psychology because I find it really interesting. Mental illness runs in my family, but usually doesn't start until we hit out 40's.

Hope I didn't leave anything out.  

[Beatle_Babe]

My name is Jennifer, I'm 20 (almost 21, as of January 7th I will be), and I'm from California. The only professional diagnoses I've been given have been anxiety (both social and generalized), OCD, and manic depression. I strongly suspect that I also have more serious disorders as well such as borderline personality disorder (I fit the criteria), but I'm too scared of getting diagnosed professionally for any of those for fear of hospitalization. I refuse to even risk that.

I used to self injure, but I don't anymore. I still go through periods of being suicidal quite often, and on occasion have made attempts. Now I just have more of a problem with alcoholism than anything.

I'm also extremely....EXTREMELY co-dependant on people, have a very paranoid, untrusting personality, and tend to obsess over EVERY little thing.

So I'm not sure if there's anything else worth mentioning now, so I'll just end this here.  

[Cohcho the Empress]

Hello. I am Cohcho. I am one of two. The other one's name is Truth. I have been dubbed the "bad" one. She has been dubbed the "good" one. (Confused yet? I know you are.) Here is basically what is up: I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression. There is speculation that I have a personality disorder, though which one is up in the air.

As long as I can remember, I have been two, not a Singleton.

Truth is very paranoid (though not diagnosed. It is very hard to diagnose her because she doesn't like professionals). She is a very scared individual, with a people phobia. Okay, she has a phobia of like, everything except fuzzy things (except bumblebees and mold..those are her "evil fuzzies".) She honestly starts crying and hiding behind me upon meeting new people in real life. She is very very sensitive, and will start crying and trembling violently with the drop of a hat. I think she used to self-injure, because when I came back from a "black-out" (as one could call them) I would have injuries. Just small ones, famously little nail diggings (it looks like) all over my arms. She has not seemed to self-injure in a while (or else, i have not found any). She used to be suicidal, and luckily, she has not been suicidal lately. I have "woken up" in the hospital with a I.V in my arm and I do not like it.

Cohcho (me): I am not paranoid, quite level-headed, actually. I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression and having a "preoccupation with death". I dislike people who are boring, lazy, and just plain annoying (not a people phobia with me, I just do not like people). I get angered easily when someone exhibits behavior I dislike. I suppose my manner of going about the world can be classified as "brave", but really, I just am a very (I suppose?) self-centered and egotistic person. I do not self-injure, but I like to think about death. Death does not scare me at all. It is just another journey.

We see hallucinations, the both of us. They are full-figures, people we do not know. They seem like ghosts. They may be ghosts and we may have a sixth-sense, but this is unclear. What is clear, is that I am fascinated with them (not scared) and they scare Truth out of her skin.
Along with these full-figure hallucinations, we sometimes hear voices (like Electronic Voice Phenomenon, except, they are not recorded). They never last for more than a few seconds, and seem to be like what the full-figures sometimes say. Example: "Water...I want water..." and they do not sound like either of us.  

[TasmanianTiger]

Hi I'm Tas and I'm 15. I have not been diagnosed with anything, but I am very interested in phycology.
Umm... I used to be bulimic because of.. well.. I hated my new school, my teacher had some weird thing against me, and I was very anti-social. It started when I made myself throw up to skip school a few times but soon after I started, I couldn't stop. I did this for an entire year and a half, but after my mother called the doctor... uhhh.. yeah. I was scared. So I made myself stop. I guess I'm very lucky because I managed to work it out all on my own, but after thinking back I think I may have had depression which led to my bulimia. But anyway.. after that I always wondered and I've become very interested in phycology. I haven't learned too much about it so I was hoping to learn some more by joining this guild.

Uhh.. I guess that's it.  

[Separatist Nightmare]

I'm Reivena, and I'm 21. I'm in my last year of college for graphic design, though if I wasn't doing art I would have likely gone towards the field of psychology. I had a psychology class back in high school, as well as one in college - the topic has always interested me, especially abnormal psychology. I watch Court TV quite a bit because I find it so interesting. xd

When I was 12 I was diagnosed with major depression, hereditary from my mother's side, although there have been lots of suicides on my father's side, which makes me wonder if that's really where I got it from... I also have PTSD and passive behavioral disorder as a direct effect of having an OCD and codependent mother. Ah well, it's a nice coping mechanism for the time being, I suppose...

I've been on lots of medications. Zoloft, Paxil, Effexor, Celexa, Trazadone, Serequil, Wellbutrin... that's not nearly all of them. Now I'm on Lexapro.

Mood disorders run in my family so I thought coming to this guild could help me learn more, as well as sharing the information I know about what's happened to my family members. My sister has been hospitalized for depression and hallucinations several times, and I have two aunts with schizophrenia. I thought maybe I could put my knowledge to good use here. heart

I'm also the captain of the Gaia Sickling Guild. We have a lot of members there who talk about mental issues as well.  

[Cassandra022]

I'm 17, go by the name of Cassandra online.

I haven't been diagnosed with anything because I avoid doctor's as much as possible, and mental health people especially, but I'm fairly certain that I have clinical depression, general anxiety disorder, mild-moderate social anxiety, food issues which I fluctuate between calling ED-NOS and just issues, a tendency towards paraniod thoughts, though by no means do I have clinical paranoia, and just a lot of small issues here and there.

Thius seemed like an interesting guild nice people, and I look foward to talking with yall^^  

[choirofsteeloranges]

Hello. I'm Kate. I'm fifteen and I love to sing, write, learn, talk, doodle and color, read, watch good movies, and hang out with my friends. I'm really into religion and stories and mythology.

Two months ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, hereditary on my father's side. My father suffered from bipolar disorder as well. He refused to take his meds, and he ended up killing himself. I hope to stay stable and sane and out of the hospital.  

[Disamorado]

Hello, you may have heard of me through a different name, 1000NoKotoba, one of the earlybirds of this guild (though not really a vet, I left before it hit forum page two). I'm still the DDR freak you once knew, but, my, how the guild has changed. Two RPs later, I find myself looking at the guild again. My real concerns these days are my stuttering (which is now horrendous), cruddy social skills even after losing my AS-Ruled Out diagnosis, and my fascination with computers, which has now guided me to an undergrad major in Electrical Engineering, computers concentration, next year.
(Admin, if you need confirmation, remember the "bad" link incident?)  

[Civet Moon]

I remember you.  

[RaveKitten13]

My name's Amanda, I'm 19 and last year was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder (had it before but you can't get the official diagnosis until you're 1 cool . My manic side used to not to come out too much but as of recent it's highly more prevelant. My depression is just as bad as last time. Right now my meds aren't working which sucks majorly.  

[LaLaLogic]

Hello. Um... I'm 18 and I have a... this is really hard to explain but it's kind of like I was born with severe PTSD (I know that sounds like a contradiction, but it's just the best way to explain and it's really true.) and that snowballed into a kind of schizophrenia/bipolar/PTSD/severe anxiety disorder weird hybrid illness that is unnamed at the moment and that is very frusterating but apparently there was one other girl my psychiatrist dealt with with the same thing, but of course because of the confidentiality stuff we can never meet and compare notes. If anyone ever asks I usually just say I'm schizophrenic with a very bad anxiety disorder. That's true, but it's just technically schizophrenia is supposed to happen after puberty and I had trouble before, so one of the psychiatrists says it can't really be called schizophrenia because of that. ...And there's the problem of the really bad dissociative disorder and identity problems...

Basically I have a confusing mass of disorders that my psych team is not coming to any clear conclusions about.

Anyways, hello and I'm very shy so I might not say much. My real name is Alice.