alone, broken hearted and bringing up 3 kids chat please x

[SUZI - Q]

Hi everyone sorry ii`ve not been around for a while, but as some of you may be aware i moved out of the marital home as i found out my husband had not been paying the mortage
we decided that the kids would be better of financially if i was on my own as single mums get lots of benefits including rent and council tax paid, benefits whiich almost total my husbands monthly salary medical expenses paid. vouchers for milk and veg etc.
anyway my husband has decided he doesn`t love me anymore and i think he`s been seeing someone else. I`m absolutely devesateted, it breaks my heart not waking up with him each day, i only moved out to make things better for the kids, now he doesn`t wanna come around so only sees our boys like for a couple of hours once a week, my eldest son is 6 and misses his dad so much. i feel like i`d rather live on the street than be apart even tho i`m starting to resent him for not making an effort more to see the kids. as anyone been in this situation can someone offer advice or a friendly word. i feel so alone crying  

[SUZI - Q]

update on my life
hi if you`ve taken the time to read this thanks x
Since i was last here back in march i think, I have found out that my husband had been seeing someone else as i suspected in fact it turned out to be his sisters friend the girl who caused me so much misery last year (see baby shower dilema)
he lied to me about it for a long time and only told me he was with her 6 weeks ago he even asked the kids to lie after he took her and her 2 kids (2 boys both with different fathers the youngest by her ex best friends husband which says a lot about her!!) to a theme park with my 3 kids. 2 weeks ago i was told his girlfreind is pregnant (this will be 3 kids by 3 dads in 3 years). he confirmed this last week. i`m devastated we`ve only been seperated 15 weeks we have 3 children who he has only had overnight twice since i moved out in february and even tho he only works about 15 mins drive from our home he only see`s them once a week if that for a couple of hours.
i keep asking myself:
how can you stop loving someone so quickly after being together for almost 10 years?

how can you turn your back on your kids then bring another into the world with someone else?

what did i do to be treated so badly?

why does he keep telling me he never wanted to hurt me when everything he has done has crushed me a little bit more?


i`m still in love with my husband, but i hate him for what he has done and the misery he`s sure to cause the kids when they find out about this new baby.  

[Lorazepam]

I am so sorry to hear that this has happened to you. I feel for you, but you are going to have to ignore those questions, you will never get an answer and if you do you dont want to know them, they are devastating.

Back in February, my husband left me and our son. Neither me nor Rylee has seen his dad since. I know he has another girl and a daughter on the way. She is trash and doesnt care about what he did to me or my son, she thinks it wont happen to her.



Being a single mom is hard, but you have to be strong and keep your head up and your eyes dry. Not just for yourself but for your children. Yours are old enough to see, and it pains even me. The damage to those children have been done and can never be undone. As the mother it is your job to pick up the pieces and mend them as best as you can.

Just do what is best for your children. Life is like a raging river, you will drown if you fight it, but survive if you go with it.  

[SUZI - Q]

I am in a much better place now than i was back in march. I'm still a single mum my ex husband is still with the girl, she miscarried a couple weeks after i found out about the pregnancy which although i was relieved that i didn't have to tell my kids their dad was having a baby with someone else my heart broke for her. My anger and bitterness left almost instantly. And it made me realise there was no point in holding on to misty memories, and with the support of some good friends i have come to realise that maybe i wasn't as happy throughout my marriage as i'd like to have been.
My kids still don't see there dad regularly but they are happy and doing well in school. We have a roof over our heads, and are financially secure, in fact we're a lot better of in many ways than we were when i was with my husband.
I'm in no rush to find someone else I'm just enjoying my time with my kids