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 Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 2:10 pm
I've been wondering about this ever since what happened last year. My noe ex-friend kept telling me to get help, but I'd just shrug it off, telling her there was nothing wrong with me and to shut up. I posted a bit in LI, so I'll quote it. It's better than just explaining. Quote: I heard something in my head saying "Go on. Do it." I don't really know what happened. I just grabbed something sharp and cut myself. I couldn't resist whatever it was. I was thinking "No. Don't. It's stupid. Just don't..." the whole time. I couldn't speak. It was as if something else had taken over, controlling me, laughing. When it was done, I remember just sitting there, on my bed, for at least five minutes. This voice faded out, saying "that wasn't so bad, was it?" and laughing. I was terrified.
and this thread - http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=10886259 - is from roughly the start of it all....
I tend to see things that aren't there, like lights or shadows, but I usually put that down to ghosts, and sometimes it feels like someone had touched my arm/back/whatever when no one is there.
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 4:45 pm
Exomorphic Orange I tend to see things that aren't there, like lights or shadows, but I usually put that down to ghosts, and sometimes it feels like someone had touched my arm/back/whatever when no one is there. Well, some people would say those *are* ghosts, but unless someone else can see them too, there's no telling whether there's any truth to that idea. If you actually heard someone else talking to you when you cut yourself, as opposed to just sort of thinking it yourself, I'd say that's a hallucination, and a pretty bad one. Some people hear voices, others just get an overwhelming urge to hurt themselves. Either way, I would recommend you talk to a therapist, especially if this has happened again, or other things like it happen, or if seeing things disturbs you.
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 8:28 pm
I'd say it's time for a trip to the emergency room if you are in danger of hurting yourself. Besides, if you are experiencing symptoms of psychosis, they might be caused by deadly problems such as organ failures, brain tumors or seizure disorders. Time to see a doctor quickly!
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Posted: Tue Apr 25, 2006 9:45 am
Eeh, I've been pretty good since, but if it happens again, I'll try to get it sorted. *nod nod*
It was really scary at the time, though.
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Posted: Tue Apr 25, 2006 12:31 pm
Exomorphic Orange Eeh, I've been pretty good since, but if it happens again, I'll try to get it sorted. *nod nod*
It was really scary at the time, though. Well, you should just know that you could be showing signs of a serious medical emergency that I, personally, would want ruled out! Of course, it's all up to you, but I would want to run through at least some blood tests, and possibly an EEG, CAT scan and MRI. *shrug* At any rate, I would refrain from driving a car for a while or doing any other activities that could cause injury to myself or others until I got the cause sorted out! Believe you me, I've been through all this before. Psychotic symptoms aren't something that's cured only by chatting with a therapist or online people. They're indicators of a serious problem that is often a dangerous medical one, and sometimes a psychological one that just as seriously needs immediate treatment.
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Posted: Wed Apr 26, 2006 7:17 am
Exomorphic Orange Eeh, I've been pretty good since, but if it happens again, I'll try to get it sorted. *nod nod*
It was really scary at the time, though. Was this a one time thing? If you have insurance, an MRI would be a good idea, but if not, well, I feel your pain...
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Posted: Wed Apr 26, 2006 2:12 pm
I didn't know if this would be classed as triggering or not. Sorry 'bout that.
I know that chatting to online people isn't really much help, but it's kind of good for me to get things into perspective. It was from around the start of November to January, but then it suddenly stopped (well, mostly, but I have always been a bit strange), and I was 'normal' again. Sometimes I feel like it's going to happen again, but if it does, I'll most probably get something done. What I'm scared of the most is worrying my parents though. I tried telling my mum before, but I couldn't. It would be much harder on them than anyone else.
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Posted: Sat May 06, 2006 10:35 am
Actually, talking with your parents may be a good idea.
I said "may". It depends on who your parents are, and also on how old you are. If your parents are committed to doing things based on knowledge, and can be calm and rational about it, then that's a check-mark for talking with them. If you're a minor, that's another one. If you think they'll try to punish you or otherwise do stupid things, maybe you shouldn't. If you're of age, you don't need to talk to anyone about anything.
And so on. But were I in your position, I would.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 1:46 pm
What you describe is called bipolar disorder. I think you should talk to your doctor about it so that you don't have to hurt so much and you can think more clearly to deal with the bullies.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:56 pm
MIst_eternal_l0nely_l0ner What you describe is called bipolar disorder. I think you should talk to your doctor about it so that you don't have to hurt so much and you can think more clearly to deal with the bullies.
Exomorphic Orange, I'd suggest talking to someone - maybe a counselor at school, your parents, someone you can trust. You should get your symptoms checked out just in case it might be a disorder of some type. I don't know my disorders well enough to 'diagnos' you - I just know that you probably don't have bipolar disorder.
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Posted: Wed Jul 19, 2006 5:09 pm
Have you concidered a dissociative disorder.....BUt ...then again....how often do you hear the voice?
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Posted: Mon Aug 07, 2006 3:12 pm
(Gosh... I haven't been on Gaia for a while....)
I haven't heard any voices for a long time now, but a few weeks ago I kept getting depressed all the time. I started a diary and such, but me right thigh felt the brunt of it....
*sigh*
It wasn't that much, really. it's healing quite nicely, I can still faintly see the marks... I'm sure that one of them is after scarring... sweatdrop
I still see the odd thing that isn't there now and then. For example, some time in June I was talking to my friend and I saw a car comming down the road towards us. An old fashioned(ish) blue-green sort of car with a big silver grate on the front. Of course, there were no cars there. There were no cars nearby. The road was quiet. I've never even seen a car like that before. xp
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Posted: Tue Aug 15, 2006 1:59 pm
I think you should talk to a doctor or a therapist about this. it sounds like you're having hallucinations and even though they may not be frequent, you never know when another one will come on and next time it happens you might hurt yourself or someone else even worse than before.
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Posted: Wed Aug 16, 2006 7:48 pm
It's 03:38 now, but I'm afraid to go to bed, because my various sharp objects are in my room. I'm unusually not tired relating to the time it is. An hour ago I was on the verge of falling asleep, but now I'm wide awake. I'm just sitting here at the computer talking to my friend, shaking. I know what 'triggered' me this time. A nice little conversation I was having over MSN. Namely what one of my friends said. *with removed names and such* Quote: well when i get home i doubt im comin on msn anymore and plus im guna refuse to socialise dunno why i just have a big feeling to do so i like makin myself ill its fun I don't know why that set me off, but it was soon after that when I started feeling bad again, sort of like 'I just want to die'. sweatdrop
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Posted: Thu Aug 17, 2006 5:19 am
Right. Today I feel much better (and by today I mean after I woke up again).
I went to bed shortly after posting that one and turned the light off right away. I just lay there and willed myself to go to sleep.
And when I woke up, I felt much better. I'm guessing that was just a one off thing. I hope. xp
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