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I had a breakdown last night. I'm still not quite normal (well... like before the breakdown anyway..)

Have any of you had consecutive breakdowns? How did you handle them?

I used to have nervous breakdowns nightly. Now that I'm on medication and am starting to get things straightened out, I'm slowly starting to have fewer breakdowns/panic attacks. I think my last panic attack was sometime in March of '05.

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I am not entirely certain what you mean by "break down." I mean, I have heard it before, but I never really understood what this entails.

Last semester I had a mental shutdown, in which it felt like a part of my brain just clicked "off." I couldn't think clearly, and I was completely on edge and wandering through clouds. It was awful, and I could barely verbalize. I didn't make much sense. I had to make my roommate stop bringing people over for a couple of weeks because even the slightest noise would set me off, and I sit in my room with my hands over my ears, and my head pressed into my bed in the dark, just wishing they would go away so it would stop hurting and I could sleep. Is this the sort of thing you are talking about?

I kind of had one last November... I was waiting for the bus to go to work, then all of a sudden I started crying and walked home... By the time I was home, I was crying so hard I collapsed, all these aweful thoughts racing through my head... I hope it never happens again

i've had breakdowns in the middle of class, it really sucks and i was majorly freaking my friend, Ashley out. i had a panic attack in 1st period a few weeks ago and i went totaly pale and she was like, "Rachel....are u all right? sweetie?" and i would just nod yes and then at lunch i told her what happened and she was all like, "OMG!!" but she was very supportive. i had lots of ppls worried bout me but there was nothing i could do about it and that happens all the time at school and at home. i also have nervous breakdowns where i will just be in my room and start crying and i will curl up in my bed and cry then detach from my body for hours and come back and it will be time to go to school....and im not a big cryer....so its not fun....i will also have these times when i just so angry out of no where and the closest person to me is the unlucky person and it scares me....and i got one of those bursts again with my mom but this time i almost attacked her but i didnt and if i would have, i dont kno what i would have done....its scary.....and i dont kno wat to do....but yeah...thats it...

I suffer with depression and get panic attacks and breakdowns alot. I know how scary it is the fact that you cant physicly stop them. I just want you to know you are not alone. Alot of people suffer with them and if you need someone to talk to you can PM me xxx

I have breakdowns if I hold in my feelings for too long or if I can't take stress. Usually at least once a month...

My last one was when my mom told me I was useless...she just hit a button and I exploded.

Same here, only mine happen with or without stress and thinking about it all.
I can feel them coming on, I seem to go even more quiet than usual (which is quiet to begin with), I become more indifferent to everything, I don't go out anywhere, I can't get out of bed at all and I cry myself to sleep. The strange thing is I also seem to lighten up at the same time, I stop thinking of self harming, it's like nothing is happening on the inside I'm just emotionaly blank but whenever I'm in a situation where I have to speak I come across as more happy than usual...Then I just snap....In private...So my friends, teachers and people I work with think I'm just fine but I'm tearing myself up on the inside and my parents well they think I've screwed up in life and have decided that my wanting to live overseas is the only thing left for them to be proud of even though they have a go at me for it...I know they'll be bragging once I'm gone...That's ok though they have my wannabe barrister of a sister gawd love her.

Breakdowns are nasty...The longest one I had lasted 3-4 hours, it was physically impossible for me to continue crying, not including the 8 hours after that when all I could think of was knives+fire+arm. That's when I stopped caring enough to tell the first person ever about it. Not so sure I'm happy about saying anything either. The point is someone I know offline knows, even if I'm not sure of the benefits of that....