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 Posted: Fri May 27, 2005 9:43 pm
hey,
i need some advice...ive been having problems with dealing with my problems and dealing with life and everything.....on top of that ive been hearing things and seeing things....its happened so much lately that it doesnt even bother me.....and i kno i need help but my anxiety wont let me.....it wont let me talk to ppl that much.....and it holds me back from everything.....before last year my parents thought i was the a really good and normal child just like everybody else......they fell into the lie i even got myself to believe for a while....and it scares the hell out of me but im just to scared to get help.......and then i have these mad outbursts and it scares the hell out of my mom that she doesnt kno how to act around me or anything and neither does anyone in my family......i dont cut anymore but i do other self harming acts like always hitting my head on purpose or anything like that hoping that it will 'set me straight'......i dont kno wat to do.....and now i have problems decifering dreams from reality......and everytime i wake-up from a dream i dont kno if ive really woken up or if ive just fallen asleep......and i zone out all the time and i get chased around by things no one else can see or i hear things no one else can hear,....and my parents dont kno if im bipolar with sycotic(sp) effects or a teen who is not expressing there problems and thats how im dealing with it.....and i dont even kno who i really am anymore.....i dont kno wat to believe.....i cant even believe myself anymore.....im scared s**t but im more scared of getting help and having a repeat of last year.....ive also had a lot of suicidal thoughts lately and near attempts but like i said i dont want help even though my parents r willing to get me help.....i just want to stay in the background and having no one worry about me.....and just staying in the shadows but the more i try the more ppl think there is somethings wrong....i need help before ppl realize wats really going on.....please can anyone help?
*~*kira*~*
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Posted: Sat May 28, 2005 11:14 am
It sounds like you really need to talk to someone.
You could also keep a journal.
I don't know how things will be with you, but I felt something like this a while ago and it went away.
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Posted: Sat May 28, 2005 3:01 pm
A lot of what you describe might be normal. (The teen years are a troubling time, and most everyone has trouble switching from the dream world to the real world when they first wake up.) But injuring yourself, being suicidal and hallucinating are not normal and never acceptable to ignore. broken mind i get chased around by things no one else can see or i hear things no one else can hear As I said to somebody in another recent thread, if you're having hallucinations, they could be caused by all kinds of deadly things from brain tumors to organ failures to seizure disorders. Since you're also suicidal, you have to go to the emergency room. This is not a joke. Get help now. broken mind i dont want help even though my parents r willing to get me help.....i just want to stay in the background and having no one worry about me.....and just staying in the shadows but the more i try the more ppl think there is somethings wrong....i need help before ppl realize wats really going on. That's a really common worry, but if you get help now, nobody will know except your parents and the hospital staff. There are laws that keep your problems a secret, so you can just tell everyone else that you were sick for a while because it's true! If you don't get help, everyone will find out when you get worse or maybe even die!
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Posted: Sun May 29, 2005 12:48 pm
Smart Alex A lot of what you describe might be normal. (The teen years are a troubling time, and most everyone has trouble switching from the dream world to the real world when they first wake up.) But injuring yourself, being suicidal and hallucinating are not normal and never acceptable to ignore. broken mind i get chased around by things no one else can see or i hear things no one else can hear As I said to somebody in another recent thread, if you're having hallucinations, they could be caused by all kinds of deadly things from brain tumors to organ failures to seizure disorders. Since you're also suicidal, you have to go to the emergency room. This is not a joke. Get help now. broken mind i dont want help even though my parents r willing to get me help.....i just want to stay in the background and having no one worry about me.....and just staying in the shadows but the more i try the more ppl think there is somethings wrong....i need help before ppl realize wats really going on. That's a really common worry, but if you get help now, nobody will know except your parents and the hospital staff. There are laws that keep your problems a secret, so you can just tell everyone else that you were sick for a while because it's true! If you don't get help, everyone will find out when you get worse or maybe even die! thanks....i will try and get help....again thanks! *~*kira*~*
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Posted: Mon May 30, 2005 12:34 am
broken mind thanks....i will try and get help....again thanks! Good luck, Kira, we'll all be rooting for you!
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Posted: Mon May 30, 2005 10:46 am
Smart Alex broken mind thanks....i will try and get help....again thanks! Good luck, Kira, we'll all be rooting for you! ok i need some advise.....i just had a mental breakdown this morning were when i actually came back to my body (i like had a detachment from myself so i dont remember anything) i was a shaky and angry and face hurt and everybody in the house was scared....and i dont kno wat in the heck happened and my mom tried talking to me about it and for a while i just went along with it then i just told her i dont remember wat happened.....and i convinced her i was fine and she probably will be leaving in a while....and i dont want to break wat i just told her and ask if i can go to get help....i HATE the word 'hospital'.....and ive convinced all my friends that kno something has been wrong for a while that im fine....and im just so scared and lost.....and most of all confused....wat do i do? HELP!!!! *~*kira*~*
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Posted: Mon May 30, 2005 12:15 pm
broken mind ok i need some advise.....i just had a mental breakdown this morning were when i actually came back to my body (i like had a detachment from myself so i dont remember anything) i was a shaky and angry and face hurt and everybody in the house was scared....and i dont kno wat in the heck happened and my mom tried talking to me about it and for a while i just went along with it then i just told her i dont remember wat happened.....and i convinced her i was fine and she probably will be leaving in a while....and i dont want to break wat i just told her and ask if i can go to get help....i HATE the word 'hospital'.....and ive convinced all my friends that kno something has been wrong for a while that im fine....and im just so scared and lost.....and most of all confused....wat do i do? HELP!!!! What should you do? You should go to the emergency room, like I suggested before! If you had done that then, you might not have had the problem you just had now that sounds like a seizure! Call 911 if you need an ambulence, but you need to get this taken care of!
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Posted: Mon May 30, 2005 1:24 pm
Smart Alex broken mind ok i need some advise.....i just had a mental breakdown this morning were when i actually came back to my body (i like had a detachment from myself so i dont remember anything) i was a shaky and angry and face hurt and everybody in the house was scared....and i dont kno wat in the heck happened and my mom tried talking to me about it and for a while i just went along with it then i just told her i dont remember wat happened.....and i convinced her i was fine and she probably will be leaving in a while....and i dont want to break wat i just told her and ask if i can go to get help....i HATE the word 'hospital'.....and ive convinced all my friends that kno something has been wrong for a while that im fine....and im just so scared and lost.....and most of all confused....wat do i do? HELP!!!! What should you do? You should go to the emergency room, like I suggested before! If you had done that then, you might not have had the problem you just had now that sounds like a seizure! Call 911 if you need an ambulence, but you need to get this taken care of! Listen to Alex. Force yourelf to go to the hospital.
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Posted: Tue May 31, 2005 5:46 am
M is for M+Ms Smart Alex broken mind ok i need some advise.....i just had a mental breakdown this morning were when i actually came back to my body (i like had a detachment from myself so i dont remember anything) i was a shaky and angry and face hurt and everybody in the house was scared....and i dont kno wat in the heck happened and my mom tried talking to me about it and for a while i just went along with it then i just told her i dont remember wat happened.....and i convinced her i was fine and she probably will be leaving in a while....and i dont want to break wat i just told her and ask if i can go to get help....i HATE the word 'hospital'.....and ive convinced all my friends that kno something has been wrong for a while that im fine....and im just so scared and lost.....and most of all confused....wat do i do? HELP!!!! What should you do? You should go to the emergency room, like I suggested before! If you had done that then, you might not have had the problem you just had now that sounds like a seizure! Call 911 if you need an ambulence, but you need to get this taken care of! Listen to Alex. Force yourelf to go to the hospital. ok. thanks u 2! no matter how hard it is i will force myself to....thanks! *~*kira*~*
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Posted: Tue May 31, 2005 7:14 am
broken mind ok. thanks u 2! no matter how hard it is i will force myself to....thanks! Yay! Good luck!
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Posted: Tue May 31, 2005 12:56 pm
Smart Alex broken mind ok. thanks u 2! no matter how hard it is i will force myself to....thanks! Yay! Good luck! Ditto. Hope you're ok, broken mind. I feel worried about you and I dont' even know yoU!
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Posted: Sat Jun 25, 2005 9:25 pm
i went to a hospital called fairfax for 2 weeks but it didnt really help.....and my mom wouldnt let me stay in any longer even though i was starting to turn around. then i was forced to go home after a long battle to convince my parents i wasnt coming home. when i got home all my poster and anime stuff was gone.......and anime was one of the main things that kept me alive cause i had that to look forward too.....and it was gone......i was already suicidal enough that just made it worse and my mom caught me trying to drink the bleach so she dumped it down the sink.......but didnt send me back cause she knows thats wat i wanted and life has just been hell.....she knows one of my triggers is the word 'camp' and she wants to send me off to camp......its sucks.....and everytime a friend offers for me to come stay with them for the summer my mom shoots that idea down. and my older brother told my ex-friend he doesnt consider me a sister anymore and i found that out the other day.....i also found out that that same friend has been spreading rumors bouts me but my friends cleared that up.....i was lucky but schools out so im even more lucky.......and my life juzz hasnt been fair to me....i dont kno wat to do.......im so lost and confused and my mom told me that when she was convinced i wasnt coming home she said to herself i dont have a daughter anymore.......and she told me that.......but she still tries and it pisses me off......then the next minute shes telling me i can just leave now. the doors right there just go i dont care.......and it kills me.....and i just feel so dead and empty inseide......i dont kno what to do......help....i dont find any point to life besides for a few ppl.....wat do i do?
kira~
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Posted: Sat Jun 25, 2005 10:03 pm
broken mind i went to a hospital called fairfax for 2 weeks but it didnt really help.....and my mom wouldnt let me stay in any longer even though i was starting to turn around. then i was forced to go home after a long battle to convince my parents i wasnt coming home. when i got home all my poster and anime stuff was gone.......and anime was one of the main things that kept me alive cause i had that to look forward too.....and it was gone......i was already suicidal enough that just made it worse and my mom caught me trying to drink the bleach so she dumped it down the sink.......but didnt send me back cause she knows thats wat i wanted and life has just been hell.....she knows one of my triggers is the word 'camp' and she wants to send me off to camp......its sucks.....and everytime a friend offers for me to come stay with them for the summer my mom shoots that idea down. and my older brother told my ex-friend he doesnt consider me a sister anymore and i found that out the other day.....i also found out that that same friend has been spreading rumors bouts me but my friends cleared that up.....i was lucky but schools out so im even more lucky.......and my life juzz hasnt been fair to me....i dont kno wat to do.......im so lost and confused and my mom told me that when she was convinced i wasnt coming home she said to herself i dont have a daughter anymore.......and she told me that.......but she still tries and it pisses me off......then the next minute shes telling me i can just leave now. the doors right there just go i dont care.......and it kills me.....and i just feel so dead and empty inseide......i dont kno what to do......help....i dont find any point to life besides for a few ppl.....wat do i do? kira~ Hey, I know Fairfax! It's right near the house where I grew up in Kirkland! It's a very nice hospital. It's really expensive, which might be the reason your parents pulled you out of it. Did they tell you why they won't send you back? If you are suicidal and your parents aren't getting you help, you should call 911 for emergency assistance. Your parents have to provide you with medical care, and if they won't, it's important to take legal steps to ensure you will get the help you need.
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 4:44 am
Well, I'm guessing you have scitzophrenia(sp..)
Some versions of it will cause hallucinations. John Nash, the famous matmatician hallucinated alot of odd things. They have a whole movie about it.
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2005 2:52 pm
FOllow their advice and be strong don't worry about it i hope things turn out ok for you.
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