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I put up with psychosis on a daily basis. I don't have physical illness associated with it, although I often have tactile hallucinations of cuts or stings or flesh falling off that feels like a physical ailment.

There are many ways that I try to deal with my psychosis. Most of them seem unique to the particular symptoms I'm having at the time, so it's kind of hard to give advice. I think I'm actually lucky that I have psychosis 24-7, because if it went away at times and then came back it would be devastating to me emotionally and to the way I cope.

Here's my biggest coping secret: Watch other people.
Use logic to determine who in the room is real. Like your mother in your mother's house. Then, if the table catches fire, don't run out of the room until she does. It's hard to get the knack of, but once you do, most people won't know that you're psychotic.

If that's something you want to undertake, be sure to do it with the help of your doctor. Tapering off meds is no easy business. You'll also have to have a support system of people who care about you all around you so that they'll know if your plan is going wrong.

It gets to that point with me, too. Like, if there's a big scary monster in the room, I'm going to freaking run from it, no matter how logical it is that it isn't there. And I slip up when things are too close to reality too, like if I'm in a supermarket and somebody who isn't there walks up and says "hi," I will say "hi" back! But for those situations in the middle of those extremes, the method I described works fairly well. I still slip up a lot, but it's better than nothing! For the majority of public occasions on a good day, nobody around me will know that I'm psychotic. And people don't jump to the conclusion that I'm psychotic when I mess up usually, too. I just laugh and joke or make it seem like something else was going on if it's something like the supermarket example. Or if it's something scary, I just get out of the situation entirely and make up excuses later. "I was feeling really sick" is a true excuse!

Yeah, I used those phrases so much when when I had some really bad problems that my parents actually sent me a care package full of stuff for treating a cold because they thought I had the flu!

using logic is well logical. but my hallucinations tend to be alot more subtle. like that damn cat that keeps peking out the window and running past my fet..i keep falling over it knowing damn well on somelevel its nothing but air. Or the smell of a gas leak that doesnt exist but it taunts me constantly..i try to just ignore it but ocaasionly ill just indulge myself and put food out for the nonreal cat because it helps my mind move on with things you know??? its like im on two levels one knowing full well im crazy andim seeing s**t but if i dont give in to my delusions just a little it knaws at me and i go mad and start hurting things. so i find giving inand just allowing myself to be bizarre helps.

Yeah, the little things always get me! Well, that and the really big things that are too scary to try to be logical about! *lol*

It's happening right now, as I type. There are tadpoles squirming and flitting back and forth across my face, and --eveything-- around me has an aura. It GLOWS. Also there are spirals on the monitor. Looks like a DNA strand one minute, and a slinky the next. It's fun. I'm just slightly worried it'll get worse, when I see blood running on the walls, bugs crawling on me and coffins...eugh.. That kind isn't fun.