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I went to Lake Tahoe last week it was fun and i had a good time. I came home and we left to New York. We stayed there for a few days and then we drove to Niagara falls. We stayed at a beautiful hotel and we went on a boat to go inside the falls. During this vacation I saw Lakes and Water falls I saw tall buildings and many people. While I observed these marvels I had no feeling and I realized I didn't care that i was in NY or in Canada or seeing sumthing beautiful. I mean i saw the falls i saw everything but I felt nuthing not awe not disgust just nuthing. Then it hit me... I cant feel anything anymore. Not emotions at least. LIke as if the emotions were being lived by another person but I can see them living it for me. As though I walk beside them free off all feeling. Normal or just a waste of time. I don't know but it felt good letting the feeling out it reminds me that I'm alive.

I now precisely how you feel. You want to be excited, but it's just not there. You want to feel happy, but you feel like a fool trying to fake it.

I am like that much of the time as well, Vianette. I seem to waver between feeling little to nothing at all to times when I am going to burst with emotion. I have a very difficult time recognizing my emotions, so this may be a result of that.

It makes any type of relationship rather difficult, when you can't relate to a person on an emotional level, or respond in the way you are expected to.

I feel that way all the time. I had to break up with my girlfriend because I just couldn't be emotional.