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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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 Posted: Sun Dec 25, 2011 5:37 pm
Demyx started high-pitch screeching when he felt someone else grabbing him. His whole frame was shaking and yet he was practically dragging both Marluxia and Axel down the hall. The blond had always been surprisingly strong. He didn't stop though when he saw it was actually Axel. Oh no, he just started yelling instead of screaming. "NO, NO, LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU ARE GOING TO LEAVE AGAIN! YOU PROMISE ME THAT I WAS ALL YOU NEEDED! YOU PROMISED! YOU DON'T NEED ME, YOU NEED HIM! AND HE WON'T GET BETTER WITH ME IN THE PICTURE! I KNOW IT!" Demyx started screaming madly. "UGH! I'm done, Axel hold him down." Marluxia screamed already probably bruised from head to toe from the blonde, he was done playing this game. The pink haired man let go of the blond knocking the blonde off balance, and into Axel's arms fully. Then without staying to watch what would happen next, Marluxia stormed into the kitchen and got out some tranquilizers that he had from a party a while back. He keep them because he hung out with a lot of druggies and sometimes, like now, they got out of hand. Demyx, meanwhile, had continued to scream as he thrashed around in Axel's arms. He barely knew what Marluxia was doing before he was completely knocked out in Axel's arms.
Marluxia was still breathing heavily when he pulled out the needle out. "Are you ******** happy, please tell me you are ******** filled to the brim with butterflies and daisies?!" Marluxia steamed as he plopped down on the ground and rubbed his bruising face. Demyx was one hell of a slugger. Now that all the commotion was gone, he could feel the tears coming. Marluxia was strong for his friends, but he was actually very fragile and to have to fight off Demyx in a psycho state was a lot for him.
Roxas frowned a little looking up at Sora with weak eyes. What if he picked Demyx this time? Roxas stood up from the table unable to even think about eating at the moment. He didn't care if he got in trouble. He wasn't eating. Riku heard Roxas getting up from the table and instantly reached out and grabbed his hand to stop him. For a blind person, he was managed to grab Roxas's hand pretty well, but he had spent almost every waking moment with Roxas almost after they meet. It wasn't hard to predict exactly what he was going to try and do. "Eat Roxas. If you get yourself thrown in solitaire, you'll be in their for at least a week. I'm sure that Axel will be back in a week at least and what I am going to tell him if you are in solitaire?" The silverette said calmly. He knew what he was talking about. Roxas and Riku had both gotten warnings about not eating so they knew the consequences. Roxas felt his lip quiver as he just stared at Riku for a moment. The blonde turned back to table but now he just seemed pissed as he knocked Riku's hand away. "Roxas... please..." Riku pleaded knowing Sora didn't want to see just Riku while Roxas in Solitaire again. Roxas breathed sharply before reaching across the table and pulled the blindfold off Riku's face. Then the blonde took the blind fold and tied it around his wrist. "Roxas, stop give it back." Riku frowned before Roxas gave him a harsh look. Apparently if Riku was going to make Roxas suffer, than Roxas was going to make Riku suffer.
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Posted: Mon Jan 02, 2012 8:48 pm
Axel's body went rigid at Demyx's words and his eyes widened. He got distracted by Demyx's thrashing, though. when he was knocked out, he lugged him over to the couch and laid him down as gently as he could. Then he dropped down next to him on the cushion before letting his head fall into his hands. "I forgot about that..," he said softly, sounding about close to tears. "I'm such an a**... I...i thought I would never see Roxas after getting him out of there...so I...I told him it would be just me and him... How could I ******** forget about that?" His voice began to tremble. "I...I didn't even realize how I felt about Roxas...un...until Riku called you and I felt my heart start thundering... ********... Marluxia, what the ******** have I done?" He looked up at the male with tears of his own welling up in his eyes. He dropped to the floor and crawled over to him, hugging him tightly. "I'm not happy... I...I'm not happy at all..," he whispered hoarsly as the tears began to fall faster.
Sora frowned over at his brother. "Roxy..," he said softly in a sad voice. He sighed softly and folded his arms on the table in front of him, laying his head on them with a deep frown set on his face. He was in thought. Very deep thought. "Hey, Riku..?" he began softly, sitting up and looking at him. "Do you still remember Axel's friend's number?" he continued, pulling out his phone. He looked at the silver-haired male curiously as he gazed into those beautiful teal eyes.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 4:54 pm
Marluxia frowned deeply seeing the other start to break down. Now he kind of wish he hadn't snapped at him. Demyx had been screaming and flipping out about that stuff ever since Axel left. Marluxia just thought he was overreacting and was twisting Axel's words, but now hearing Axel start to confess his guilt.... Marluxia wasn't too sure if he could protect Axel from Demyx's outlandish accusations. "Well what ever it is I'm sure we can get through it Axel, I mean honestly we have already been through hell, I'm sure a little more muck before we reach sun shine again, is something we can handle, but we have to do it together. You need to decide if you are going make Roxas a part of your life or drop him right now because running back and forth like this will only kill them both." Marluxia whispered carefully as he sat down next to Axel. His arms instinctively moved around the red head before he pressed his face into his shoulder. He still had watery eyes from the pain now emerging his face, but he didn't full out start crying. He just pushed it away with a few sniffles.
Riku's crystal sea-foam eye were now adjusting to the air and light around them. His face crunched a little in distaste at the bright florescent light, even though he had the blind fold on and it wasn't super thick, but he kept his eyes closed almost all the time. He didn't throw a fit though, he understood why Roxas did it, and he understood that Roxas was probably upset more at their situation not at him. He could hold on into Roxas grew tired of keeping the blindfold. Riku turned toward Sora almost instantly when he heard Sora's voice. "I don't remember, but I have the number in my room if you want it.. I don't know how calling Axel is going to change anything though.." Riku said softly looking at Sora. He thought how just joyous he looked even sad.
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 5:49 pm
Axel buried his face in Marluxia's neck. "You...You don't understand, Mar... I...I can't just choose... You're asking me to choose between keeping two people I care about most from going insane... You should...you should have seen him... He... There was no life left in his eyes... He...He painted and drew pictures of me...they were everywhere... I'm all he could think about... And his nightmares... I saw all of them, too... And just...the way he looked at me when I told him I had to leave...I swear I saw his heart shattering in his eyes... I can't just leave him again when I told him I wouldn't... I've already broken his body...I can't break what little's left of his heart, too..." He looked up at Marluxia with so much sorrow in his eyes it was heart-breaking.
Sora just smiled up at him slightly. "I know..," he said simply before leaning on Riku's shoulder and grabbing his hand again a little tightly. Sora's body was trembling from the thought of what he was thinking of doing. But...he would face it for Roxas. "I just...want to talk to him..," he finished softly.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 8:01 pm
Marluxia frowned starting to rub Axel's back. "Well, don't pick right now, but maybe you should seriously consider who you want more in your life. I mean even if you do end up somehow getting Demyx over this just complete psycho state he is in right now, you can't have your cake and eat it too. You'll have to pick between Demyx and Roxas eventually. I don't think either one would be willing to share with the other one after all that has happened. You just have to face the fact that you can't be there for everyone Axel. You just have to let some fish back into the sea for the other fishermen. Do you understand?" Marluxia asked softly trying to help so that he got to thinking on the right path rather than how impossible it would be to have both. He needed to be thinking about which one he wanted not getting both that was just the end of it.
"Well I guess we can do now if we finish eating." Riku said glancing down at his plate. He blinked a few times staring at it as it started to crawl away in his mind before laughing at him. "...hmm, or we could just pretend we ate..." He said sounding a little scared of the slop sitting in front of him. After a few second, it returned to normal but he was sure that his hallucinations would come back shortly. Roxas look up at Riku after he said something about not eating before picking up his spoon and tossing it at Riku. He was definitely starting to just act pissed off at the world because he couldn't see Axel right now. Deep down it was just him expressing his fear of never seeing Axel again, but openly crying about it would just get him on more medication. Riku looked up at Roxas when he was tossed the spoon. He caught it then just stared at Roxas for a moment. "If you want to see me beat my slop death, I hope you know I have more control than that," Riku said not breaking eye contact with the blonde across the table. Roxas just smiled smugly before starting to eat his food slowly, his eyes never moving from Riku's either.
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 8:30 pm
"I told him I loved him, Marluxia..," Axel said hoarsely barely above a whipser. "And I...I think I really, really do..." He buried his face in Marluxia's shoulder. "It's stupid... I'm so ******** stupid... It was a stupid thing to do... I shouldn't have told him that... At least not right now... Not while all this s**t's going on with Demyx... ********... ********, ******** ********!" he yelled, whimpering afterwards, slumping down into Marluxia's arms. "Why do I have to be such a ********?" he sobbed, gripping Marluxia's shirt.
Sora sighed softly at their fighting. "I really hate it when you guys start fighting..," he said in a quiet voice, nuzzling into Riku's shoulder more. His grip loosened on Riku's hand and he wasn't trembling as much now because he was more focused on their little bickering match.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 9:03 pm
Marluxia leaned down and kissed Axel's head sweetly. "Axel I am never going to tell you that loving someone is wrong, but there is a time and place, if Roxas is in a mental hospital don't you think he should have some time to work some things before he gets into a serious relationship." Marluxia advised softly trying to show Axel that there was time. It was like the red head had to pick right this moment, then marry them tomorrow. Either Demyx or Roxas were obviously ready for that. They were both healing for a horrible experience. Demyx had been whacked out and un-medicated for about two years, not to mention he spent two years listening to Zexion tell him what to do. Now he thought Axel was leaving him too, he was losing all his support systems. Roxas had went through a very terrifying situation and no one could blame for being the way he was, but he did need help. That was for sure.
Riku looked down at Sora softly. "We're not fighting, Roxas is just hurting and doesn't know how to show it anymore because he won't speak." Riku told Sora softly trying to explain to the brunette that this was Roxas trying to ask for their help. Riku's eyes moved back to Roxas for a moment. There was a very large black monster coming from around his back and hanging over him darkly. Riku's eyes seemed to dilate for a second just staring at it for a moment, before Roxas banged the table realizing Riku was staring at him, but not. A quiver ran through the silverette before everything when back to normal again. "Axel needs to get back... like now..." Riku whispered getting a nod from Roxas as he first at least the main food for lunch and drank something. Roxas seemed to notice how uncomfortable it was in the cafeteria for his friend, and stood up again. He moved some of Riku's food on his plate, as if Riku at least attempted to eat, before moving to throw his tray away. Riku scrambled to get out the room as well, pulling up Sora up with him. Sora wasn't required to eat the crappy food, so he usually ate before he came or afterwards.
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Posted: Thu Jan 05, 2012 9:27 pm
Axel nodded a little and sniffled. "I...I think what I'm gonna do...is...when Demyx wakes up, make sure he's calm enough...and...and tell him that...that i know what I promised...but I need some time to actually sit back and think...and so does he... Then...I'm gonna tell him that I'm gonna go see Roxas in a few days...and tell him the same thing. That way hopefully no one's freaking out...and we all know that we all need to stop and think...and...and I'll try to explain it as best as I can for them...so they don't get the wrong idea..." He hugged Marluxia tightly. "You're such an...awesome person, Marly. I'm an idiot for letting you go.., he told him quietly. "But I'm so lucky you're still here..."
Sora quickly followed the two out. He kept his hold on Riku's hand as they walked down the hallway. "Can we go to Riku's room? I wanna get that number..," he said softly, gazing around at the white hallways. Just staring at the walls was maddening. He didn't understand why everything had to be stark white. It was creepy.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2012 11:11 pm
Marluxia smiled a little as the Axel calmed a little. "Well good, I mean honestly I think it would help everyone if we just eased into this situation." Marluxia stated softly before hugging Axel back. "Well get use to me being here, I'm not going anywhere for a long, long time." He said with a small laugh as he stood to get up. His face was now starting to throb and he wanted to get some pain killers. "You want some cocoa or something, I'm getting pain killers if you want some of those. You can only have like one with your other medication, but it might help if Demyx got you any place good." Marluxia questioned softly trying to be polite and offer him everything that he was getting himself.
Roxas shrugged a little before he pushed down the hallway to Riku's room rather than in the direction of his own room. "We're going." Riku said keeping the other hand on Roxas carefully. Riku was actually holding Sora's hand with their fingers laced together, but Riku's hand on Roxas was actually fastened around the blonde's wrist so he didn't lose him. It was a habit, he picked up from where his blindfold. Now of course, it just seemed to be a nervous habit he had.
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Posted: Tue Jan 10, 2012 3:50 pm
"Cocoa would be nice," he said softly. He glanced at Demyx once more before standing and following Marluxia. "I don't need any pain meds, though. He didn't really get me anywhere. He probably should have, though, considering this was due to my irrational thinking...or lack of thinking. You shouldn't have had to put up with that s**t..." He sighed softly, slumping down on one of the bar stools and laying his head down on his crossed arms.
Sora nodded and held Riku's hand tighter as they continued down the hall. Once they reached Riku's room, Sora strolled over and sat on the bed patiently, looking around the room. The last time he was in there was when Roxas was in Solitary.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jan 10, 2012 11:42 pm
Marluxia smiled at least Axel wanted cocoa too. "I 'put up with it' because I love you both and would do anything to see you be happy. Demyx may not seem happy right now, but he'll get better, he just needs to find a love interest that isn't in love with someone else. I mean, I always hated Zexion. I could always tell that guy was nothing, but trouble, but I didn't say anything because I could tell how much Demyx loved him. It is probably he freaked out so bad today. Axel, you became whatever was left of his pillar of hope for life again after you guys left Zexion. Today, he realized you weren't going to be there forever. And that is a good thing, maybe not something that should have been brought on so quickly, but still, something Demyx needed. Demyx needs to get back into the real world. Roxas is eventually going to push you out of this house, he already has in a way already, but Demyx still doesn't go out for anything. It isn't healthy." Marluxia explained idly as he fixed the cocoa and got his pain killers.
Riku's room was pretty plain. Most of the art around his room Riku took down, because he was blind most of the time now, so why would he need things to look at? Riku's room was also noticeably black. Riku always hated the color white. Of course, the walls and floor he didn't get to pick the color of though, so they were still white. Roxas moved over to one of the desk one side of the room getting a drawing pad and a pencil from the top of it. He then moved and sat against a wall on the same side of the room. The pencil moved, but it was hard to tell if he was drawing or writing something.
Riku observed him for a moment before remembering he had to find that number for Sora. He moved over to the nightstand on the side of the bed, getting out the pad that had the number on it. Riku's handwriting had the number clearly written with Axel name written above it. "Here Sor-" Riku said turning to hand Sora the pad before noticing something on the pad. Without any warning, he chucked it across the room almost confidently hitting Roxas. The blue eyes looked up at Riku before frowned deeply stepping back a little defensively. "Sorry... I thought I saw something." Silver haired boy mumbled before moving to get the pad from Roxas. Roxas eyed Riku for a moment, before tossing the pad up to Sora, so Riku didn't have to touch it again.
Riku looked at the pad now up in Sora's hands, before settling down next to Roxas. When he got like this, a switich in his brain turned on and he hated being around Sora. He just hated looking crazy in front of the brunette. He could be normal most of the time, but without his blindfold, he was lucky to seem sane half the time. Roxas looked over to Riku next to him. He scribbled something down on the drawing pad. After reading the message, Riku reluctantly got up and got a bigger drawing pad with some black charcoal. "Sora, d-did you want to draw too?" Riku asked politely after resuming his position on the floor next to Roxas. It was obvious that he was nervous now though.
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2012 6:58 pm
Axel looked up at Marluxia, thinking over the pink-haired man's words. Then he finally smiled. He stood and hugged Marluxia tightly. "How do you always know what to ********' say?" he mumbled into Marluxia's neck. "In the next few days... I want you to go with me to take Demyx out to...to somewhere he can meet new people... I think you're right... He needs to have people other than us to keep him stable. Maybe...we can find someone that'll accept him and love him like I wish I could..." He glanced back at the couch where Demyx was sleeping. "Maybe...we can go to that coffee shop that has karaoke every Thursday... We used to go before we started...ya know... Actually...isn't that where we met?" he asked softly, a small smile on his lips. "Of course, I also think that's where he met Zexion, too... Wait, no, that was a different place. I think that was at a concert... Yeah, it was a concert. You know how Demyx used to always play Seether? It was always playing when you came over... That was because that's the concert they met at. Now, I don't even want to mention the name around him. I'm scared of what'll happen." He kissed Marluxia's neck innocently, squeezed him a little tighter, then released him and sat back down where he was before. "I still think it's sexy when you're making cocoa," he said with a playful smile, propping his head up on his hand as he watched the man move about the kitchen.
Sora smiled slightly and shrugged. "I'm not a very good artist..," he started. "But I'll draw a picture for you if you want me to," he finished happily. He leaned over to the nightstand and pulled out another piece of charcoal. He ripped the page with Axel's number on it out, folded it up, and put it in his pocket. He then started to happily sketch out a large oak tree on a hill with two people sitting on the ground beneath it, holding hands. One of them had spikey hair, and the other had long, straight hair. He had a smile on his face the whole time he drew, but his eyes gradually softened into a quiet, sad acceptance. Eventually, his hand began to tremble so much that he decided to just set the pad and charcoal back on the bedside table. He clasped his hands tightly together and laid down on Riku's bed, rolling over so his back was to the two friends. He curled up and hugged himself, willing the newly-forming tears to disappear.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 5:58 am
Marluxia smiled at Axel. "We can do that if you want, but I think the biggest complication we will have is getting Demyx to want to go too. I mean, I offer to take him places all the time, and he just turns them down." Marluxia said softly looking back at Axel, who was hugging him. "I don't see how me specially making cocoa is hot, I mean, I'm pretty sure I look the exact same making any other hot beverage." Marluxia countered as poured the already hot water into the mugs. The pink haired man then moved to island and passed Axel his mug.
Riku smiled. "I'm sure I'll like anything you make Sora." Riku said back before looking back down at his own blank page. Riku's drawing started out innocent enough, but eventually it turned south. It was a picture of himself with the same demon over him that he saw over Roxas earlier. It had massive hands that hovered on either side of Riku's body as he floated over him. It was looming down on him.. watching him... Riku aquamarine eyes were fixed on the picture bringing it to life on the page until the sound of the nightstand shutting startled him. The silver haired teen looked up seeing Sora curl up on his bed. Riku didn't know how, but he knew it was his fault. He set his drawing pad down moving to Sora. Without thinking about, he pulling Sora to him in a warm embrace. "I'm sorry...." He whispered feeling tears starting to form in his own eyes. He hated being the way he was, but he couldn't help it...
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 8:37 pm
"It's because I know you're making it for meee~" Axel said then laughed softly, taking a sip of his steaming drink. Once he swallowed, he continued to smile at him. "Maybe...he wouldn't go because I wasn't going to be there, too. You know he's much more comfortable with me... We've been best friends since high school, so he's pretty attatched to me... Maybe if I ask him, he'll wanna go. It may remind him of when we used to go before everything started, ya know?"
Sora curled up and nuzzled into his chest as he sniffled. He reached over with a shakey hand and grabbed the pad, holding it up so Riku could see. "I just...wish you would let me get closer to you..," he whispered sadly. "I don't care about what you see or act like sometimes... You know that... You know I don't care about how you are, because that's exactly it. It's how you are...but I know you care about me seeing you like that, and... And it's so selfish of me to get so caught up in it and frustrated about it...but I can't help it... I care about you a lot, Riku..," he added in with a finish before just cuddling closer to the silvernette's chest. "I love being with you and around you, blindfold or not... I just wish that your mind would let you accept that..," he added in quietly. He looked up into Riku's eyes with his big blues and ran a soft hand through the silver locks gently.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 3:27 pm
Marluxia laughed a little at Axel's comment, before thinking for a moment. "You know what, Axel? You get Demyx to legitimately get out of the house and do something social, and you can start going to see Roxas again, and not a second sooner," Marluxia said being completely serious. "You wanted to know to know how you can help them both and that it, but I mean it Axel, don't go visit Roxas until then because Demyx will only crash again and maybe even worse than this time." Marluxia said his tone being more stern, but it was a good idea and Marluxia wasn't going to give Axel the choice to do it or not. Demyx needed this.
Riku felt the hot tears stream down his face as he looked at the picture before back at Sora. He wish it could be that easy; he wished he didn't have to fear what he saw around every corner. Riku pressed his face into Sora's shoulder holding him close to him. "Sora..." He whispered softly feeling his tears starting to soak Sora's shirt. "...I just don't want you to get hurt..." He whispered to the other as he started to feel his boy start to shake. Riku had been getting better, but at one point, he had gotten so bad that he found find that he was completely surrounded by shadows but he wasn't. They were just people that he could recognize as people anymore. He didn't want to ever not recognize Sora's face or voice. He wanted Sora to stay pure and good, but the shadows were always lurking it seemed.
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