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Axel sniffled and nodded. "I'll always forgive you, Dem..," he whispered to the blond before being forced to look up at him. He sobbed slightly as Demyx kissed him. It was so sweet and innocent...the redhead just couldn't handle it. He broke down into tears, forced to break from the kiss, and buried his face in the blond's shoulder again. He sobbed and sobbed, apologizing over and over to the poor blond for all that he's done to him.

Axel just sobbed more as Demyx continued talking. He was gladly led away from the blond by Marluxia. Once the two were in the kitchen, he grabbed onto his pink-haired friend and buried his face in his chest, crying hard. "M-Marluxia, I'm a t-terrible p-p-person... Wh-Why a-am I even allowed t-to live? I d-don't deserve it..." His knees gave out beneath him, and he sunk to the floor to sob into his hands instead.

Axel shook his head. "I d-dunno if I c-can make it through, M-Marly. I-It hurts so much... Th-They b-both need m-me, a-and I c-can't help either one o-of th-them... I f-feel like s-such a failure. I-I tried to k-kill myself a f-few days ago, b-but I d-d-didn't want to leave e-everyone al-lone..," he admitted to Marluxia, sobbing harder. "I h-hate myself..." He really did look unhealthy. He was skinny, his ribs easily showing through his skin. He was much paler than he used to be, and there were dark circles around his eyes. The color of his eyes weren't even the bright, acid green they used to be. They were pretty lifeless. The only time they had gotten back to their vividity was when he visited Roxas. It was the happiest thing that happened to him since everything started.

Axel walked out of his bedroom with some black jeans and a blue V-neck on. His socked feet padded the floor as he made it to the breakfast table. He sat down and was silent for a few moments. "So...am I allowed to go visit him?" he asked in a quiet voice. He had tried to be very patient, but his patience was beginning to wear thin. God, he missed Roxas so much. He wanted to just go hold him for an hour or so and come back. He felt like his heart was ripping apart every time he thought of the blond and how much he missed him--which was very, very often. But he knew he had to be there for Demyx, too. So he waited until the right time. Demyx was almost stable enough to get out of the house, and he was more accepting of the idea of Axel going to go see Roxas and Sora. He just needed Marluxia's "OK" to go and visit him. Needless to say, he was very anxious.

"I...I've been talking to him about it... He...he seems like he'll be alright if I go, but I'll ask him. I don't want what happened last time to happen again. I hate seeing him like that..." He rested his elbows on the table, resting his forehead on his palms and gripping at his hair line. "You can make it..," he whispered to himself as tears rolled down his cheeks silently. After a few minutes, he took a deep breath in and wiped his face off before smiling at Marluxia with red, tired eyes. "I think I'm gonna go sit in the backyard for a little while. Come get me when Demyx gets up, please. And...check on me once in a while. I might try to jump the fence..." He stood and made his way to the back door, exiting it and walking to the bench swing they had there beneath an old tree. He sat and stared out at the sky and all of its purple beauty. He didn't know how long he sat there just staring off into space. The glow of the sunlight lit up his tired, pained face, rays gleaming off of his tears. It was a beautiful sight, just as well as a very sad one.

Axel nodded slightly at Demyx's words after the blond sat beside him. He was silent for a while before saying softly, "It's up to you, Dem. I won't go see him unless you say I can..." His watery eyes continued to stare off at the rising sun, completely unfocused. He then looked over at him. "I know I said it was just gonna be you and me,.. but I can't keep that promise anymore... I love you, Dem. So much... More than words can say, but...not how I used to love you. It's no one's fault, I just...I love him so much..," he whispered, eyes turning back to look at the sky. "I'm not going to leave you and never come back. I care about you way too much to do that. I'll always come back... Even after all of this is over and we go our separate ways... I'll make sure I live close to come visit you. You're my best friend, Dem. The best one anyone could have..." He looked back at him. "I just want you to understand. I'm not trying to start a fight...I just want you to understand that I'm so, so sorry I can't keep that promise, but I'll always love you--Just as a best friend. And I'll always be here for you." He said it all in a quiet, calm voice. He didn't want to set Demyx off by any means... He just wanted him to understand.

Axel felt himself choke on tears as Demyx spoke to him. The blond sounded so sincere with his words...and that's all Axel could ask for. Demyx was actually letting him go see Roxas. His heart thudded inside his chest loudly. Demyx, though... Demyx was so sad. He frowned, looking out at the sunrise again. He surprised himself after going inside a while later that he sat out there for another hour. His mind, he thought, had made itself up without Axel's consultation. The redhead just had no problem with it. The redhead walked inside and slipped his shoes on.. Then, instead of going through the front door, he walked back to Demyx's room. He knocked gently then opened the door slowly. He walked over to Demyx who was sleeping on the bed and sat down beside him. "Dem? Hey, Dem, wake up," he said softly, shaking him a bit to try and get him to open his eyes.