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Posted: Mon Jun 01, 2020 11:13 pm
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The idea of being in some kind of partnership with both Abel and Kieran seemed a bit odd. Especially knowing each male didn't share very well. But at the same time it seemed to make perfect sense. Jakob couldn't speak for Abel, but if Kieran gave his blessing then they wouldn't have to sneak around. Mentally, he shook his head. What was he thinking. This seemed like a bad idea...but if it was the only way he could keep Kieran....he didn't know what to do.
As he spoke, Jakob tried to be as honest as possible. He'd never given the situation enough thought to know how to put it into words, so suddenly being asked about it took him by surprise. It was true their world didn't really allow love. Some had tried, many had failed. So why did they try so hard for it? Jakob for one could say it was because he'd never cared enough to try to love another person that wasn't his family. He had to wonder if that was why Kieran fought so hard as well. When the man spoke again, he nearly laughed. The idea of wanting something more with Abel, that was never going to happen.
"For the most part, it's purely sex. Our personalities clash too much to even attempt something more....But sometimes he can be like a friend. It's weird, I know...but, he's shown to have some human moments. Like when you broke up with me, he stayed with me all night. We didn't really talk or do anything but watch bad late night television. He was just there." Jakob spoke slowly, trying to put his feelings into words as best as he could. He wasn't sure that he was making sense. Sighing, he looked up at Kieran. He didn't know how else to make him understand that he didn't love Abel. That they would never work together. But with Kieran, that was all he wanted. He wanted all of him.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 12:03 am
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As much as he would like to laugh at the absurdity of Kieran's question, he didn't. Instead he spoke honestly and openly without getting too graphic. He was afraid of how Kieran might take it. But so far he was doing surprisingly well. He could only assume it was because he knew of the kind of comfort Abel could give. Despite it going completely against the man's personality, he was a bit of a softy deeply buried beneath his often rude, chain smoking, sadistic, tattooed demon exterior.
Jakob soon finished speaking and watched the man nod his head quietly. He nibbled on his fries before being questioned again. Kieran really wasn't holding back. Though it was probably for the best. They needed to have a talk like this back when they met at the club. Instead they just went back to Kieran's room and barely spoke at all. "Maybe....I mean...we sort of did today. We started to, but when he asked me what I was thinking about, all I could say was you. And well, it ended pretty quickly from there." he said truthfully. Picking up another fry, Jakob popped it into his mouth. It was bit cold from sitting there awhile, but he didn't care so much.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 3:04 pm
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In truth he had not been looking for a "reason" to sneak around. He wasn't even completely sure why he betrayed him in the first place. He could blame never being monogamous all he liked, but he wasn't sure how long that excuse would hold up with Kieran. It wasn't like wanted to lose Kieran. But he also liked the relaxed times he sometimes spent with Abel. It was weird, they should be enemies. Instead their conversations often turned flirty and one thing would lead to another. But neither of them wanted more than that.
As Jakob finished speaking he watched Kieran closely, curious to know what he thought of what he was being told. A moment later, another question. Again, it was almost laughable, but he held it in. He knew that Kieran was being serious right now and wanted to be respectful. "Listen, Abel is fun to ******** and flirt with, but that's it. Neither of us want more than that. It is only about sex. But Kieran, with you...you have my ******** heart. Okay? I only love you. Why do you think I keep coming back every time you shove me away?" he replied, blushing as he spoke. Looking up at the man, he waited. He knew what he said was a bit mushy, but damn it those were his true feelings. He was too embarrassed for them not to be honest. So he hoped that Kieran appreciated him making a fool out of himself.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 5:03 pm
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It had never been his intention to hurt Kieran by hiding the fact that he had slept with another man. Of all their conversations, he doubted Kieran liked being told that his boyfriend was also sleeping with his best friend. But it couldn't be helped. In his moments of despair, Jakob continued to turn to the one person that was supposed to be his enemy. And in those strange moments he was shown kindness and a kind of comfort he'd never expected to come from Abel. He could see where Kieran might mistake his actions for throwing him aside. But he was wrong in that assumption. His relationship with Abel was only so deep. Whereas with Kieran, he couldn't get enough of the man. He was happy when they would go out, he looked forward to their late night meetings, and craved him to the core. He didn't think Kieran was childish or selfish for wanting him to himself. After all, most couples preferred it that way.
When Kieran questioned him again, Jakob did his best to explain himself. He was embarrassed to the point of blushing and stuttering a little over his words. But he meant, every last one of them. Jakob understood how serious this was to Kieran and in turn showed him the same respect. It was true, if they couldn't be serious with one another this was never going to work. When he was finished speaking he sat there waiting. He watched as Kieran dusted off his hands and moved the tray aside.
In his last rambling, Jakob had set his hands on the table, thinking nothing of it. A moment later, Kieran reached between them and took one into his own. His blush only deepened but he allowed him to take it. Jakob smiled softly as Kieran then laced their fingers together. He stared at their intertwined hands for a moment as if it were a sight had had not seen for generations. When the man spoke, he looked up. For a moment, he was fearful as Kieran gave his permission to continue seeing Abel on the side. Though he quickly recovered as the man claimed his possession over him. Jakob nodded quietly as Kieran soon finished speaking. He knew the weight of his words and what he was agreeing to in order to stay with him. "Agreed. I won't lie to you again....I am yours; heart, body, and soul. Just as you mine." he replied, pulling Kieran's hand close to him to press a gentle kiss to his knuckles. Setting their hands back down between them, Jakob smiled. "Though while we're on the subject, Abel and I, we were serious this morning. You're always welcome to join us." he teased. He didn't know if now was the time to make jokes, but he wanted to lighten the air even if it was just a little bit.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 7:32 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 8:25 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2020 9:27 pm
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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