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Salty the Rockstar Captain
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 Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2008 9:55 pm
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~Dear Jesus.
Thank you so much for these wonderful girls who are yearning and searching after you, thank you so much that your word says that they do not look in vain.
God I pray for the girl who goes by Hypersan. Lord bless her with the wisdom she needs to make the right choices. Give her supernatural discernment and knowledge, so she may know what you want her to do. Guide her in your will, and your will only and keep her from falling and getting hurt again. Be with her this week so she may feel your presence strongly.
And Lord I pray for the girl who goes by the alias Vicenx. Father, in Jesus' name I come against any demon or demonic force that is attacking her right now! In the name of Jesus! Devil we bind you and cast you out! You have no power over her!
God be close to vicen, send her helpers, encouragers or someone who she can talk to, Father someone who she can be accountable to.
Mend her relationship with you. Give her inclination and time to spend in your word and in prayer. Fix it, like you've done for me so many times. Thank you Jesus.
Thank you for the victory, I thank you that everything is going to work together for the good of these girls, because they love you.
In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.~
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 7:59 pm
If We Could Be Ourselves Just A Little Longer...
Salty, thank you so much.
I cry every time I re-read that prayer. It's the first time I've cried in so long.
Things happened Sunday night at my youth group, things that opened my heart up a little bit more, along with your prayer for me.
I remembered and understood things that I had forgotten long ago. Things that were always told to me, but I had never identified with before.
After I came home from youth group and read your prayer for me, I re-read the prayer request I wrote before.
I felt so sad, so dirty and undeserving. I had cried out for a love I didn't deserve in a million lifetimes because of what I did to the one I called God- I looked away for a moment and got lost for half an eternity.
I was marked in this way, and Sunday I was reminded that even if you're marked, if you want to be with God again- just ask, you can.
I was touched by your prayer, because fellow Christians should seek those who are going the wrong way and try to correct them. They should cry out and help them.
You helped me, and I'm grateful.
I'm going to ask for forgiveness once more. And I'm going to work even harder to mend my relationship with God now.
Thank you so much.
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Posted: Mon Jul 14, 2008 1:43 am
Hey guys! Okay, so first of all, the Brandon thing is over. He blew me off, so he's not just a creep, he's an unreliable creep. And you know how God answered that prayer? I now have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. He treats me like a princess and lives only like 30 minutes-ish away... If you want to read the rest, go read the shout-out accomplishments page. mrgreen And thank you very much for the prayer, Salty.
Vicenx- I know what it's like not to see anything but the problems around me. I've been there before. And I wish I could give you an amazing prayer like Salty did, but I don't think I could... so all I can say is just take it one day at a time. Don't expect it to get better all at once, but be honest with God, even when you're mad or bitter or afraid of him. Don't be afraid to cry and scream. Don't be afraid to let others know you're hurting. Seek Jesus with all of your heart, and you'll find him and yourself. Just never give up. And if you ever just need someone to talk to when the pressure gets on, PM me any time, okay? You're in my prayers.
Peace, guys.
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 9:27 pm
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~Aw. You're amazing Vicen. You can do it! God is there right behind you helping you along!
Thank goodness prayer can reach across the whole world and not loose it's strength! I have both your usernames written on a sticky note, and I take that note with me during my prayer time and I call out for you and I cover your situations with prayer, and I'm doing everything I can to help. Because besides prayer all I can do is type words on a screen.
Well. I have a prayer request today. I'd like someone to stand with as I'm believing for this.
You see, I've just made a major break through in my music. I've got a song half written and the second half is in my head, but I can't work on it because suddenly, out of nowhere, my piano suddenly broke.
I know it's just an attack of the enemy, because he doesn't want me to finish this song. That's what I need prayer for. I need a new piano. I've got my hopes set on a real nice Roland, it cost about 2600$. It's more than worth it, but I can only buy it cash only. I have about 300$ saved up, and I'm gonna try to find a job this week.
It'd be great to have someone to stand with, and to rebuke the devil away from my equipment. And a piano to practice on while I'm saving would be nice too.
Thanks! I'll post here when God answers it! ~
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Salty the Rockstar Captain
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Salty the Rockstar Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 9:44 pm
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~Oh! One more thing. I just thought, God can totally use this whole situation. I believe that you are going to come out of it and that you are going to have such a strong anointing for people who have fought with what you are fighting with.
Not only will you recover and come right close to Jesus again. But you are going to be reaching out, and touching lives that are fighting the same battle you fought. Even your friend who was struggling, can benefit from your testimony here.
Say it everyday! You are victorious, you are healed and renewed, write it on the mirror and read it when you brush your teeth. You know the right words to combat your battles, I don't. But post words everywhere and confess victory, whatever form you need it in. Keep words of victory right in front of you and confess them regularly. Great things are in store for you, I can feel it.
Keep posting! I like updates and details when I pray. And I'm not going to stop either, so do me a favor let me know what I need to be targeting.
wink ~
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 8:16 pm
If We Could Be Ourselves Just A Little Longer...Thanks again, you don't know how much this means to me. :3
Updates... Updates...
Well, I haven't cut in a while now, I can actually say I haven't really thought of it recently. Things have been settling down little by little, and the only things I've really been worried about now have been trivial things. (I.E. Getting ready for a trip, organizing time for friends, friends moving, etc.)
I really do think that my past burdens have left me, the things that I'd think constantly about, the problems that ruled my life in secret are being forgotten by me.
I'm starting to gain back more emotions now, laughing is getting genuine and smiles are getting less and less fake.
I'm really starting to get some color back into my world.
I can't exactly say that people have been supportive (with the exclusion of all of you, since you all have been very supportive), since I've only ever really told you all. But I'm getting over my secret tragedy, and I'm glad.
I'll still never tell my parents about this, but you're right- I hope I'll be able to help other people who are going through what I am recently getting out of. Though they may be hard to find, since I'd never tell anyone I had a problem, and no one could tell with the masks I wore.
But I hope they'll reach out.
I'm praying for your piano, Salty. I know how it is when you have a spendific idea and you can't express it. =(
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2008 12:47 pm
yeah im trying to get a job right now so i can get my license cause im gonna have to be payin my own insurance for like the next 6months, so right now im hopin for Quiznos instead of Wendys but Winn-Dixie is what im hopein for even more than those to but its like im not suppost to work there or something with how no one is givin me any of the info that i need
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Posted: Sun Aug 03, 2008 11:55 am
I need a lot of prayer. A lot of emotional junk going on internally and major insecurities I've struggled with are rearing their ugly heads again.
I've decided that I refuse to cry when I don't know the reason for it; but it's really hard to do.. then when I find a reason; I bawl like a two year old. -sigh-
July was a very hard month also. Not just for me but my whole church. My church has been having problems ever since I've gone there, but from what I hear it's been going on for some odd 40 years.
I started going there around the Spring or Early Summer of 2005. Before that, the Pastor who I knew because I went to school with his daughter, would come into my workplace and invite me. But at the time, I was so hurt from my last church.. that I'd completely quit church. [I did not turn from God.. I'd just had enough of 'christians.'] Then he got really sick and died of cancer, and I felt bad that he'd never seen me make good on his invitation.
By the time I got their, his son and his wife had taken over the post. I fell in love with the church.. everyone and I mean EVERYONE was so nice and it felt so comfortable and non-judgemental so we ended up joining. After a couple years the Pastor decided to step down because of internal struggle with the 'Deacon' and went to start a new church. With the post vacant the deacon had many guest preachers and my mother and I tried to help keep up the newsletter and help clean and paint and things.. then a member of the church claimed it was God's will for his wife to become the new pastor. Deacon didn't like it and it was war.. and by this time.. it was only deacon, us, and maybe one or two others left. After a few very upsetting instances we left too. [Non-christians being allowed to lead worship and things that was just not right] But anyway.. about a year passed and they finally installed a new pastor.
This pastor I knew since he came into my work a lot and I knew he was a decent guy. Once again.. I fell in love with how the church was flourishing.. almost as if I'd never left and even better. I missed being able to sing in church and they once again allowed me to do so and so I did. Then.. after several months passed, we had a church member meeting and since we had joined again we were invited. This is where it gets real hairy really quickly. Pastor wanted to be in charge of the church [which really he is supposed to be] and not the deacon who.. supposedly wasn't a real deacon to begin with. That wasn't the worst though. Ladies being on the stage in pants [groans] somehow was brought up to which a battle rose like no other about how a woman is -incapable- of worship if she is in pants and that a skirt is the only attire for the holy place. [What makes a skirt more holy? Its less modest for crying out loud.] And the pro-skirts were pointing in his face telling him to preach it from the pulpit. He told them he wasn't going to preach something that wasn't in the bible. Said faction starts to storm out and deacon reels them back in for more battle royale. -sighs- In the end.. A month or so has been lost in the bickering and several have left the church in a huff. I kind of avoided church at this point and I refuse to go up on that stage because it's going to offend someone.
I just went back this morning. Things seemed okay except pastor REALLY hinted for me to get up and sing. But.. I don't feel right anymore. Not spiritually, and not enough to focus on worship without thinking someone might be offended. So.. after my long winded story, my request is for my course to be righted spiritually. I feel.. like each time something like this happens.. I lose something with God.. and I hate that feeling. It depresses me terribly and I have completely lost my motivation to even read my bible.
I really do NOT blame God for any of this.. this is stupid human falicy. But at the same time.. I have no desire to do anything.. Everytime I get attached.. I get bitten.
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Posted: Mon Aug 04, 2008 6:26 am
My prayers are with you, Vi.
I'm really sorry that you have to go through that, I know how crappy it is when things seen to just fall apart, and what it's like to feel detatched from God and everything else. It's horrible.
It took a year and this guild to make me wake up to just how far I'd drifted from God because of my problems.
When you drift away like that, you tend to forget the things that seem to be hammered into you as a Christian- God loves you, He's there for you, and if you ask for forgiveness wholeheartedly He'll give it.
As for the Church being divided because of skirts and pants....
I wear pants when I'm singing up there. o.o;;
God doesn't care if you worship in a pink bunny suit, just so long as you're not doing it to mock him.
A Church is supposed to be a groupe of people gathered together in one place, who have one common interest- God. Not to insult your Church or you or anything, but if they're so hung up on whether or not women can wear pants instead of skirts while worshipping, maybe they've given in to the Devil's plans instead of God's. Instead of focusing on God they're fighting against eachother because of some small thing, and if it gets too bad the Church itsself may just fall apart. That's just what the Devil wants. I've heard of a Church divided just because of pickles!
Maybe you're the only one there who sees just how silly this division is. Maybe you're the one to tell them this.
I know you're detatched, but you had a strong relationship with God, didn't you? Enough that he came to you in a dream. I think that dream still applies, even if this isn't your job.
I'll pray you don't take a year like I did, I'll pray this guild will help you as much as it did me. I'll pray you don't get as bad as I did, because it's hard to climb back up when you've been pulled down that far. I'll pray that you have the strength to go on.
And of course, above all else, I'll pray you're righted spiritually.
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Posted: Tue Aug 05, 2008 12:57 pm
The Rainbow Lemon My prayers are with you, Vi. I'm really sorry that you have to go through that, I know how crappy it is when things seen to just fall apart, and what it's like to feel detatched from God and everything else. It's horrible. It took a year and this guild to make me wake up to just how far I'd drifted from God because of my problems. When you drift away like that, you tend to forget the things that seem to be hammered into you as a Christian- God loves you, He's there for you, and if you ask for forgiveness wholeheartedly He'll give it. As for the Church being divided because of skirts and pants.... I wear pants when I'm singing up there. o.o;; God doesn't care if you worship in a pink bunny suit, just so long as you're not doing it to mock him. A Church is supposed to be a groupe of people gathered together in one place, who have one common interest- God. Not to insult your Church or you or anything, but if they're so hung up on whether or not women can wear pants instead of skirts while worshipping, maybe they've given in to the Devil's plans instead of God's. Instead of focusing on God they're fighting against eachother because of some small thing, and if it gets too bad the Church itsself may just fall apart. That's just what the Devil wants. I've heard of a Church divided just because of pickles! Maybe you're the only one there who sees just how silly this division is. Maybe you're the one to tell them this. I know you're detatched, but you had a strong relationship with God, didn't you? Enough that he came to you in a dream. I think that dream still applies, even if this isn't your job. I'll pray you don't take a year like I did, I'll pray this guild will help you as much as it did me. I'll pray you don't get as bad as I did, because it's hard to climb back up when you've been pulled down that far. I'll pray that you have the strength to go on. And of course, above all else, I'll pray you're righted spiritually. Thank you so much. You don't even know how much those words mean to me. It's taking longer for me... I've been at this church 5 years.. and I still feel like I have so much ground left to retrace. It just feels like whenever I start to love something.. it disappears or is destroyed. -sigh- I don't want that, it's just so disappointing. I've spoken my mind on the subject but as the youngest adult, no one really listens to me. So prayer is the only thing left.
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Posted: Wed Aug 06, 2008 5:47 am
I don't know exactly, but I have a very good idea. =]
I've been at my church for 5 years aswell. My problems started maybe two years ago, and only got worse within the past year. I crashed, and lived in my own secret insanity for a full year. Those were the darkest days I'd faced, because I faced them more or less alone. It took a while to finally come to the guild about it, and when I did I was scared spitless. I was so nervous about people finding out that I had problems, much less problems with self-injury.
I don't want you to get to that point. It may have been five years, but I pray that you haven't gone as far as I did yet.
That was one of my biggest hurdles- I always thought I was alone in my problems, and truthfully I wanted to be, because I couldn't stand the thought of the people around me finding out about what I was going through, be it friends or family, or my Church.
But I knew I needed help, so I ended up consulting people miles away (this guild) because I knew they'd never in a million years be able to let people I knew know about what I was going through.
If that's the case with you- welcome to the best help ever.
I understand how it feels to have the things you care about taken away from you. For me it was friends, it seemed the people I got along with the best always moved away from me, or I could never keep a good friend for long because they'd hurt me. Infact, it was one of those friends that started my problems, it hurts every time I think about how I lost yet another friendship. (we'd been best friends for 4 years, and suddenly it came down to 'the last straw'. After a year we've drifted apart silently and I think I'm finally over it.)
Just remember- God's always there for you. He will never be destroyed, and He won't leave. He'll be there when you need Him, just call.
The guild is here for you too, so you aren't alone.
We'll always be here to support you and pray for you, so please, come to us for anything. We'll be there.
Now, about your church...
It doesn't matter if you're the youngest, David was the youngest and he ended up killing a giant and becoming a king! Young people can be used by God in so many ways, and they are.
It's creepy, but one day my 7 year old brother just randomly said 'are you doing what God wants you to do?' to my Dad a while ago. It kind of bugs me that he's the uber-goody two shoes, but it's an example of how God uses people. My bro caused us all to think a little about our lives after that.
Anyway, my point is- I get that it's difficult as all getout since you're the youngest, no one listens to the youngest it seems(I've been there, and it's frustrating. Infact, I'm still there. DX ), but remember that God works through all people. Don't listen to the thoughts of defeat the Devil puts into your mind! Don't give up! Just keep trying, I'm sure God will provide you with a voice so strong no one can help but listen to you. Keep praying for strength, He'll provide it.
(Wasn't that your favorite verse?)
I'll continue praying for your spirit, your strength, and your Church, because they are all things that should never deserve to break or be lowered.
Again- we're always here for you, Vi.
And PM me anytime if you need help, ok? I'll always reply.
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Posted: Fri Aug 15, 2008 7:51 pm
I'll be praying for all of you, indeed. 3nodding Erm... but... if you could, please, pray for my sister, Sakura. I just heard that she had been hit by a car, and it may not be an accident... sad I am most worried for her soul, because she is not saved, by Jesus, so please, pray for her, but not only you, but ask your family, your friends, people at your church; please ask them to pray for my sister Sakura, as well... Thank you, my brothers and sisters in Christ.
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Dementia][Praecox Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Aug 16, 2008 12:08 pm
That's terrible!
It really hit home to me, for my cousin was killed in a car crash.
My prayers go to your sister and to your family.
God be with you.
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Posted: Sat Aug 16, 2008 7:35 pm
Thank you; I'm very grateful that someone noticed. 3nodding Yes, God is with me... but I'm not as sure of my sister.... thank you. It means more to me than you know.
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Salty the Rockstar Captain
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Posted: Wed Oct 08, 2008 3:03 pm
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~Thanks for the prayers!
--Good news about my keyboard. The one keyboard controller I was using before is working again! That's so great because now I have something I can at least practice on (I was thinking about walking to the church across the street and asking them if I could practice on their piano! lol) I am eager to return it to its rightful owner, and firm in believing for one of my own. I know it's on it's way!
--Vivi! Wow I'm so shocked to hear about all that has been going on! I remember some of the things you mentioned from the last time we talked, but that it got so bad you had to leave? Goodness gracious.
Sounds to me that you and I have a lot in common when it comes to bad experiences with churches, and faulty humans trying to run a house of worship. At least you weren't attacked personally.
I'm visiting a new church now. New since we talked actually. I understand what you mean about not having the desire to try again, it's hard. I don't want to go anywhere tonight, but I'm attending, just attending for now.
But hey, even though some people left.. Doesn't that mean that they are gone now and the pastor can finally be in charge? Maybe they took the strife with them and you can go back to how it was?
--Jo Jo. You certainly have my most earnest prayers concerning your sister! Don't be afraid, it's all gonna turn out okay.~
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