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Dementia][Praecox Vice Captain
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 Posted: Thu Jan 17, 2008 3:56 pm
Someone suggested this way back when this guild was first created.
Since we have a Bible discussion forum, I figure this is the best place for a prayer request thread.
It's basically self explainatory. Need prayer, request it here! You don't even have to give specific names or reasons if you don't want to. Just say a 'friend' needs help. Or my family needs to be prayed for. Whatever the need, we'll be here to pray for it.
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Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 4:11 pm
Um.....I would like to pray for Soldiers....my my family and friends. For hope and strenght to get by with all the crazy things that are happening in the world. And for peace on Earth heart
And or happiness all around!
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Dementia][Praecox Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2008 12:51 pm
Amen!
I'd like to request prayer for my family. Extended and immediate.
And may God bless any needs unspoken.
Amen
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Posted: Sun Feb 10, 2008 2:10 pm
I'm thinking me and my boyfriend are about to break up. I love him to death, but I'm not sure how serious he really is about me, and that's been hurting me for a long time. I'd rather have his friendship than a few months' worth of empty "i love yous" and crying myself to sleep because I don't know where God's leading me. And also please pray that I'll have the strength to cling to God and trust him to know what's going to come from this. Thanks guys.
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Posted: Sat Mar 08, 2008 9:26 am
any1 one who reads this say a prayer hyper-san cuz she goin through a hard time, im alil worryed actually. sad
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Posted: Wed Mar 19, 2008 5:11 pm
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~I'm praying for you Hyper-san. Really praying. Beyond just typing words on a screen.
And I hope you'll come post for us your amazing praise report. Cause I know God is really watching out for you.
I'd like to request prayer for my new youth pastor. Help him feel welcome in his new church, and in his new city. And just pray that God blesses him and his family. 3nodding ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
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Salty the Rockstar Captain
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Posted: Thu Mar 20, 2008 6:26 pm
Aw, thanks guys. That means so much.
I just wanted you guys to know that I'm doing okay now. I woke up on Monday and I felt alright for the first time in a month in a half, for the first time since before Brandon dumped me. I don't really know why. But it woke me up. It made me realize how fragile life is, and how much I risk when I leave things unsaid or get comfortable with my life the way it is and let myself ignore the pain in the world around me for the sake of my own feelings. And as soon as Spring Break is over, I'm doing a devotional for FCA, talking about what happened to me, and how it's opened my eyes. I'm doing great now. I'm going Prom dress shopping with my best friend (even though she's a sophomore and can't go to Prom, I'm trying to work something out to fix that) over break, and I get to go to Florida with the marching band in 28 days, and me and Stephen are spending the whole Magic Kingdom day together, we're even making matching shirts for it. We'll look like rockstars but nerdier.
Thanks for the love and prayers guys. No lie, the last month up until this week has probably been the lowest part of my life. I almost lost hope. Thanks for helping me find it again. ^_^
Much love,
me heart
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Posted: Wed Mar 26, 2008 7:38 pm
If We Could Be Ourselves Just A Little Longer...
There's many times in a person's life that calls for prayer.
I guess I need prayer.
After the last few months of chaos I was tired of feeling hurt, used, and burdened. I was tired of crying so much my eyes stung, of hurting so much inside that the pain seemed quite physical. I was tired of breaking down day after day, of going practically insane.
And so, after a while... I just stopped. I stopped feeling all together. The pain was gone, but so was everything else- hate, happiness, sadness, worry. I'm not even sure if I can really feel love at this point, though I'm trying. I don't know if my laughter is genuine anymore.
I've fallen into this deep apathy that I don't even know what to do about because I've stopped caring. I know that this is totally and completely wrong, that this isn't for me. I've been trying so hard to find myself again, but I haven't gotten anything yet. Nothing steady, that is. I've felt some things here and there, little slivers of true emotion, but that's all. It only lasts a few moments before I'm back to apathetic.
I can't even do the one thing I really love, because I can't connect with my work-
I can't draw because I don't feel anything anymore.
So, everyone, please pray that I soon find myself again, and just ask for God to restore what I've lost and get me through this. I really, really need people to be praying for me.
Also, if you could pray for my friend. She actually helped me get through some of those rough times I had because she could relate. But now her situation isn't getting better. She's actually falling quite far, and every time she tries to fight to get out her mother and my youth pastor just keeps pounding her down again one way or another. They think she no longer has any faith and that she is completely away from God now. I know she still believes, but I'm worried that she's not getting the most out of it, I'm worried that she isn't getting the full effect of what she's being taught. She is a very opinionated and strong girl, but... Anyway...
She told me tonight that she is Bisexual, though I'm not quite sure if she knows the full, literal meaning of it. Just pray that her eyes will be opened up a little more, that others can open there eyes as well, and that she realises sin is sin and that it's all wrong in the end, and how being bisexual isn't the way. Also that she stops being pessimistic about her situation and has more faith in God than she has.
Thanks guys, you are all beautiful, awesome people.
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Posted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 4:16 pm
umm... wow i feel kinda lame cuz i got a really simple prayer request; its for my math grade rolleyes cuz normally i do good in math but, as we all know, we just started the fourth quarter and the first thing my teacher does is give us a math test; which i bombed badly [like a 40], but hes gonna let me redo it, and thanks to my moms help i should be able to pull it up to like a 85 smile ,i hope sweatdrop
update- so i retook it and i got an 80 which brough my grade up to a B so that sweet
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Posted: Mon Apr 07, 2008 7:33 am
@vicenX:
I was on the verge of tears when I read your post. I've been there. I've walked that path. I've been to that point when life loses its color.
Where the only way to even survive the pain is to tuck it away, deep inside, where it drags the rest of your emotions down with it. Leaving no feeling. At first, you think you can make do, if the pain is hidden, it'll go away.
But, that's a lie you tell yourself to get by. The longer you push it down, hold it in, the more it will build. It'll break through, because you can't ignore it for long. The problem with locking away all felling with it, is that when it finally does weigh in, you'll have no other emotions to balance it out. Its overwhelming. You can smile to the world to try and conceal the torture you're holding in. But every fractured smile only adds to the pain.
It happened to me this way. All at once I was suffocating from my anguish, I drowned in it with every breath. I honestly thought I was going to die from it. I didn't know what to do with myself, my friends didn't know, my family didn't know. I had never let anyone get close enough to see my screaming heart, which left me with noone to lean on.
I resorted to cutting myself, thinking that if I caused physical pain to myself, it'd draw out my despair. Of course, that only made things worse.
I was on the edge of oblivian when God's attempt to reach out to me finally took hold. Looking back, He had always been there, trying to get me away from the pain. I just didn't see itat the time, too busy looking at the ground to notice that He was right in front of me.
I'm still not quite sure how I was healed, I blocked out alot of that period of depression.
My mom comented once that sometimes God gives us a poor memory, so that we can forget the things that could cause us to stumble. But He also reminds us of the bad times, just enough so that we can see how He lifted us up from them. I don't know what else to say, other than God is there. Sometimes you just have to look up to see that world never lost its color, you were just looking at it from the wrong angle.
Your friend is in my prayer. I have a guy friend who is dealing with that issue, all i can say is love them, hold onto your friendship with them, and just be a shoulder they can rest on if ever they need.
God bless you in everything that you do.
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Dementia][Praecox Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 08, 2008 5:59 am
If We Could Be Ourselves Just A Little Longer...
@Dementia
Wow, like stories... I actually did resort to cutting once, thankfully the same friend I talked about earlier stopped me. When I told her I said that I needed to feel something real, anything, even if it was physical pain. (So she pinched me.)
The only difference was the timing, I started before the apathy, because everything else felt like a bad dream. I thought about starting again, once or twice. I stopped myself though, I just couldn't bring myself to deal with everything that would follow.
I never told my family, only a few choice people really know about what I've been/am going through. Sure, I told some other people things here and there, but they didn't get the full story.
Some believed I was over the whole thing at the time.
Anyway...
The whole point of this post was to update all of you on how my friend and I are doing. ^_^
Personally, I'm starting to feel a little better. A little bit of confidence snuck back in me and I've been trying to come to terms with what happened before. I figure the day I gather enough courage to lay it all out on the table will be the day I stand taller. Well, a littler taller, at least. Those 'slivers' of emotions are slowly turning into larger 'chips', and I can tell that the stupid, goofy, random things I do once in a while are from genuine stupidity/goofiness/randomness. ^^; (Like striking superhero poses in the middle of the hallway...)
My friend seems better, I haven't seen her brood or act emo since I talked to her, which is good so far. Though we just found out that her mother is going to go on our trip with us. -_-;; No clue how that's going to turn out, we've been leaning more on the negative side but I've been trying to look at the positive... A little... (Alright, I only looked at it once.)
But yeah, she seemed a little more back to normal. I just hope it sticks through tomorrow.
(Which is a huge test of whether or not she took anything her other friends and I have told her to heart.)
Thank you all, you're really great. ^_^
~Vinny
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 7:33 pm
If We Could Be Ourselves Just A Little Longer...
Hey guys, Vinny here. smile
My family's in need of some prayer right now.
My cousin-in-law got pregnant before Easter this year, but lost the baby soon after.
I was told that when she was pregnant she started to have some pain, later to find out that it was a tubal pregnancy. (which, to those of you who don't know, is very bad.)
In the end she ended up having to take some cancer medicine that would dissolve the fertilized egg.
The doctors told her that there's a pretty good chance that after someone has a tubal pregnancy that they'll have another due to scarring.
She's really depressed now after she's lost the baby, and it's not only effecting her emotionally, but physically as well.
So please pray for no scarring, and for her overall well-being.
Meanwhile, a lot more states away...
My Uncle's step-son is sick and in the hospital, and the doctors have NO clue what is wrong with him.
He is only seven.
I've heard that he is also autistic, so it makes things a bit more difficult for the doctors since he can't really describe what's wrong with him.
The description of him from my grandma was that he lost weight, unable to physically eat anything, and is very pale. They have him completely wired there, even to the point of having to cut open his windpipe and getting a tube in to get him oxygen. We're just glad he doesn't have to go on life support.
It's difficult for my Uncle and his wife (who is expecting), and their other son (who was pretty much just born).
My uncle just switched jobs(to what, I don't know), so he has no medical insurance at the moment. So through this all he can really do is continue going to work to pay the medical bills as my aunt stays with her son in the hospital.
Their youngest is currently staying with my grandma and grandpa.
Please pray that they find out what's wrong with my cousin, and that he has a speedy recovery.
Pray for the new child growing in my aunt.
Pray for my aunt and that her stress and anxiousness would be calmed, and my uncle's as well.
And please pray for their financial situation as well, because it's just one more stress they have now.
Thanks all, you're great.
~Vinny
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Dementia][Praecox Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2008 9:02 am
I'm glad you've got a friend who you can relate to and support (or lean on) in this trying circumstance. My heart goes out to you and your friend.
Oh man, that's rough! On both sides. My grandmother just recently got over a heart surgery. >> But, atleast all of her children (7 in all, and all adults) came through for her.
I pray that'd a miracle would break through to your relatives. That God would intervene in this situation, and bring healing to your Cousin-in-law, both physically and emotionaly, and deliver healing and/or finacial stability through these medical trips, that'll cover both the step-son and the wife.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
God be with you! And your family!
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Posted: Mon Jun 23, 2008 8:08 pm
Hey guys! Well, I'm just really hoping someone will read this... Looks like no one's done anything to it in a while... But you guys know how I struggled with things with my ex back in Feb., right? Well, we've been through A LOT of drama the past several months. He's lied to me on numerous occaisions and betrayed my trust in a lot of ways. He's ignored my feelings and avoided me to keep from having to own up to his misdeeds. Well, a month ago, I finally decided enough was enough. I stopped calling him and hadn't seen him at all until yesterday when he picked his brother up after church. And seeing him again made me realize two things: 1) even though I'm over him, there will always be a small part of me that loves him, and 2) He's a bit of a screw-up sometimes, but he's been my friend longer than even my very best friend, and I hated the thought of throwing that away over stupid high school drama. So I called him after church and told him we needed to talk everything out but that I'm not mad anymore. Tonight I saw him at VBS, and it felt... great. It was the same way it used to feel back in September before things started changing between us. And tomorrow he's taking me to the movies and even paying to try to make up for his screw-ups (the first time since we met that we're going anywhere together other than youth group or church). He even promised we'd talk it all out. And for once, I feel at peace with it. I feel free from it.
The thing is, part of my brain isn't sure I can trust him again the way I could. My heart wants to. My heart wants my old friend back. But a part of me isn't sure yet.
Also, day after tomorrow I leave for 3 weeks for Europe, and I'm not sure how I feel about how close we cut it to the date. I mean, if we hadn't made any attempt to fix it yet and my plane went down, what then? But is it really solved, or is it all in my head?
So my prayer request is this: pray that God will give me wisdom and strength to do what is right and to know how to handle this. Pray that if it's his will, our friendship be restored to the way it was, because I've missed him so much these past several months. And pray that if this is the wrong choice and I do end up getting hurt again, that he will comfort me and help me to be at peace with myself.
Thank you guys. See you July 14th!!!
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Posted: Wed Jun 25, 2008 6:52 am
I hope it goes well, Hyper-san.
As for me, things haven't been going so well. ^^; Heh.
Well, you all kind of know that I was going through some rough times a few months ago.
I think I'm finally able to just forget about the one who caused me to be that way thanks to the help of my two awesome friends.
But... Now that that's over, I'm still not healed spiritually. I've felt disconnected from God just as much as I've felt disconnected with those around me. Or even more so at times.
You can say I've fallen and I can't get up.
Thanks to my being absent for so long on Gaia, I had no way of contacting the guild. I don't have a cellphone, so I couldn't contact my friends, and I was scared of facing God.
I had no way of contacting those who understood me enough.
Because of the lack of contact, I went ahead and began cutting. Again.
I can't say I'm completely over it, nor can I say that I'm starting to, because I don't know if I'll do it again. I don't know if I'll be able to stop myself.
But I do know that I want to try harder at mending my relationship with God.
You can almost say He's the reason I got up this morning. XD
I was in that state where you're asleep, but sounds from when you're awake come through. In this case, it was Air1. (Christian radio station)
Someone had called in and said that they realized they had been looking at all the junk in their life and not at Jesus. They compared it to when Jesus called his apostles to walk on the water.
I realized how much I had been looking at my problems as well, how much I was suffering, all because I didn't trust them in God and instead brought it upon myself to fix it.
I thought to myself, 'and you called yourself a Christian?!'
and it was true. How could i have possibly called myself a Christ Follower if I couldn't do something like put my trust in Him through the roughest point in my life so far? What would I do if I experienced something worse?
I admit, the way I see myself getting used by the people around me I had thought about suicide more than once. (I've never thought about acting on it, just the fact that if I did commit it it was possible no one would notice, except for the fact that they'd have to do the work themselves.)
Aaaaaaaaaanyway.
Uhm...
Please pray that I can heal my relationship with God, because I'll be doing it on my own.
I really can't talk to my pastor about it, considering he scares me almost as much as what God's current thoughts of what I've been doing does. I can't talk to my parents about it. My friends aren't much help at this point. And, my youth pastor is.... Well.....
Let's just say he thinks one of my friends is going to hell just because she likes to dress emo/scene. -_-;; (She's not even doing it to attract attention, she just LIKES it.)
So yeah, I don't agree with him on most things. Infact, he kind of irritates me.
So I really will be doing this more or less on my own over here.
Funny, I can't tell any of this to the people around me, yet I'm relying on people that are miles away.
I guess it must be like practice for relying on God. Or something.
Thanks everyone,
Vinny
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