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I hate when you go to a church and you feel like you have found a place you really what to be, than all at once you find you are the mean line in a gossip ring for something you know nothing about. I have left 3 churches for this reason.

Church 1 I was a teenager and I really proud of being at this church. I was in the choir, I help out in the cleanup and with the younger kids.

(1) I made a painting from my bible and I was so proud of it. It was the sermon on the mound. I gave it to the church. My older brother lied about saying he was the one who painted the picture and not me. The took the picture and thew it away.

(2) The other teenagers started talking about me saying lies made up. I was steeling, I was poor and wear the same clothes all the time. Just what ever kids can make up they did.

(3) The last night I went to the church was so painful for me. The had a guy form a univ. school choir come by to here us sing. He asked me if I would like to sing a solo and come see his choir at the school. They all did feel glad for but anger at me. They felt someone else should have gotten invite. So they started having a been fight talking saying so hurtful words about. I turned the invite down and left the church. redface crying confused sad

Church 2 The gossip followed me from the 1 church. It didn't matter what I did people believe what they want and they forget what God asked us to believe. crying confused sad

Church 3 I started there because get this the name of the church was Friendship Baptist Church. I was prayer for a good church to go to because I was hurt by other churches and I wanted to learn more about God. It was great at first. Me and My daughters love it. Than it all started when I made a suggesting that they start a out reach center at a local trailer park. I girls had a lot of friends there that were having babies and drugs were running wild. Because it was some of the people didn't know me they amused that I was lying about knowing anyone there. The preacher and his wife knew I was telling the truth. They went there with me to help out a family that was having money problems. I was divorced and a man there wanted to ask me out. One of the other woman there told him I was lire, a cheat, and that she knew someone else that wasn't a ------. I felt so hurt, so worthless, just like trast. I left this church.

God is every where and I don't have to listen to the church people but what God knows and how He feels about me. People let the devil ruin their lives and he will spread hate all over the world. God is who matters and not what others think of us. I still learn form the preacher on the tv but I still miss being in a good church. Having a Church family is great but I have this family and God's holy family and I know now that I will never be alone again. 3nodding heart 4laugh biggrin

That's just it we are all guilty of the same things and we don't think about how it hurts us till its to late. That is why God's forgiveness is so easy to get. We just have to learn to forgive and forget as he dose. Thank you for caring.