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 Posted: Sat May 26, 2012 8:15 am
Zexion's head shot up at the sound of Demyx's voice. Tears he thought had run dry poured down his face at the sight of his beautiful best friend. "D-Demyx..," squeaked out Zexion in a cracked voice. His face had sunken in quite a bit since his stay at the hospital. He was deathly pale now; even more pale than when Roxas found him those few days before. He had felt utterly alone since his talk with Roxas, and he took it as punishment for what he had done. Now, seeing Demyx so live and well, he felt a strong wave of relief wash over him. He had only heard word about Demyx's health. Now seeing him, it brought tears to his dry ducts. "You're so beautiful..," he whispered unconsciously then sobbed, burying his face in his hands. "Y-You shouldn't be contaminated b-by filth like me...". He began sobbing uncontrollably again.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:32 am
Demyx frowned deeply. He knew that the person on the bed was Zexion. He knew it more when Zexion response to him... but Demyx had never seen Zexion this bad... Zexion didn't even look like he could take on the common cold now like he got a severe case of fast-acting AIDS within the three weeks Demyx hadn't seen him. Demyx cautiously moved to the bedside, honestly Demyx was afraid he was going to break him. Maybe the reason Roxas was sad and the reason Zexion was sad, were the same reason. "Zexion, honey, it's okay, everything is fixable if you are willing to try and fix it. That is why they made forgiveness." Demyx said calmly setting the food down on the moving table beside Zexion. Demyx could get them more food, Zexion looked like he really could use something to eat otherwise they would have to force-feed him nutrition through and IV.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 12:20 pm
Zexion couldn't look at Demyx. He didn't want him to see him like this...but he knew he had to tell him. "D-Demyx... I...I...I cheated o-on R-Roxas... W-With Axel... A-After th-th-that time a-at that p-party th-that he got me d-drunk. Wh-When you f-found me th-the next morning w-w-with him... A-After th-that I t-tried to s-stay away from h-him, b-but I c-couldn't s-stop... I-I ended up c-c-calling him over e-every w-week since then u-until three w-weeks ago... H-He accused m-me of l-l-loving him, b-but I don't. S-So I forced mys-self to stop..." He broke down crying harder then and seemed to sink down more into his mattress. "I-I'm s-s-so sorry I-I didn't a-a-answer m-m-my door... I-I-I'm s-so ashamed o-o-of myself... I j-just w-w-want t-to d-d-die... R-Roxas w-will n-n-never e-e-even l-look at m-m-me again, a-and I d-d-don't w-want him t-too... Y-You sh-sh-shouldn't e-either... I-I'm a ******** h-h-horrible p-person..."
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2012 10:18 am
Demyx looked down at the ground hearing Zexion start to confess that him and Axel were cheating together. After he was done, Demyx took in a deep breath and looked back at him with a weak apologetic expression. "Zexion... I knew. I knew the whole time. Axel would tell me every time he went over there just to torment me. He actually even blamed me for you not calling him anymore. I just tried to play stupid around you for your sake. I know it really tore you apart to be with him... Haha, he is kinda of hard to resist isn't he?... But maybe if I told you that I knew you wouldn't have stopped talking to me. I just assumed that Axel told you something disturbing about me, and you didn't want to have anymore to do with me.... Things with Axel aren't easy, Zexion.... Things are actually ******** miserable with Axel. He just pushes, and pushes me.... Zexion... Axel put me in this hospital, not you okay?..." Demyx told Zexion feeling like he got a huge weigh off his chest. While he was talking, the blonde sat down beside Zexion looking down into his lap. He was still pretty ashamed of it. Anyone sane would have left Axel sooner, but Axel made him feel like no one else would want him. Demyx took another deep breath before looking back up at Zexion. "Please get better, Zexion. I know this sounds stupid, but... if you were to die, I would really have no one... except maybe Axel... if I go back to him that is... " Demyx said starting to cry. Demyx knew who he was. He couldn't be alone. He just couldn't...
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2012 3:21 pm
Zexion looked up at him in surprise when the blond began to speak. Then when he was done, he immediately came in with, "There's no ******** way you're going back to him, Demyx!" in a raspy voice, practically choking out the words. He reached forward and weakly gripped onto Demyx's arm, but it was as tight as he could. He stared intensely at him with tears pouring down his cheeks. "Y-You can stay at my place once we get out of here... I-I can give you a key if you get out first, a-and you can stay there until I get out... Y-You're just not going back to him! Ever! I don't want to see you hurt! Not anymore..." He stared at him a bit longer then abruptly let go of his arm. "Promise me... Promise me you won't go back to him. Please..." His voice cracked on the last word. "I-I... If you promise...it'll give me a reason to try and start getting some meat on my bones... I know Roxas isn't going to come back to me... I don't want him to... He deserves so much better than me... Maybe you two could get together. You'd treat each other really good, I know it. Then you wouldn't have to worry abotu Axel, because even if you can't stand up to him, you know Roxas can." He smiled up at him weakly.
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2012 10:38 pm
Demyx nodded back to him. "Okay, Okay, I promise I won't ever got back to Axel. Not that I would want to. He really just screwed up this time, Zexion. Before he treated me bad, but a part of me still thought he cared.. Now I don't think he does.." Demyx said wiping some of the tears away and just being serious. It saddened him, yes, because he did love Axel, but now the part that was always scared of Axel was empowered to stay away. "haha, me and Roxas? You got to know how hung up about this all he is. I mean now knowing that he knows you cheated, it is obvious why he has been so upset. He probably won't be able to trust anyone like he use to, you know.. Not trying to be mean or anything, and I don't know, I just got out of a cage too... It just isn't the right time for either of us." Demyx told Zexion logically so Zexion didn't continue to push him getting Roxas. Roxas needed a friend right now, not another boyfriend, and Demyx was in that same boat.
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 1:25 am
Zexion nodded in understanding. "I ******** up so bad..," he whimpered, dropping his head into his hands once again. "I don't understand why you've stuck with me knowing what I've been doing to Roxas... I'm such a ********, Demyx... I don't feel like I deserve a single drop of love from anyone: friend or relationship alike. I betrayed both of you and myself... I...I feel worse than I did before you introduced me to Roxas, Dem... When...when I was trying to kill myself all the time... You know, I never told him about that... I didn't want him to think I was a freak, but look at me now... I shattered his heart... I feel like I should give up my beating heart so he can live again..." He pulled his knees up and hugged him, joints jutting out from how little nutrition he had. "I really...really feel like I have no right to even be alive right now..," he whispered, staring into space with wide, red-rimmed, tear-filled eyes. He was delving right back into those darker than pitch thoughts, and that was never a good thing.
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Posted: Sat Jun 02, 2012 8:26 pm
Demyx looked over at Zexion when he started to bash on himself. "Zexion, no stop that right now. I don't even Roxas would stand to hear that from you even after all this. He cares about you, and so do I, Zexion. We both LOVE you, regardless of the person you are, and regardless of the person you think you are. You are a good friend and a good boyfriend.... you just got caught up in a bad situation.... Axel can throw anyone off course like that.... I know I was doing a hell of a lot better when he wasn't under my skin... I mean think about how good my life was two years ago. I had my music career started, and I had school under my finger like it was no one's business.... now... I barely pass my classes, if I'm allow to go to them. Axel controls everything I do... I mean, I literally can't under my degree into anything because Axel made me take so many bullshit classes, because that is when I was allow to leave... I have been hidden way for soo long... I have been scared... no terrified for soo long... of what he would do to me, or what would happen if I actually left... I know if I had gotten out earlier, it would have been easy... That was before Axel cut everyone off from me.... You were next you know that right. You are all I have besides him, and he knows that. I think that is why he started sleeping with you.... to eat at me, to eat at you. To break us apart, and based on the last two weeks, I guess it worked, I mean, are we as close as we use to be before Axel? ... we are a joke of a friendship compared to what we use to be, and Axel knows it. We lie to each other. We barely see each other..... Everything is so messed up... I don't know what I am going to do if he shows up here and tries to talk to me.... I don't think I could ever be mean to him... as sad as that is..." Demyx stated moving over to Zexion and hugging him. He continued talking to Zexion even though he started crying again, because he figured if they were talking it was better than if they weren't anymore.
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Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2012 12:07 am
Zexion sniffled, trying to steady his breathing and stop his sobs as he listened to Demyx. He buried his face in Demyx's shoulder, feeling too weak to even hug him back. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..," he whispered hoarsely. "I-I don't want to lose you if I haven't already... I-I want us to be like we used to before Axel... I want us to be better than we used to so he can't come back... I don't want him in our lives. He doesn't deserve to be in our lives. He can stay out..," he whispered to him sadly. "Let's... Let's eat something... I-I dunno how well I'll be able to hold a fork or anything... I feel really weak right now..," he said softly, weakly pulling back from him and glancing over at the food. "I...I know it'll take a while, but can...can we try to rebuild what we used to have..?" he asked softly, a spark of hope in his tone.
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Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2012 12:23 am
Demyx sniffled before letting out a weak laugh. "I suppose anything is possible when you have even a shred of hope." Demyx said getting the food and setting it in his lap beside Zexion. "Now let's get some food in you before you completely waste away you silly thing you." Demyx joked at him seeing as he practically was a slack of bones with little to no meat on him. The mohawked blonde cut the food up into small, child-sized bites before feeding them to his slate haired friend. Demyx didn't want to overload him with food, so he didn't feed him much. It didn't take Zexion long in his condition to get full, but he would get better if he continued to eat. "Well there you go, all full, but if you'll excuse me, I think I better be getting back to Roxas. I left him passed out in the chair next to my hospital bed, I think if he woke up and I wasn't there he would have the barn with worry." Demyx said rubbing the back of his neck nervously. He didn't want Zexion to think he was picking Roxas over him, he just was starting to get worry about Roxas missing him if he woke up without Demyx there.
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Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2012 12:39 am
Zexion ate silently, cracking a smile smile at Demyx's teasing. Then, once he let Demyx know he was full, he frowned. He didn't want Demyx to leave...but he knew Roxas needed someone there. "O-Okay..," he said softly. "I...I hope I see you tomorrow..," he said softly, wincing as he slowly laid back down in bed, curling up into himself. "I'll try to get some sleep..." He closed his eyes and let out a soft sigh. "Bye, Dem..."
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Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2012 12:54 am
Demyx nodded to him. "Yes, of course you will sweetie, I'll just wait until Roxas is asleep and sneak over here. It'll be our secret. haha," Demyx said happily as he stood up from Zexion's bed so he could lay down. He started to move for the door, but stopped and looked back at Zexion. "Bye Zexion, remember that I love you, okay? There isn't a need to feel bad anymore." Demyx said encouragingly before leaving. He felt like needed to say comforting before leaving him for the rest of the day. Demyx wasn't going to lie. He missed Zexion, he didn't want to lose him again.
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Posted: Fri Jun 08, 2012 11:59 pm
Zexion smiled slightly at Demyx. "I love you, too, Dem... Thank you..," he said softly. Then he closed his eyes and finally drifted into a light, partially-peaceful sleep.
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Posted: Sat Jun 09, 2012 12:15 am
The rest of the morning was particularly uneventful. Demyx after leaving Zexion's room, got more breakfast for him and Roxas, and then went back to find Roxas just where he left him. He seemed tired so Demyx let him sleep until he woke up. The smaller blonde was definitely surprised by the breakfast and the fact that Demyx was up and about. Demyx decided to talk to Roxas about living at his place for a while until he got back on his feet again. Axel didn't know Roxas, so it was probably safer than even Demyx's own parent's house. The only probably about Demyx moving in with some is just that he would have to somehow move his stuff out of Axel's apartment. The redhead was still no where to be found either, so Demyx wasn't even sure if he could coax him into letting him get his stuff seeing as he wasn't turning up.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2012 10:16 pm
Zexion slowly began to get some meat back on his bones thanks to Demyx's occassional visits. His cheeks and eyes weren't as sunken in, and he could move about with ease. He still threw up every once in a while, but, all-in-all, he was getting nutrition. He looked much healthier than he had a week before when Demyx first visited. He was actually eating breakfast when screaming down the hall startled him. He set his fork down and slid out of bed, walking through the room with the support of a cane, and down the hallway cautiously, peering around corners as he followed the noise.
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