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 Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 8:26 pm
He couldn't talk, couldn't even line up the words for a bit, all he could do was place his own hand on the one on his arm. A subtle gesture, but with Rep gestures were never frivolous. "I'll never be what you are to them." He said calmly, the sort of calm he was forced to resort to because even words felt like an unsteady raft on a very unpredictable ocean of feeling. Dangerous, and he couldn't afford to lose his front. "Never. And trying will only ever ******** hurt. It's easier to be the villain."
He edged a bit nearer, careful, wary as he always was. Ready to flinch out at a moment's notice. "I'd do the same if there was ever a time where that was the case, but there's never been a time like that. You are always so immovable. Always so ******** right, I need you at my back, hell not just at my back, I just need you."
And completely oblivious to the damned rubberneckers on the roof, he closed the distance to kiss him.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 8:35 pm
"You don't have to be the bad guy," Jordan said quietly. "You're not alone. We're with you." The hand Rep put over his loosened a bit of the tense knot in his throat; what Rep said next loosened it yet more, let him breathe again.
He sighed shakily into the kiss, wrapped his arms around Rep and returned it with gratitude and weightless relief. He'd gotten through. He'd gotten Rep to understand just how much he needed him, how badly he needed him not to ruin himself with thoughtless cruelty. He didn't have to shut him out. His.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:03 pm
He drew the kiss out as long as he could get away with, he needed it. Needed the closeness, right now it felt like the only thing keeping him from losing the emotional control even keeping him together. And there was no ******** way he was going to cry, no ******** way. He didn't cry easily, even less easily when it was anywhere near where people could see, so not today. Not even with relief.
He gave Jordan a squeeze as he finally realised they probably shouldn't do this out here, that it was too open, too risky. "Just by the way. I'm sorry." he added with a tired smile. "Only a complete retard would piss off the guy with all their ******** heartstrings in their hands intentionally. And I'm stupid but not that stupid. " his smile turned brighter. "Well. Most of the ******** time."
Refusing to let go just yet, he buried his face against the crook of Jordan's neck in a another fleeting hug, murmuring against his skin. "Forgive this ******** idiot?"
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:07 pm
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:19 pm
The hug tightened perceptibly at his words and he didn't let go for longer than he originally intended. When he did, Jordan might have had just a fraction more tears on him than before.
He wiped his eyes surreptitiously. "Thank you." Two words, laden with innumerable unspoken others.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:36 pm
And then, oddly, his phone gave a text alert.
Reluctantly, very reluctantly, he flipped it to check out what the problem was this time. He stared wide eyed at what he saw, before looking around panicked, heart suddenly racing for all the wrong reasons.
"Its Rin. She says everyone saw. ********. HOW?" his voice cracked, already strained with emotion and frankly shoved to overload at the prospect the entire island had somehow magically seen him in a moment of utmost vulnerability. "No no no. This can't ******** happen. Maybe she meant something else? Maybe they saw..I don't know, something else. Earlier. Not right then."
He texted back in a panic.
Byrr What the ******** do you mean?
Before once again diving straight into emotional freefall.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:41 pm
"What? How? ********." Jordan looked around, trying to figure out where anyone might be able to see them. Movement caught his eye. There were figures moving around on the roof of the labs building. He groaned. "The roof. Why are there people on the roof? Goddammit, people, this was a private conversation."
He lifted one hand high in the air and flipped the peanut gallery off.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:51 pm
Rep took a glance at the roof, then his phone.
"I'm not going back into the bunker today." It was a flat statement of fact. "Even if I need to use a day of leave. Even if I need to sleep in the dangerous bit of the ******** island."
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 9:57 pm
"I'll stay with you," Jordan grumbled. "Text Harrison. If I see anyone else right now I'm going to start yelling." A little tentatively, he rested a hand on the small of Rep's back. If they'd been outed now anyway, what difference did it make?
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 10:05 pm
Rep didn't flinch away at the contact. He was just too overwhelmed with conflicting feelings. He needed the contact, and if everyone had saw, well. ******** them. He wasn't going to give them the chance to rip him to shreds for his own comments. Not today anyway. They could all go climb an Everest of dicks.
He opened his phone again, looking for Harrison on there.
Toshihiko Two Retards on roof ruined s**t. Getting out of here for today. Training fields.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 10:09 pm
Jordan pulled his phone out and turned it back on; it immediately buzzed with two texts. He read them and sighed. Eight Text to Candace: Thanks anyway. He typed out a quick message to Twitter, in vague hopes that it would forestall some of the inevitable comments. Quote: Tweet: Before anyone says anything: don't. Just don't. What the hell, guys, that was a private conversation.
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Posted: Thu May 24, 2012 10:13 pm
Baneful you two couldn't do subtle if it bit you in the a**
Baneful also you have to help me get a twitter that s**t is hilarious
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