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 Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 8:35 pm
Tilting her head to the side... she was slightly curious what he meant. "Lack of feeling? I'll admit your words confuse me, but if your saying there is no feeling in you... Im denying it. I dont believe it." There was a certain firmness within her tone.
"Maddning? Or frustrating? Even so i still say you care about him in the slightest way. Caring for someone doesnt mean nexisarily LIKING them... its more or less tolerating." Nahira had a feeling she was now treading in dangerous waters, but... this seemed to be something that needed to be said.
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Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 8:40 pm
 Saix growled loudly, slamming his foot into the ground, leaving cracks in the floor. "ENOUGH!" Throwing the coat off himself he revealed the still healing hole in his chest, now about the size of a clenched fist, the place where his heart should be was facant. "I have no heart Nahira! See for yourself! There is no feeling in my body, there is nothing but regret and pain!"
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Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 8:45 pm
Nahira was inwardly surprised by his actions, but it didnt show on her facial expressions. Instead she kept the same... firm tone.
"You dont get it do you. Your heart isnt the only thing that determines feelings. Saix... FEELINGS COME FROM THE MIND, BODY, AND SOUL. NOT THE METAPHORICAL HEART."
She raised her voice at the last part, making sure he heard this. Her emerald eyes showed no anger, no remourse... no emotion.
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Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 8:53 pm
Saix's eyes widened. Someone DARE yell at him?! After all the supposed warriors he had faced no one had ever spoke to him in such a ... a ... blatently disrespectful way! But...she was right. He had never thought of it like that. Saix had always thought that a heart was a heart was a heart, the orgin inside that kept people alive was the same thing that gave them emotion. The fact that he was alive without one he had always thought was cause he was an empty emotionless shell.
He floored...and finally his face showed his true emotion. His eyes lost, looking for something, ANYTHING to cover up his feelings, found nothing but regret.
"You...you yelled at me. You told me everything I have believed in the past about myself is a lie. You have called me...ME! A fool! You have slapped me in the face! And through all that DISRESPECT!" He paused, hung his head, felt like collapsing on the ground, he now understood how he had made Demyx feel time and time again. "...you're right..."
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Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 9:12 pm
"I said what you inwardly knew but refused to admit to yourself. All i did was give you that push you needed." Nahira felt a bit of remorse for him, who couldnt? Nahira literally just gave him a major reality-check.
Walking towards Saix she really didnt know how he would react, he might push her away... he might attack her, for all she knew... he might even kill her, but she still walked. Placing a hand on his shoulder she smirked softly. "Just remember one thing, Dont let your so called 'heartless' self rule you. Rule yourself as you see fit and.. even if there isnt a physical heart there, i believe there is one."
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Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 11:31 pm
Saix let out a long sigh. "But I don't remember what it was like to feel, I'm numb. I don't remember my 'somebody', I don't remember what I was, what I could have been only seems to be the worst of the worst."
He eyed Nahira's paw as it touched his shoulder, he flinched a bit, not knowing what to expect. But as she just left it there...he stared at it. Nonviolent contact? When Demyx did this it was just annoying but...this isn't bad... As an experiment, he raised up his paw and put it on Nahira's that rested on his shoulder. This isn't bad..., those words ran through his mind over and over.
"I still can't feel Nahira...that's not a lie. I told you the first time I met you, I cannot feel and I meant it. I don't remember what it's like. All I remember is a lot of pain...that's all."
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 6:36 am
"Thats where time enters into this equation. I dont remember how i was like to be a pup... its only natural to forget things that happened in your past."
Nahira wouldnt lie, she was a bit... surprised by his non-hostility. When he grabbed her own paw she was sort of waiting for him to pull hers away, but... he didnt. He just kept it there. Moving her thumb-like finger she placed it on the back oh his palm and massaged it.
" Once again this is a issue of time. Time heals, it might heal slowly.. but it does heal. You say you cant remember what happened before correct? Well.. for all you know back then you did know how to feel. You just forgot how to."
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 7:56 am
Saix gained another growly tone. "But that's the point! I've been trying to remember! I've wanted my heart back, my feelings back, for so long, and NOTHING has helped me! Everytime I thought I was getting close I find out I never gained any ground at all!"
He pulled away from her, going over to his dark corner and sat there, head lowered. "That little freak can remember his emotions, but I can't remember mine...IT ISN'T FAIR! Most of them remember! Why can't I?!"
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 8:12 am
Annnd now back to the attitude, she swore he was a ticking time bomb. Placing one of her hands on her hip she rolled her eyes.
"Jelousy isnt a way to look at this. These are the emotions that more then likely caused you to be shut off in the first place."
"Remembering things isnt alwasy EASY Saix. It comes easier to some then others. Even though its hard why dont you TRY talking to the others? Asking them how exactly they remembered." She cant believe she was saying this... "Look." Looking down she sighed as well. "Even though you might not like them... or claim you dont, talking to them might be the best answer. Maybe you would learn something from them."
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 1:41 pm
He slammed his fist into the wall. "Ask them!? Have you seen them?! They couldn't answer me even if I asked! They are half-wits! If I asked do you honestly think they'd know!? They are fools! They may have emotions but they don't have brains. IF, and that is a big IF! I were to ask someone for help, I would need someone who had both, not either or. And if there were someone who existed like that, I wish they'd just show up, I'm sick of waiting."
He crossed his arms. "You think I don't know it's not easy?! Do you realize how long I've been trying! I don't think you do! WHY WOULD I BE SO MAD IF I HADN'T BEEN TRYING ALL ALONG! I'M SICK OF WAITING! I WANT MY EMOTIONS BACK!"
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 2:03 pm
"Well if your not even willing to try all angles then your not trying to get them back at your full potential, now are you?" Nahira sent the question right on back, getting semi tired of his complaining.
Sighing heavily, Nahira removed her hand from her hip and walked towards him again.. not caring what he would do again. Leaning over she had her eyes meet with his..... the female poked him on his nose. " Hey, did you ever think of the possibility that you never forgot your emotions, and you just shut them off? Why must you look into your past to remember? Look into yourself." There are many peices of a pie, some times people try to just cut into the sides... when they really should start from the center.
Backing off after the last comment, Nahira backed away to give him his space.
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 3:52 pm
He sighed. "I've tried everything I could think of...I've talked to Demyx before about his emotions...but nothing good came of it. I don't know what to do now, alright? Are you satisfied by crushing my reality yet? Because once again I am left with only pain. I wish I could feel something else, but so far, all my attempts have failed."
He flinched again as she poked his nose. "I don't want to look into 'myself', Nahira. I know what I will find, and I don't like it. It will just make things worse than they already are." He leaned back against the wall, lifting his head up. "If you're so sure I shut off my emotions, how do you suggest I turn them back on?"
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 5:51 pm
"Thats something you need to figure out for yourself Saix. I apologise to you if i dug to deep this time." Woah... she actually, Apologised? Thats a first. Nahira usually had a lot of pride... but she tossed Saix a apology.
"Ive spent too much time here bothering you... ill go for now, you seem to need some time alone. Usually youll find me hanging around a secluded glen in the middle of the forest, a few miles east of here. That is, if you wanted to find me. Goodbye for now." With that the female audio turned around and disapeared into the darkness, on the opposit side of the room. The only thing that could be heard was the annoying tinking of the bell on her tail.
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 5:58 pm
Saix hung his head. He did need time to think, but it was easier to think with someone else to help produce ideas. She was leaving. He wanted to stop her but his body didn't budge, his lips didn't move, and he felt that she would rather leave him. As he heard the bell on her tail ring through the halls and away from him he sighed. "What the hell am I going to do?!"
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Posted: Sun Jul 23, 2006 6:30 pm
(( << >> << Tatsu i can post the time skip thinger XD Nahira is still pretty much.. out from the events of her angelness anyways o.o; With that said... This RP is now doing a time skip to AFTER the Naturalz event happenings. )) 
".... What?" Was all the words that the current Nahira could say, amungst the grumbling sounds and soft cries of pain. The flesh where her new wings and tail penetrated still throbbed dangeriously, and.. if no fur was there it would have been a visible red color. Though the flesh wasnt visible, the blood that flowed from the broken skin onto the fur was. Though it was now dried blood for the most part.
Gazed eyes looked through there sockets, she knew something was different. Reaching behind her she hissed softly as she touched the tender patch of flesh. Returning her hand Nahira saw some red on it.
"Bloody hell.." Disreguarding pain she lifted up her body gritting her teeth, and looked towards a small pool of water that was there sence the last rain-storm.
... "WHAT THE HELL!?" Was screamed out as she saw the wings.. new tail... and halo.
She was on the edge of the secluded glen that she had told Saix of.... however long ago she told him.
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