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 Posted: Wed Jun 27, 2007 11:39 pm
Why... WHY was she following him. He knew she was too.. he heard her voice.. a voice he could never forget. Edward skidded to a stop and faced her, ears pinned back. His face was wet from his ears, but still.. that stubbornness showed through his sadness.
"What do you want from me?" he whispered harshly. "Do you want me to be happy that I wasn't good enough for you? That Endless is somehow better than I am?" He cringed as the words came out of his mouth before he even thought about it. But there was no going back now, was there? He was just starting to cope... and this had to happen. "I don't know what to do Lily. I've never felt this way... about anyone before" his voice having dropped to a soft murmur. "You have your happiness... you have Endless, but I need some time away. I won't call you while I'm gone... or write, not until I get back." He needed this time to be away and focus on other things... to ease himself away from these feelings. He would write Bryna though. He did promise.
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Posted: Wed Jun 27, 2007 11:51 pm
She flinched. "It's not about you not being good enough or him being better." Had she said this before? It felt familiar. "Its not about loving more or less." Lily leveled him with her green eyes, the short run seeing to have awakened the adrenaline inside her. "I know you have to go and you certainly don't have to write me if you can't. I won't stop you or force you otherwise. But don't run like that after asking me to stay."
Her eyes softened, returning to sad and loving. "Go back to your room Edward. You need sleep before you go. I can give you a drought so you can sleep through the night without dreaming. I'll guard you from Envy myself if you'll let me, or leave a potion that will work as a shield from your enemies for the night. I won't let you go off like this... tired, without your boots & coat. I've done enough."
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Posted: Wed Jun 27, 2007 11:58 pm
The teen sighed... he was tired of arguing.. and tired of just.. all of it. He slumped as he sat, truely exhausted. He did need to sleep, or something.
"Sorry..." he apologized... it was a stupid thing for him to say, asking her to stay when he shouldn't have. Oh how he wanted her, his heart ached for her. Her very presence making that all the more unbearable, but still he tried to endure.
He was too tired to speak further... and truthfully he had bigger worries on his mind than stupid Envy. Getting up, he wordlessly padded back into the room and settled himself on the bed once more.
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Posted: Thu Jun 28, 2007 12:16 am
"Nothing to be sorry for, Edward." Liliana hated herself. Her words, her deeds, her thoughts, her wizarding powers and gift with potions...
She padded silently after Edward handing him the sleeping potion unstoppered. How easy it would be to give him a different potion, whisper a word in his ear and change something in his mind to make him not hurt so bad. Or a forget charm, telling him he never loved her more than a friend or brother. She was thinking of many ways... none of them worthy nor very honorable. None she would use against a kitsu she loved.
"I'll be the one to leave." She pulled out a stoppered jug. "Open this just before you drink the other potion Edward. The smoke it releases will keep you safe. If there is still liquid in the jar come morning stopper it & save it for later."
Sighing she leaned over him brushed his bangs aside and kissed his forehead as a tear slid from her face. "I can't help you anymore, can I? There is so much love inside you Edward. You bring others to love you. I know there's someone better for you than me... I don't know why & I wish I didn't cause I still..." Lily shook her head. No point telling him she still wanted him... too late for that. And she was happy with Endless.... if only there was a way she could be with Edward too. But it was not to be. She pulled out a familiar bottle, dabbed out some of the contents and wiped the cuts on Edward's face, watching as they started to fade. "The future and the present, right Edward? And what our love could have been... has to be in the past."
Crying softly she padded to the door, stopping to leave the poultice on top of his red coat. "Trel says you're always welcome, if you can bear it. You're family."
At least she had seen him. "I love you, Edward Elric. I always will."
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Posted: Thu Jun 28, 2007 9:17 am
Like he'd said before.. he didn't want her to leave, but he knew that she needed to. She had someone else, waiting for her... and he wouldn't keep her from him, as much as he'd like to.
Edward took the bottles, a discontent look on his face. He didn't care much for such things, but he would take them.. even if just to put Lily's mind at ease. He was quiet as she spoke, listening to just the sound of her voice.. which in itself, was somewhat comforting. Her healing touch, comforting words... the kiss and the way she brushed his bangs from his face. It reminded him of his mother... Perhaps that was one of the reasons he loved her so... she reminded him of the most important people in his past life. His mother... his brother... Winry. All of which were not here.
He said nothing, until her final sentence. "I love you too..." and he always would. It was just a matter of living with the fact that she couldn't return his feelings the way he wanted. Reaching a paw out, Ed opened the second bottle.. letting the smoke waft out and setting it aside... before he also drank the sleeping potion. It wasn't long before he fell into a slumber... deeper than he'd had in some time.
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Posted: Thu Jun 28, 2007 10:01 am
She turned sadly in the doorway at Ed's words, her heart breaking. Why? Why did I have to hurt him so? Liliana had to leave as he fell asleep or her resolve would fade. She padded away from the room, down the hallway and stopped in the potions classroom to gather herself long enough to trust disapparating from headquarters.
When she did, Liliana did not go to Endless. Instead she went to her parents, cuddling between them wordlessly as she never did as a kit and weeping until sleep claimed her.
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