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Thanks, Uma. I might just have to take you up on that offer.

What error message? Anything specific, or is it just 'Error'?

Just a general rant this time, not my usual novel, I promise.

I've just been feeling kinda depressed lately. I always do, with the changing of the seasons, and I'm not sure if I can trust my perceptions, especially where other people are concerned. I'm not that great at reading others anyway, and when I get PMS, pre-depression, and conflicting signals, it just escalates. I can't figure out if my roomies hate me, are indifferent, or are just waiting for me to move out or what. I swore I wasn't going to sped the year locked up in my room, but, well, here I am, in my room with the door shut. Agh, I just want this *&$^#% semester to be OVER! On top of all that, I pulled a back muscle last week at work and it just barely starts to loosen up when I either have clinical or I have to work again and I re-pull it. Hurts like hell. *grumble*

*scowls* I'm trying to crochet this hat, but the pattern is written strangely so it's pissing me off. >_< The format is slightly different than what I've learned, so it's hard reading it and figuring out what I'm supposed to do next, which has led to me restarting it three times. And it's in a book with patterns that I haven't had trouble with. It's not too big a deal, but it is irritating, especially since I have quite a few gift things to finish before Christmas rolls around and I don't want to get hung up on a hat that shouldn't be this hard in the first place. -_- Grr, stupid pattern.

I am sorry to hear all the trials and tribulations in this thread. I hope things are getting better for each of you.

I have been having some headaches lately and I even have a mild one now. I hope they go away. gonk

i know, i want a Wii.. i've come to conclude i'm not getting no awesome zelda action until after the holidays and that's not even cool.. i want some now! even most of the stores are out of zelda's, i'm like no.. did they not get the memo, that they were to reserve a Wii and Zelda game for me?

rant: not really a rant, but i'm starting to feel ucky.. i was having a bit of confidence the last few weeks.. flirting something awful with guys, i'm so bad with guys.. i feel bad, i flirt, go out, and then i don't go through with it.. cause i just don't wanna be hurt, getting hurt sucks.. but however i like me some todd, and he's not asked to "hang" again since our last one.. although he's giving me hugs and talking and stuff.. goodness he's awesome, but yeah.. i am not going to like him tons, just cause i don't wanna be hurt.. i'm so sick of liking guys, just for them to turn into major asses or just running off without even saying bye it's over.. ever since my ex nathan, i've been this way with guys.. i could go out with this brent guy, but i've not done it yet.. however i continue to talk to him and stuff and flirt something awful.. i'll probably end up in some make out session, then just push him off of me.. then he will be like what's up? and i wont even tell him.. why open up? he will just leave.. i can't do that to todd though, i don't wanna do that to todd.. he's to much of an awesome guy.. so i watch what i do around him..

i'm also extremely hungry, i need to eat me something.. but i didn't wanna eat last night cause it was way to late.. it was midnight, by the time we were done bowling last night with my friends.. although the last 5 months i've had some issues with eating, and i've not been doing a great job of it.. i really need to deal with these issues of mine, but i have no idea how.. and i really don't wanna tell people around me, cause i'm not sure why.. and i was ignoring the fact that i am a depressed, but last night i was starting to show that i was a bit down again.. even nick one of my friends i went out bowling with, was waving his hands in front of my face cause i was just spaced out.. i was like oh hey, and waved.. i got a hug, i like hugs they are fantastic..

Being a guy, I second what Uma said. Give it time and see what kind of guy he turns out to be. There are alot of a-holes and there are also alot of nice guys out there. The 'bad' ones eventually slip up after a while and show their true side. Same with women, it's just a matter of figuring out which is which before you go insane, it seems.

Speaking of insane, I am past that on trying to find a decent girl. Every time it's either "I have a bf", "I just want to be friends", or I find something 'wrong' with her that I can't deal with. And I'm not sure whether to feel good or bad that I went to a movie with my ex (yeah, the 'crazy' one from a year ago) Saturday night. We saw Deja Vu, good movie by the way, and got kinda close and flirty... I didn't kiss her or try to, I wouldn't let myself. I still have feelings for her but I don't want to *be* with her and I think she is the same way confused

But I'm just pissed because I can't sleep and I have to be up in about two hours, and also that my motorcycle decided to start shooting flames out the exhaust pipe tonight.. Don't get me wrong, that's kinda cool, but not when it causes the engine to stall going down the road.