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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Apr 22, 2024 12:56 am
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Even if he could convince him to come stay in Germany he knew it would be difficult. Unlike Abel, Kieran was nowhere near fluent in the language. Sure there were areas where tourists and other foreign residents liked to hang out, he maybe find more English speakers there. But then there was the question of food, how well he would like the area, if he wanted to work. How would Kieran adjust to all of that? For Jakob it was a lot easier as he was familiar with all of it and a natural born citizen. He could maybe support them both, but he wondered if that kind of life would make Kieran happy.
As Jakob kissed the man, he couldn't help being greedy. He soon felt Kieran him pull him even closer, his chest pressed against his own. He didn't mind the hand that slipped into his hair. Reaching up, Jakob draped his arms around Kieran's neck as they kissed. He too had been unsatisfied with that first kiss. He had been too afraid to address what it meant and how much he still cared for Kieran. With every brush of his lips he could feel how much Kieran still loved him, all the hurt he had been through, and the desperation to convey that. Jakob drank it all in, savoring it as though it were his last. Parting his lips, he kissed him even deeper until his lungs felt like they were ready to give out. And even then he didn't want to let go.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Apr 22, 2024 2:06 am
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He didn't understand why it would be okay for Abel to take care of Kieran, but not him. Then again, he supposed it was something like a trade off. Kieran got room, board, food, spending money all in exchange for whatever job Abel needed him for. If Kieran stayed here he could have all those things, but he didn't really need him for work since he already had a job. Jakob didn't want to use him or take advantage, keeping him here for the sake of a relationship would likely make him feel exactly that.
Jakob continued to kiss him deeply, clinging fiercely as he did. It wasn't long before the need for air started to become annoying but still he clung. He was given a few more softer kisses, each one Jakob returned before he finally pulled away. Panting softly, Jakob kept his eyes closed as he leaned his head a little against Kieran. "I don't want to let you go. I can't." he whispered softly, switching languages as his words were only meant for Kieran. Taking another breath, Jakob pulled his head back to look at him a moment, his eyes full of sorrow and longing.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Apr 22, 2024 5:30 am
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 23, 2024 7:21 am
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun May 19, 2024 5:37 am
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It had not been his intention to hurt Abel, but, somehow he kept doing exactly that from the moment he didn't return his phone call. This whole time Abel had been worried about him while he stupidly pined for something that was better off left in the past. Jakob didn't blame Abel for thinking ill of him. After all, he was acting like some desperate whore. He barely noticed the bed shift as he tried again to convince Kieran to stay with him. Jakob hardly believed his own words and the way his voice trailed only proved as much. There was nothing left to save.
As Jakob cried he remembered all of their time together. It was never perfect between them. In fact there were days were he knew he was better off separating from Kieran for good. But like a fool, he went back. He knew deep down that Kieran wasn't a bad person. He was someone with a lot of baggage. When they weren't fighting, or getting on each others' nerves, he was one of the kindest people he'd ever met. Which made letting him go even harder. He wasn't ready to let go of that memory. It was felt like a hot knife to his jugular and he was gasping for air.
Jakob tried his best to offer Kieran reasons to stay, but it wasn't enough. It would never be enough, they weren't those people anymore. And just like he had his family and life here in Germany, Kieran had all of that back in the states. It was an impossible choice to make for something so broken and fragile. Wiping at his face, he waited for the inevitable resounding no. When Kieran spoke, he nodded silently. Visits, right. Like what they were having right now with a limited time crunch hanging above their heads before he had to go back.
As the bed shifted again, he glanced briefly towards the other man. Jakob didn't bother to ask where he was going as he was certain that Abel would not even tell him. He also didn't offer him his keys to his flat as he feared that if he did, he would come home to find Abel's things gone and him along with them. Casting the unwanted thought aside, he looked back at Kieran. "What if it's not enough?" he asked. "Will you really be okay with a few visits throughout the year and having to schedule texts and phone calls just so we can say goodnight?"
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun May 19, 2024 6:50 am
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun May 19, 2024 6:07 pm
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2024 3:42 am
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