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i'm sorry that really sucks.. i don't have to worry about my taxes though.. they've been done for a couple months now..

That is pretty rude all right. I would be pissed.

Well I only owe them a hundred bucks so it's not like it's a financial burden (even though I make it sound as such); it just seems as though one is supposed to get money back. It is called a tax RETURN after all, and beyond that I've almost never heard of anyone actually owing money. What else can I complain about... ah yes the weather is absolutely horrendous! All day yesterday, and so far all of today it's been dark and rainin' and thunderin'. This is ideal book and computer time, but I'm in a more "active" mood this weekend. Not cool. Oh! I managed to sleep on my arm again somehow. Stupid shoulder. gonk

Do you have what they call a "frozen shoulder"? I do, it was very painful. I did physical therapy and it is much better now.

well i really don't think it was the computer.. i've not heard it this time around, i think it was some stuck bee or something and i couldn't find it.. so it was just mostly annoying..

my mom had what they call "frozen shoulder" after her heart attack and stuff.. she did thearapy for it as well..

Watch out Dave, you could get a frozen shoulder. =P Mine has taken about 9 months to get better.

I think its your guilty conscience for ditching me and Vanguard razz

GR: I have a cat! But he doesn't do the puppy eye thing....nor does he care much for me in that loving, cuddley, way. He sorta just stares at me, mews, then goes back to sleep neutral

Taxes: eh, I should do my own income taxes soon meself, thanks for reminding!

New rant:

So, loneliness aside, Elder Scrolls IV: Shivering Isles is broken. I mean, not just for me, but there's this bug in the game that breaks the game. So I'm just waiting for a patch to come out. And since I haven't been playing much of Vanguard lately I've got nothing to do. And inactivity feeds that loneliness!

I tried catching up with an old high school friend. It was going ok. She said her and her boyfriend had lady friends who are all up ons on geeks with no cars (i.e. me), but she has since disappeared from my MSN list. Perhaps she got annoyed with my constant pestering and morbid obsession with little details.

I have tried a new game, called 'Red Light Center'. As you can guess by the name it is a game meant for adults. The graphics are horrid, and the basic animations are beyond simple. Red Light Center's graphics and animations would be top of the line if the year was 1997. But it's 2007. And I'd expect even 'virtual cybersex' games to actually put forth an effort here. I haven't tried the actual 'virtual cybersex' part since that's only for VIP members ($20 a month!). I have yet to find an actual reason to pay that $20. Heck, I'd have trouble finding a girl there who is ACTUALLY a girl, and who is single. Very small community. No one really talked to me, even when I tried to sing stuff like 'The Sound of Silence' by Simon & Garfunkel, and 'Closer' by Nine Inch Nails. I'm not sure anyone there knew of those artists...So it was a very frustrating event. All in all it's little more than a 'virtual chatroom'. A crappy virtual chatroom.

So after all is said and done I'm still ok, I'm still alive. I am, however, still in the same place in my life. As I told Skully over MSN, I think I've reached some sort of 'secure, comfortable, convenience' rut where I *hate* where I am and how I'm not going anywhere, but at the same time don't want to move for fear of responsibility and change. This, I believe, is what my therapist meant by 'fear of success'.

I'm sorry I couldn't say more about you beingin a rut over MSN but that other convo I had going knocked me for six. Your advice is obviously the best method of dealing with it, it's just finding the best way of saying it.