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Drake chuckled "I agree with you on the last bit. I might be a vegaterian but there is no way in hell I can even stomach tofu, I just cant see how anyone could. Though I shouldnt really be talking about meat, I mean, I never have eaten it in my whole life so I shouldnt really comment on it when I know nothing about it technically. I have read some books but nothing that gives me reason to pass comment on" he said as he took another drink of his drink.

Drake shuddered at the thought "nothing can make liver look good, then again i dont eat meat so what would I know? I wouldnt eat liver or any other type of meat even if i was starving." He said as he took a drink and looked him "yummy, i can see that going down really well with the family, im sure everyone loved that pie" he said shuddering once more "I AM from england and even if i was a meat eater i wouldnt try that pie, that would be pushing it too much."

"Thank you, you have been more help then you know" he said smiling at the other as he saw Drake go inside and then looked at the other and saw him about to leave. "please, wont you stay? I could do with the company still and im sure Drakes played bodyguard enough for one night and im home now so nothing will happen to me ut still I dont mind having your company still if you will let me" he said to the angel/cat while smiling softly at him, tears still falling down his cheeks but still it wasnt AS hard as what they were.

"Of course I want you to stay, that is if you want to, i dont want to keep you from anything if you have to be elsewhere" he said to the other, hoping he was alright with staying for a bit.

"Has he got a cellphone with him?" he asked as he stepped inside and waited till they were both inside before shutting the door behind them. "you can use our phone to call him if he has one on him and if it might put your mind at rest" he offered the other as he walked over and grabbed a paper towel and started to dab at his eyes with it.

Kim started to cry again but ignored the tears "i gues im not" he said finally wiping them away "I will be, I just need time away from him thats all, yet im scared that if i do then he will get closer and closer with this other and forget all about me altogether. Im not clingy i just love him and knowing he doesnt feel the same about me is killing me" he sighed as he walked back to the table and sat down and rested his arms on the table and his head on them and firced himself to stop crying and sighed.

"I want him to be happy more then anything else in the world yet while hes happy im sitting here hurt and I dont know if i can handle that" he said sniffing "I know its pathetic to carry on like this but there is another reason as to why I want to be with him so much, its because I love him and trust him as he has turned out to be my best friend but also because I cant have children.

When I was raped, Dakota had damaged my insides and I can no longer bare children which is what I wanted more then anything else in the world. So I now have this angel who I love more then anything else in the world and would only ever trust him to be the one to carry my children and obviously I cant have him." He said crying again "I dont just want him to give me children because he feels sorry for me or something.

I want us both to have children because we love each other and knowing that i cant have him is killing me, the fact that i cant hanve children is also tearing me apart which doesnt help matters either but still..." he said as he rested his forehead on his arms and carried on crying.

Kim murred as happy as once could when one was upset and tilted his head back agiesnt the arms of the other, pleased to have him by him right now. He was upset, he loved Sabin yyet having this other here with him right now was more great, something he definatly wanted and needed. He got up and walked around to the other and properly hugged him, greatful that he was here with him when he needed someone the most. "Thank you, thank you so much for being here with me.

You might not think you have done much but believe me, though i am upset greatly right now I am greatful you are here with me and allowing me to moan like this. It is great appreciated" he said softly as he placed a kiss on the cats cheek and held the other one tight, just pleased to be in someones arms right now.

Kim kissed the others cheek "of course I will concider you a friend, it would be an honor" he said as he sighed a little "the reason I think I fell for the angel in the first place, dispite we having a relationship that was thrown together in all of five minutes before I broke it off a few days later was because I had made myself immune to any type of affection. I was christain and when my mother died I did nothing but stduy the bible and such and blocked out any form of hugs and and the like, Sabin came alone and hugged me for the first time in five years and I think thats what started me caring for him a bit, he reminded me what I had missed.

Though as i said it was a relationship thrown together in five minutes and it never worked out untill I had sex with him and realised how much i truely did love the angel and now im in this mess. I wish I never had sex with him and then I wouldnt of gotten this far, I wouldnt of ever started to realise I liked him as more...." he sighed trailing off.

"Right now, a bit part of me wants me to resent the angel, just hate him so much in hopes that it would make me lose these feelings faster. However I know that if i did that i would hate myself so im just so hurt, confused, upset and a part of me wishes I just stayed in my room and never came out" he said softly as he closed his eyes and let more tears fall from his eyes, enjoying the others embrace greatly. "Forgive me, I guess that was random information you didnt need to know" he said wiping his eyes only having more tears fall.