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"Of course I dont mind" he said smiling a little at the angelic cat "I thought that you might as well know the full story and besides I find you so easy to talk to" he said softly, which he admited that even he had never been able to speek so freely to Sabin. He never knew why but he could never be so open with him, sure the odd times but mostly he just couldnt be so open, with this anthro Kim just could seem to be able to talk to him better then he had the angel.

He sniffed and sighed and reluctantly pulled away "would you like something to eat or drink? We have a couple of bottles of full cream milk in the fridge or just stright cream, a flatmate of mine, Kyou, loves the stuff so we are always having to keep the fridge stocked of it" he said to the other, wishing just to be cuddled again.

Kim walked through one small door way that was basically only a few steps in front of the front door which he still had no idea why muraki had it built like that but just didnt worry about it. "Im glad, i find you alot moe easier to talk to then I could with Sabin, its weird, i just could never be so open with him like I am with you" he said as he neared the kitchen "Its fine, wait till you see the fridge" he said as he walked into the kitchen and opened it up "as you can see, we have 5 6 bottles of milk and 12 cartons of cream, I dont think he will miss one carton of cream" he said as he pulled that out and a bottle of coke and handed it to the cat. He moved to the cupboard where the glasses were stored "would you like a glass?" he asked the cat.

Kim grabbed him a glass and shut the cupboard and sat down at the table and put the glass by him "your welcome and I think its because of how we first meet. He and I meet at the shop minutes earlier and never exactly got on all that great, he was annoying me greatly and I wanted him to leave me alone so when i found out he was my flatmates adopted son I guess I just couldnt tell him right away when I did finally talk with him and what happend and everything. I guess even after we made up i still wasnt completely sure about telling him my personal business not even been directly open with him to start off with either" he said as he opened his drink and took a sip sighing.

Kim thought for a moment and then remembered something "it could be because your like mother. Because she went insane and killed herself she too was a very kind and sweet and gentle person, much like yourself and was always around when I needed her for whatever reason. SoI wonder if thats why, you remind me a bit of my mother" he said softly and thought fully as he started thinking moe of his mother now.

Kim chuckled softly "of course not, its just that one little thing that means alot to me. I never have found another who had that some sort of kindness about them, sure some have been sweet and others kind etc but you just have the same mannerism as my mother does when it comes to this and this alone, other then that your nothing else like her. I apologise if i meant that in the wrong way, I never meant to" he said biting his lip, hoping he didnt upset the other.

"It was rather grusome really" he said softly "but i will tell" he said as he took another drink then continued "my mother was a christain woman, she is who had gotten me into the christain faith. anyway, my father left us and took everything we owned except for the orphange where I was sexually assulted first, anyway after a while she couldnt keep up the job of looking after it. So it started to turn to rubble, the roof needed fixing and there were children that were crying for no food etc and so when the thirteenth child finally died off she waited a few days and must have been losing it over those days. '

On the fourth day she took her dagger that she kept as protection and stabbed herself in front of me, i wanted to look away and go away from her yet it was like a train wreck that you just couldnt look away from. So she stabbed herself thirteen times, one for each child saying that it was gods will to have her do this and that if she dies at the end of it then it will be her final punishment and so I sat there watching and crying for the whole thirteen times believing what she said was true due to my christain upbrining.

I never exactly understood why she did it and it was why i carried on believing in god, I just wanted answers as to why he would will my mother to do that to herself. I was ignorant, I admit but I just wanted a reason why she would go insane when she had always been the strongest one of everyone and anyone who came and went from the orphange" he said softly as he remembered that fatefull day and sighed while looking away.

Kim heard the sniffling and got up and walked around to him and wrapped his arms around him as best he could as he crouched beside him. "it's ok Vahn, I swear, I am upset by it but I know my mothers in a much better place." He said as he nuzzled the angelic cat as he started to cry a little himself but just wipped away the tears and ignored it "I have gotten past this, it was hard but I have. Thank you though for being so sweet as to care, I know my mother would of liked to meet you" he said knowing that the angel was but nothing like this which made him wonder if he really should be caring for the angel at all...