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heh well im working tons thats why i havent been around. Im almost to my goal when i can buy my plane ticket. Im going to end up sleeping in a tent the entire time since they dont have a place for me to sleep indoors razz IO think Maddie's mom is afraid of us trying something. I just miss her a lot and as long as i get a hug and a kiss I'll be happy. Im drunk as hell since this is the first night in two weeks I havent had to go to work the next morning. Ive been working like hell lately. Good news though. Next June Maddie finishes vocational school in Sweden and she may come here!!! Im thrilled as theres a ton of schools here in florida where she can study anything and i told her she can come here and not worry about work as by next june ill be able to support the two of us (thanks to working for my older brother.) I really feel like she is the one, the one i want to marry. I really cant wait to see her. I can't sleep at night sometimes just thinking about it. Its like the night before christmas every night ya know? Well i think i just tipped the pizza guy 20$ Im sure he is thrilled. razz Thats only like one hour of work for me razz Ive been ring shopping eek heheh for some reason i feel differently these days. I feel more adult, but still a kid. I dunno really how to explain it. I feel responsible but silly all at once. This being in love business is always weird to me. I have cool pigtails and you all dont. So what?? Ya know what else? I owe apologies to some people like um, the guy i always flip off at albertsons razz and lady venom, im sorry for just up and stopping talking to ya after that. >.< And um well anyone else that ive made feel bad. Im watching american dad on tv its funnier than i thought razz I got a Pizza Hut large triple cheese stuffed crust meat lovers pizza (say that three times fast) w00t. wELL i think ill finish my drunken rant by saying that love finds you when you least expect it, just be yourself and dont look to hard, i believe that there IS someone out there for everyone!!! Even those that have no confidence in themselves. By the way, Chosen keep practicing your art!!! Origamidude, design some kick a** games for me to break controllers over and eventually beat razz , error seriously if i were a millionare, id comission you to decorate my house with your art. keep up the good work to all MRUers!!The one who is formerly uruviel, adella ^_^ i wanna jam with you someday m'kay!!! so keep practicing and i will too!!!!
if everything goes well ill be back here and happily awaiting the arrival of my future wife to be, if not then well you will get a lot of drunken posts razz just kidding, i just know she is the one. I hope you all find such happiness too!!! Its definately not sucky.

Man... I think the worst is about to happen. My heart is riddled with tiny cracks and im waiting until tonight to find out if it will break. Things don't seem good for Maddie and I, and for the sake of not getting carried away right now (can't be going around for the rest of the day crying) I won't go into details. I feel like s**t. I feel like a moron for having hope and ambition. I really hope everything is fine and that this is just a bad day. I'll know more tonight.
To make it worse I found out today that my buddy in Japan is going through a tough time working against being bi polar and whatnot. My thoughts and prayers go out to him and his wife and I hope to talk to him soon since I havent been able to in the past month.
I hope you all are in a lot better shape than myself and I will try to be online more soon. Just gotta get my truck working again!!! Talk soon, i think about you all more than you'd think...

my thoughts are with ya man =

I accept your apology (posted on the 26) I hope things clear up between you and Maddie ESPECIALLY if she is the one. I'm sorry to hear about your buddy in Japan, my mom has bi-polar as well as my younger sister, so I know how hard it can be.

And to everyone with a long-distance S.O. I feel your pain gonk
...short message but I'm tired and still trying to convince people if the trade their soul at Wal-mart they can get a life. ((if this double-posts, sorry but my computer is being mean.))

I wish you luck on your visit and hope your friend will be alright.
Stay strong, man!
May the doots be with you...

dootly doot doot.

im pretty stoked right now, thinking about my trip and whatnot, im going to do something crazy... biggrin