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Hello and welcome! I hope you seek treatment soon! You should know that self-diagnosis (or any diagnosis by somebody who is not a trained professional) is never a good thing and can be a very bad thing. It can make you imagine symptoms that aren't there, or ignore important symptoms! Also, you need to have some testing done to make sure there aren't physical reasons for your symptoms. Besides, it's pointless to label if you don't plan to treat, so better leave the treatment to the professionals! I hope you get help soon!

Hello, im angelica. I suspect i may have bpd, but i havent been formally diagnosed. Im a self injurer, though i dont cut myself anymore, i think i have 77 more days left till im one year free. i still do other things. i am a member at recoveryourlife.com. i should seek therepy, but ive had bad experiences and i fear asking my parents because of the way they are. anyways, Hello!

Hi, I just joined, though I haven't got my confirmation yet. I even have an anxiety guild of my own with very few members yet. Oh my name. It's Darialan Love or if you want my real name it's Joshua. I'm 27. I have been diagnosed with Social and Generalized Anxiety disorder.

It started in High School. I was picked on alot by a few students, some of which I didn't know at all. I had a temper when I got picked on too much and thus was nick named "Psycho." Even some of the other students that weren't bullies sorta gave off sort of a displeasure about me. I also was made to feel by some that things I did or said weren't normal. I'm sure some of them didn't intend to come off that way. I started to get very nervous in school and would have a stuffed up throat and coughed alot. Somehow anxiety caused my throat to be full.

Anyways, I wasn't diagnosed with Anxiety till I was like 25, I think. I have a hard time keeping track of the years past. I didn't seek serious help till a few events made me seek it out and get medical assistance from the county. One was that I felt like I couldn't do a good job at McDonald's where I was hired for maintainance. I was very afraid that I wasn't doing good enough and I hated all the cleaning and I was in tears twice and that last time, I quit. I felt like a miserable failure. Then there's the internet harrasser who hadn't, up till over a week ago, bothered me in over a year. This person left comments on my fanfics, journals, chat. I'm glad though that the time a week or so ago that this person came back that it was only one time. Anyways I went ballistic when this person kept repeatedly leaving comments that I had to erase or mail the site owners to erase. I felt depressed and anxious for a little while and finally couldn't take it so I tried very hard to get medical assistance from the county. Couldn't get that till I had a medical diagnosis or something like that. When things go wrong with my computer I get very anxious. The computer's my life and will be my profession.

I still live with my parents. I am looking for work again with supervision. And yeah that's me. Sorry it was so long. sweatdrop

I'm Michelle. I am 15 years old, I live in the W. United States and I have been diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic.

I had my first psychotic episode about a year ago. I had a delusion regarding hidden cameras in my house and I started hearing voices inside my head. My mother would still rather believe that I am possessed as opposed to being mentally ill. And to be completely honest, I don't really believe that I'm insane.

I am currently medicated, though it does little to prevent my postive symptoms. I still have auditory hallucenations on a regular basis, almost constantly, actually and I have other paranoid delusions about once a week. My other symptoms consist of lack of motivation, extremely erratic and disorganized behavior and innappropriate emotional responses to trauma and disaster.

I joined this Guild to meet others like myself, to be comforted that I was not the only one with my condition and that progress towards mental health is possible.

Hey I'm Jess. I live in the UK, I'm 17 and currently studying for my A-levels. After that I'm going to study art. Having done my level best to avoid NHS mental health services for the past 4 years, I don't have a formal diagnosis yet, although I'm seeing a psychiatrist for the first time soon. My GP thinks I have refractory depression but I don't buy that one. My counsellor never likes to give much away but thinks I have a personality disorder. I used to SI but try my level best to avoid doing so nowadays.

Ok, here goes. This is the third time I have tried to type this out.

I am in my 30's (yes, not a typo) and had/have been diagnosed with depression. Basicaly I was under a lot of stress from losing my mother and then losing one family member each year there after for four years in a row. Also had problems with my father and found out MANY skeletons in the family closet that made me ashamed of both myself and my family. Imagine thinking that you have the 'perfect' family and then 30 years later you find out that pretty much your whole life was a lie. Bad, bad news.

Anyway, I am on Prozac and hope that I don't have to take it for the rest of my life. I do feel MUCH better than I used to but also feel that the medicine puts a blanket covering real reality that still has to be dealt with.

Hope I haven't offended anyone here.

Oh my goodness! I forgot my introduction!!! *has a spaz*

Okay. I'm Angellen, Angel by nickname. Diagnosed with severe depression last spring, unfortunately very, very late--seems I've had it about 10 years, give or take (I'm 15 now). I was first diagnosed with Unipolar depression, and have progressed to bipolar.

I've had a bunch of sparatic psychosomatic illnesses (dunno if that quite counts as MI, officially speaking, but I thought I'd mention), that tend to return every few years. The duration of these have ranged from a week to three or so months, and have happened several times during certain years.

Also been disagnosed with ADHD, because I find it literally impossible to focus without some form of aid. Even with medication, I have to be moving in some way or another. This includes doing something with my hands (such as typing, fiddling with objects, etc) and/or foot-tapping, knee-jigging, etc.

I get panic attacks from time to time, but they are usually triggered by something. I have not had a serious one in several months, and for that I am very glad. I have pretty bad self-esteem/self-respect issues.

*shrugs* I have a couple of phobias, and I feel I may have slight OCD, but I haven't had my doc check me out on that. Been trying to get over my SI and mild anorexia problems, so far it's been working pretty well--I haven't cut since early february, and have only lost two pounds in two months. (compare to three-four cuts a week and 12 pounds in a month and a half, and you'll see what I mean, at least to a point.)

I used to get chronic headaches constantly, but I've been spared them recently, thank god. I've got a slightly split personality--which I suspect was spurned from my decade-left-untreated depression. I have really opposing thoughts I can feel very strongly about two sides of the same issue--not a place inbetween, just both at once. I confuse myself a lot.

I'm fascinated by psychology, and am planning on taking an Introductory to Counseling Psychology course next year. Human nature, behavior, and mind-workings completely fascinates me.
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Thanks, and major brownie points to those that actually read that. @_@ This thing's bloody long... I apologize, I really do.

~Angel