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Axel sighed. "Because Xemnas likes to torture us, and if we don't show up, he'll torture us more. Now c'mon, Baby. Let's get going, please? I don't want to see you hurt from that a**..."

Roxas tiredly appeared in his seat, slouching down in his seat. His eyelids kept drooping, but he fought to keep himself awake. He began to mess with the new cut across his cheekbone.

Lucky-ish for Marluxia, about three minutes until four, he jumped awake in bed with tears streaming down his face. He sobbed a little, wanting Vexen in his arms more than ever. He wanted to make sure he was still alive and not faded away like in his dream. He was been in Marluxia's arms as he dissolved, leaving nothing but a broken Nobody behind. He wiped his eyes, hiccuping before looking at the clock then his pager. He jumped out of bed, throwing on his black pants, cloak and the rest of his uniform. He was still wiping his eyes and coming his fingers through his hair as he sat in his chair a minute before the meeting started. He tried desperately to stop crying, but he was having so much difficulty with it. The tears just wouldn't stop which made him cry more in frustration.

Axel frowned and sighed when he was called in first. He kissed Demyx gently and looked into his eyes. "I'll be back soon, Baby," he whispered to him before turning and walking into the darkness, coming out into a barren flat of stone. It was so depressing as he looked around. "So...how are we doing this?" he asked as he turned around to face the two. "Are we just fighting or what?"

Axel nodded, looking up at the thing. He flexed his hands, summoning his chakram then took his stance. He then immediately leaped forward into the air, thrusting both of his chakram forwards through the air, landing a direct hit on the being's face with both weapons. He caught both of the weapons and jumped back off of the creature's shoulder, landing on the ground again. His body began heating up and flames grew around him as his chakram flew around him as he raised his shakey arms at his sides. A burst of flame shot forward, engulfing the creature before him as a ring of fire came to life around them. He jumped back into the flames, hiding before he saw the right time to attack. He was right behind the thing before he sprang forward with both chakram pointed ahead of him. He tore straight through the throat of the thing, landing on the ground in front of the dying beast smoothly, not even breaking a sweat.

Axel just stared wide-eyed adn mouth agape at his lover writhing on the table. "W-wait, what? No! How the hell do you expect me to do that, Zexion?!" Axel screamed at him, tears brimming his own eyes. When he only got a stoney gaze back, he bit his lip and turned back to Demyx, his body trembling. This wasn't fair. This wasn't fair at all. What would they do to him if he failed? What would Demyx do if he passed? What the hell was going to happen to him..? He grabbed his head, trying to think. This wasn't ******** fair! How could Xemnas do this to-- Wait... Demyx took his medicine before he came, and he hasn't had sugar since then. There was no way he was depressed right now. His pills made him happy. Axel's eyes raised, set in determination. It was going to kill him to do this to even a replica of Demyx, hearing his cries, but he had to in order to stay with Demyx. "Alright... Fine..." He stood tall, body still trembling as he walked forward. He stood over Demyx and shut his eyes before he snapped his finger, a large whip of fire hitting the blond square in the chest, searing the skin. He did it again and again until Demyx was a blubbering mess. Axel didn't open his squeezed-shut eyes until he turned to face the other two, face full of pain. "Alright... I did it... What's next?"

As Axel stood in front of the table, tears ran down his cheeks and his body shook. "I'm so sorry, Demyx..," he whispered to himself, trembling hands reaching forward to grasp the blueprints. He wiped his tears away with the back of his glove before beginning to piece together the object in front of him, not having a clue what he was doing. All he could think of was Demyx. He wasn't even controlling his hands. They were doing things on their own, his focus elsewhere.

When Axel finally looked down at what he was doing, he just screamed in frustration and threw the object at the wall. "I don't even care! I already proved I'm ******** loyal and that I can fight! You know I can ******** think about situations and figure s**t out! Let me go ******** cry already!" he screamed at Zexion, tears pouring down his face as he looked pleadingly at him.

"Damnit..," Axel cursed in a shakey voice, eyes still pouring tears. He wiped them off with the back of his hands as he ran through the portal, ending up back in teh library. The room got quiet as he appeared, running past them all and out of the room. Not many people had seen Axel just flat out break down and shatter. Usually he seemed so strong and unbreakable. Now they had all seen him in pieces.

Axel was huddled up in a corner of his room rocking back and forth a little bit. He looked just as bad if not worse than he did when he shot Zexion. He tortured Demyx only to fail... Damnit... "Damnit..!" he cursed himself, slamming his head back against the wall. He dropped his head back down onto his knees and sobbed loudly. Though he had quit the habit some time ago, he searched around for a cigarette. He whimpered when he couldn't find one. He crawled over to his beside table and just happened to find one. He shakily lit the end and breathed in the smoke, sobbing as he blew it out. The last time he had a cigarette was when he had a nightmare about himself torturing Demyx, beating him senseless. He had told Demyx about that, and he had been okay with it. Now that his nightmare virtually came true... He needed it. He needed it so bad. He slumped back against his bed, taking another drag. He blew the smoke out once again before he felt a new wave of tears flood him. He curled up, shakey hands holding the cigarette between his fingers. And he just cried, letting the cigarette burn itself down.