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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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 Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 1:22 am
Roxas glanced back and forth now between the hand and Axel's face. "Why are you so nervous about it? It's just sex." Roxas whispered leaning closer to the redhead. The blonde didn't grow up learning that sex mean that you loved the other person, he grew up learning that sex was just something for the pleasure of it. It meant nothing more than something that released endorphins that made one happy. When he got close enough, he stared into the emerald pools unafraid now. He watched them for a moment longer before pressing his lips to Axel as he closed his eyes softly.
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 1:41 am
"R-Roxas...I..," he started timidly before the blond's lips were on his. He felt his brain melt immediately and kissed him back for a good few minutes. Then he forced himself to pull away. "Roxas, I can't. You don't know how sacred sex to me is. I can't have sex with you because I don't have sex. I make love. I can't...I just...I can't have sex with you. Not...not today. Not right now. You're so beautiful, but I just...I can't... I'm sorry..," he said softly, frowning at him in apology.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 1:58 am
While they kiss, Roxas moved his hand up to touch Axel's cheek pulling him more into the kiss. He really liked the way that Axel kissed... "But love and sex are two different things." Roxas whispered before not pushing any farther into the foreign logic. "There is no need to apologize, if you don't want to, then I'm not going force you. I know what it is like to be forced. It isn't fun."Roxas said softly before looking back at his tablet. He unlocked it before reading what time it was. "He will be back soon."The blonde said softly after reading what time it was. He moved through some of the features finding the calender. He opened it up today and read what it said. "Take shower. Don't forget to eat." With a pen from the menu he crossed out don't forget to eat. "We don't have any food in the apartment."He mumbled to himself before backing out of the particular day and locking the tablet. "I have to go take a shower today, did you want to join me? You probably aren't comfort with taking it with me, but you could just sitting in there to talk some more. "Roxas offered to the redhead as he put the tablet back in his box and put the lid back on it this time.
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 9:06 am
"Love and sex are wo different things, yes... Love-making is between two people that care so much about each other that if feels as if their souls are intertwined when they're together. Sex is just for pleasure. I only make love. I don't have sex," he told him softly, trying to get him to understand. He thought about the shower thing. "I...I'll sit in there with you. Sure," he said softly, standing up and holding a hand out to help Roxas up as well.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 11:20 am
"Oh, okay. I think I get it. So basically when someone loves you and you love them and you have sex, it isn't sex. It is making love. So He and I make love, right?" Roxas asked trying to make sure he understood the logic right. Ansem did love him, He told Roxas that all the time. They were even engaged. By Axel definition, Roxas had made love to Ansem tons of times then. Roxas took Axel's hand to help him stand. The redhead's hand seemed to shallow Roxas's tiny hand for the brief moment as the blonde stood. "I think you'll like shower days." Roxas told Axel happily before moving towards the stairs. He climbed back up them moving into the apartment. Once Axel had followed him up, the blonde made sure to click the light switch off to the room.
The blond then moved down the hall a little to the next door on the same side as his room. It was a closet of sorts. There were towels, cleaning supplies, and various other items like that. Roxas kneeled down to one of the bottom shelves where there was towels, but they didn't seem to match the quality of the ones farther up. Next to the towels there was a set of half-full shampoo, conditioner, and body wash bottles and a set of clothes. The clothes laid out on the shelf were neatly folded there and were an exact copy of the raggedy outfit Roxas already had on, but brand new. The shirt was a blank white v-neck shirt and the pants that when with them were khaki cargo shorts.
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 1:19 pm
Axel frowned a bit. "It's...much more complex than that, Roxas... Making love...it's like a whole other world. It's like a spiritual experience," he tried to explain as they walked along. "It's like...it feels like you two are the only people in the world... Like nothing could come between you. There's just...this connection... It feels like your hearts are completely connected, and you never want to let go of each other... Like you could go through anything... The world could be crashing and burning around you, and you wouldn't care because the person you care about is right there with you..." He had a soft smile on his lips when he finished.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 2:08 pm
Roxas tried to think about the kind of love that Axel was describing. "I think I understand. So it isn't just about the sex. It's about something deeper. Like how sometimes He will just lay with me just holding me, even when He doesn't have to. It is about just being with me not just the desire." Roxas said softly back as he picked up the clothes, a towel, and his bathroom products. He then stood closing the closet behind him. He now moved two doors down to a bathroom. The bathroom seemed have a higher quality just like the bed in Roxas's room. There was both a standing shower and a tub that took up one side of the room. The wall touching the bathtub was a long mirror, but the rest of the walls and floor were an dark brown, almost black tile. He walked in as he moved to the counter opposite the bathtub and shower laying out his towel and the clothes Next to the counter on the same wall was the toilet and a laundry hamper. He then took the shampoo and such to the shower placing them on the shelves.
Once everything was in place, the blonde became to strip off his clothes. It was then that it came apparent that Roxas didn't wear boxer or any kind of underwear for that matter. Roxas definitely wasn't bothered with showing off his body either. He was skinny, but because he was so skinny it showed of his abs easier.
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Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 2:24 pm
Axel nodded just a little. At least it was nice that he did that... "Yes...but there's more to it than even that, Roxas. It's just... It's really hard to explain... You care for each other and never want to hurt each other... You share a bed and fall asleep together and take each other out to places...or sit and watch a movie together or play board games or...or anything... Just spending precious time together whenever you can, and feeling loved every second of that time..." He looked around in awe at the bathroom. "It's such a large bathroom..," he mumbled before sitting down on the closed toilet. When he finally looked back at Roxas, he blushed darkly. He was completely naked...and he looked...really nice... He shook his head, closing his eyes as he tried to get those thoughts out of his head. "You, um... You...you have a very, um...n-nice body..," he complimented, refusing to look back at him until he was hidden away behind the shower door.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 1:32 pm
Roxas listened to Axel explain that he wasn't quite grasping the concept, and Axel was right. It must be hard to explain, but one thing was for sure, Roxas didn't understand how he didn't already have that. He was engaged. Other than been actually married, there were no farther step to loving another person. "Yeah, I guess it is, He had it remodeled for when he stays over. My room was remodeled from the original suite too. Living in my own place was another present from Him that I got when we had been together for five years. He said I deserved the freedom of having my own place. For a long time, I thought it was another prison here, but I do get a lot more freedoms here than I did in the beginning, at his house." Roxas stated softly back to the bathroom comment as he turned on the water to get it heated up. "He says the same thing to me. That is why I have a strict diet and exercise schedule to keep myself in shape for Him. Of course, when He gets back tonight, I'll have to ask Him if He will bring me my groceries for the month. I ran out of food yesterday morning. Thank you for reminding me of that." Roxas said before turning and checking the water. It was warm enough by then so he climbed into the shower.
The warm water felt good on his skin. Believe it or not, Roxas enjoyed feeling clean, but he was only allow to shower every two weeks; or on special occasions like if for any reason he had got to leave the house; or if he went to spend the night at His house which happened about once, maybe twice, a month. As the blonde pushed his face into the heated water, a small moan slipped from his mouth. The refreshing feeling that Roxas felt at that moment was almost enough to forget that the redhead was in the room with him.
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 1:48 pm
"Well, it was thoughtful for him to get you your own place..," Axel said unsurely, still looking away. His brow furrowed when Roxas began talking about food. "You haven't eaten anything? You must be starving!" he said in disbelief. When he heard the shower door close, he completely forgot that it was glass, and you could see straight through it, so when he looked up, he was met with a glorious sight. Roxas's moan sent shivers down his spine as he watched the water run over his body. He swallowed...hard. Then, his mind apparently made itselt up without his consent, because he was suddenly stripping down to his bare a** and opening the door to join him in the large shower. Once the door was closed, he wrapped his arms around Roxas and pulled him to his body, just holding him against his body. "How often do you even get to bathe..?" he asked softly as he rested his chin on top of the wet locks of hair.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 2:45 pm
Roxas nodded a little even though, he didn't think Axel had looked back at him. "Yeah, it happens sometimes, but it is just something I got use to at the end of the month or the beginning of the month." Roxas said as he leaned slightly against the side of the shower wall as he let the water run through his hair and down his back. The blonde was a little startled when the shower door opened and the redhead joined, but he didn't oppose it. It was actually a little comforting to feel the redhead's arms around him just holding him. No one ever seemed to just want to hold the blonde while he was naked, especially before having sex. "A few times a month. If I don't get to go anywhere though, it's only once every two weeks." Roxas said softly before moving so that he could look up at Axel. "Did you get lonely outside?" The blonde asked. It seemed like an innocent enough question, but after Axel hugged him, they both knew that Axel had a growing problem.
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 2:58 pm
Axel listened to Roxas's voice silently until he turned around to look at him. He felt Roxas's hip bump into something and blushed darkly at the realization. He was hard... Rock hard... "S-Sorry..," he mumbled, scooting away from him a little so it wouldn't be pressed up against the blond. "I...I didn't mean to...um... I...I just wanted to hold you..," he told him a little timidly, looking down at the floor of the shower in shame.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 3:10 pm
Roxas shook his head lightly. "No, No, it's fine. I'm use to been found attractive by even strangers." Roxas told him softly stepping back towards the redhead and pulling him close again as he hugged him. "Please... I like the way you hold me." He whispered against Axel's chest. The blonde didn't know if it was just that he liked being held or if it was the way that Axel held him that he loved so much, but he really did enjoy it. His blue eyes were now dimly open against the warmth. He really hoped that Axel wouldn't push away from him again, but Roxas was use to not getting what he wanted.
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 3:30 pm
Axel looked up at at him as he was hugged. At the soft request of just being held, his eyes softened. Slowly, he wrapped his arms around his shoulders and hugged him close, burying his face in Roxas's wet locks. "I'll hold you whenever you want, then..," he told him in a soft voice. "Ask me anytime you want, and I'll do it..." He gently ran his fingers through his hair. Looking up, he saw the bottle of shampoo. He smiled and reached over to grab it, squirting some on top of Roxas's head. He gently began to massage it into his scalp, washing his hair.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2013 3:52 pm
Roxas smiled at the offer from Axel. "Thank you..."He whispered as he relaxed against Axel's chest. Roxas really meant what he said to Axel in the beginning about it being the best thing he has ever gotten, and now it just seemed like it was getting better and better. The small blonde didn't move from the position he was in when he felt Axel start to wash his hair. "Thank you, but you know, you didn't need to do that, I know how to wash my own hair." He said simply as he just enjoyed the feeling of Axel's toned fingers running through his short hair. No one had ever washed his hair for him that he could remember.
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