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 Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 4:19 am
Noooooooooooo's! You found me! That was back when I had a 'white tag' belt. I don't expect you to understand it, it was part of a beginner program my instructor thought up. As a reward, have two photo's of me from the Taekwondo club's New Year's party, I'm very merry in both as I had been drinking for a little while: MeMe with my best mate Andrew and someone else from TaekwondoThis is a momentous occasion y'know, getting photo's of me. Cherish it! (note: I have no idea why I look like I have lipstick on)
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 5:26 am
Skully!! *glomps and huggles* I can seeeeee you! I am so glad! You are a cutie, awwww!! XDDDD Wow, and you look grown up too, I am amazed.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 9:45 pm
omg, you've been afflicted with red eyes!! :O
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Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 10:29 pm
Ethan Dirtch omg, you've been afflicted with red eyes!! :O *jokes* Well, now we know that his demon side ISN'T just in his avatars! It's great to be able to put a face to a personality after all this time. *huggles da Skullmeister*
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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 3:46 am
I know, I know, I am teh secks. I dunno why I don't have girls crawling all over me razz . Seriously though, I've always hesitated to put a picture of me on the internet, just because I didn't want people to be able to put a face to my personality, I liked that air of mystery. Ah well, that's all gone out the window now and you can all see what an ughly git I am.
I am flattered by the comment Uma, never seen myself as cute before.
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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 5:29 pm
Rant: Meh. I find myself at that place again where I'm angry at people who don't care enough about anything...And it isn't because of any one person in particular. I just find it annoying that people just...don't care. About opinions, about issues, about anything...a lot of people just shrug it off and...it frustrates me. And this isn't just about worldly ideals, or politics...it's about the little things, too. Like discussing movies, having good hearted, well-meaning debates about a plot, or a story, or the way an actor portrayed a character. Stuff like comic books, or novels, when discussing the future of a character...Maybe I'm just a geek who loves geeking out about everything, taking everything in and talking about it. But it depresses me that there's no one else who cares enough to talk about things like that with me, or even at all. And then you get to the heavy stuff...I just don't like the idea, the concept, that people are too busy to even talk. To sit down for an hour and chat and banter. It's like nothing matters anymore...or am I so unique that there's no one in the world that gets me?
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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 6:10 pm
I am sure this varies greatly from person to person. I, for one, am not a conversationalist, and in general don't speak unless direct questions are put forth to me. Other people have various reasons I'm sure. Lack of interest in the conversation topic, being busy, having a set mindset and not feeling the need to hear other opinions on a matter, and who knows what else. You listed some. It isn't easy to find someone who is interested in everything you are at any given moment. It isn't necessarily even so much interest as it is lack of knowledge or opinion by the other person.
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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 7:51 pm
I don't know...maybe I'm just angry no one ever talks to me about anything, or that I'm never taken seriously. Maybe I'm frustrated in that I have no one to really talk to about my interests...I've got a friend here who might understand one thing, or a friend there who might understand something else...but usually I just feel ignored.
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Posted: Wed Jun 20, 2007 4:27 am
Yeah it's like that for me now too. The only people I ever talk to anymore are a few coworkers, and there doesn't appear to be any friendship potential there. The people around me have changed, I have changed, and it seems more and more difficult to find those who understand or tolerate my point of view. Strange going-ons...
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Posted: Wed Jun 20, 2007 5:31 pm
Yeah, it sucks. I mean, I know all about how things change, but...to be so busy not to hang out or just talk anymore? I don't think that's possible. Sometimes I'm afraid people just simply don't want to talk to me anymore. I'm not one of those people who can deal with being alone; that's one of my fears, ya know? Meh...
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Posted: Wed Jun 20, 2007 9:10 pm
It isn't that you are disagreeable, it's just that people are always looking for something other than what they have. Wait.
So what exactly motivates you to hear these opinions, and have these discussions with others? What do you get out of them> Or is the current lack something you are taking personally? Or?
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Posted: Thu Jun 21, 2007 4:02 am
Hmm, I'm not sure exactly. I'd say partly just for the interaction, to get my brain working and to talk about something I really enjoy. Also partly maybe the joy of knowing someone else thinks like I do? I'm really not sure.
When I close my eyes and think of the few debates or conversations I've had that's similar to what I've been yearning for...I call it 'geeking out', where we talk about a show or a game or a comic book issue or a character...I think of the times when people hang onto my every word. Maybe it's that attention, or maybe it's that it makes me feel like I'm smart and important...But then I also think of the times that, when someone makes a good point, or highlights a particular point I made before, I also feel good and then I feel the need to compliment them or comment on what they said to further discussion.
Eh, I'm really not sure how to sum that up.
But I guess my rant was more of...feeling unneeded. Feeling *unwanted*, as a friend as a person. And maybe not being paid attention to? Again, I don't deal well with being ignored and being alone...and yet, I'm always here in my room, or otherwise at work, alone in a store. Meh...
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 6:56 pm
Nothing will change until you start to change it my dear. If you want that excitment of sitting around with some friends and the talk is flowing and people are laughing and there is a sense of connection, well you have to put yourself in the way of that kind of opportunity. I keep saying to go back to school. That is the place to meet people like that. To make new friends, meet girls, and most of all...follow up on your potential so you don't become bitter with life...well, more bitter I should say.
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 12:45 am
MORE bitter!? Is such a thing possible!? :O
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 6:51 am
Ethan Dirtch MORE bitter!? Is such a thing possible!? :O Yes! Just think...right now you are young and somewhat bitter. And understandably so when everything is taken into consideration. You were not handed life with a silver spoon in your mouth. There are extenuating circumstances and I can understand some bitterness on your part. However, can you imagine being 30 and still at the fix-it place at the mall? Or 40? And you never went to school, never wrote that novel I know is inside you, never did anything to blossom that bud of potential inside of you. But right now you are young and your whole life is ahead of you. There is something you can actually do. And I know you know this and that you have thought of this, but I feel I have to say it again. So there, I said it again. I and I will keep saying it. Just cause.
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