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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 4:44 pm
Demyx squeaked as Zexion stumbled over him. "Zex, did the woman in the front office... Tell you where Riku's room was... I seen one of..." Demyx started to try and explain himself before Axel came out and tripped just about over both of them. "Yeah, yeah... I just need a second to catch my breath is all," Demyx answered to the both of them as he weakly waved them away. He wanted them to help Riku, not him.
From behind the door, there was some shuffling and then a voice. "Sorry, Ax, you've lost, and my friends are going to take care of him now. Just face it, you weren't there for him, and he had to come running back to me, his true friend," Hayner told him through the door before he clicked the deadbolt on the door. Unfortunately for Axel, kicking in a locked door was one thing, but doors locked with a deadbolt were near impossible to kick in without hurting yourself in the process, if you could get it open at all.
From behind the door, Riku was sitting on the couch crying as he watched Pence and Olette doing lines of coke in front of him. All of those feelings of addiction had coming rushing back to him, and he felt could even feel himself getting the shakes just watching the drugs being so close to him. He hadn't done it yet though like Hayner was telling whoever was at the door. He wanted to though, he was completely willing to though. He honestly would have already if it was his turn. He might as well already have relapsed from just having the drugs in his apartment. As he was handed the straw to snort his line, Riku felt like he was shaking like a tree. In his head, he knew he should stop. He had been clean for so many years now, and he was about to screw it all up. But he couldn't stop himself, not that the three egging him on really helped him to think logically at this point. "You gotta remember what getting high, feels like, just do it man," the male said before Riku leaned down and went to throw his whole life had made away.
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Posted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 5:42 pm
Axel growled loudly as he heard Hayner through the door. "Riku, don't you ******** dare!" he shouted, beating on the door now, attempting to ram it in with his shoulder. "Riku, you know I've always ******** been here for you! Why would you throw your life away again? Why didn't you come to me for help if you were this bad, Riku? You don't need drugs!" he screamed, stepping back and kicking at the door now. A few of the tennants had poked their heads out of the doors, wanting to know what was going on, but Axel didn't care. "Open the door so I can help you instead of throwing your life away with these people! They've never been there for you unless you were there to buy, and you know it! As soon as they have your money, they'll leave you! Please, Riku, I want to help you! We can make it through this like we did last time! Just let me help!" he pleaded, beating on the door with his fist again.
Zexion got tears in his eyes listening to Axel shout. "Just rest, okay?" he told Demyx quietly before standing himself and running over to Riku's door. "Riku, please! We want to help you! I'm sorry for yelling at you, but please don't let your situation get even worse than it is! You don't want what's going to come along with this. The band is going to break up, Riku, and force Demyx back to how he was--force Axel back to where he was. Force me back to how I was, and you'll already be wasting away. Please, Riku. You hold us all together! Please don't do this. You don't need this, you need friends. We'll help you through anything. Please remember that!" he cried, joining Axel in beating on the door. "Riku, please, let us help you! Bad things happen, but we'll get through it! If you'll just let us pull you back up!" he begged.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 8:33 pm
As Axel started to scream and beat on the door, Riku dropped the straw and startled back up. Axel's voice made all of his will snap back in his head. He couldn't go back now, Axel was right. "...I-I can't do this.. I can't go back,"He mumbled as he got off of the couch and started for the door. "Axel, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.." Riku yelled back as he tried to go and unlock the door, but Hayner stopped him. "No, I'm not losing again. Pence give me some off your pills," Hayner commanded as he shoved Riku down on the ground. Normally, he had a lot of fight in him, but he was weak and fatigued from all the stress. "Ow, dammit.." Riku groaned as he rubbed the back of his head. When Hayner pushed him down, Riku had whacked his head on the hardwood floor. "Hayner, what is wrong with you?" He asked as he tried to get back up, but the blonde shoved him back down as he go on top of him. Riku struggled against him, but before he could even scream, Hayner was shoving something down in his mouth and then beer to force him to shallow.
As Hayner got off of him, Riku curled over on the floor choking slightly. "Hayner!? Are you out of your mind?! What did you just force down my throat?!" Riku cried before he tried to go to the door again. He managed to undo the deadbolt before Hayner pulled him back again. "It's over, you lost, face it already," Hayner told Riku before he stopped struggling. It just hit him that Hayner had forced him to take drugs... And whether it was good or not, Riku had relapsed, regardless of his struggling. The silverette crumbled onto the ground as he felt tears rushing down his face. In the background, he could hear screaming and yelling, and the door finally giving in, but none of that mattered because he relapsed. He failed everyone, because he couldn't stop himself from taking the drugs in the end. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." He sobbed into his hands as he sat there defeated on the ground.
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Posted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 9:22 pm
Axel's hope soared as he heard Riku coming to the door, then his anger boiled up inside of him as soon as he heard the struggle. "Hayner, you piece of s**t!" he screamed, beating on the door once more. As soon as he heard the deadbolt slide back, he shoved Zexion aside quickly before ramming down the door, clearly breaking the lock. He immediately grabbed ahold of Hayner's collar, yanking him off of the floor and slammed him into the wall. "You little ******** s**t. You can never just leave him the ******** alone, can you? You always have to ******** everything up," he snarled at him and decked him in the face one good time before shoving him towards the door. "Get the ******** out of here, all of you. And I swear to God, if I see you anywhere ******** near him, you won't get off with just a broken ******** nose, do you hear me?" he threatened, bowing up at Hayner, who was still as small as he had been in high school, while Axel was much taller, much more built, and much more threatening. Especially towering over Hayner who was on the floor.
Zexion had slipped away to grab Demyx and lug him into the apartment so he wasn't left out in the hallway. He brought him over to the couch and set him down on it so he could rest once more.
As soon as Hayner and his friends left, Axel gave a great sigh to calm himself down. Then he closed the door quietly and walked over to Riku, bending down to him. "Come on, Riku, up," he told him softly, pulling him up off of the floor. He walked him over to teh couch and sat down with him, immediately pulling him into his arms and chest, holding his friend in his arms. "It's okay, Riku... It's okay, we'll get through it again, just like last time. Me and Dem will come stay with you to make sure you don't do it again. I promise. I won't leave you," he assured him softly, running his fingers gently through his hair. "Better yet, you can come stay with us. We'll pay for the damage to the building and cancel the lease for this apartment, and you can come stay at my place with us for a few weeks or so. That way they can't find you, we'll be there, and you won't be in the same building with Sora so you can have some breathing room for a while. You'll be taken care of, Riku. I swear. You'll be strong again."
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Sep 18, 2014 10:33 pm
Demyx frowned as he stumbled into the empty apartment and saw Riku so broken on the ground. Riku was such a strong person, for him to just be crying openly on the floor like that spoke volumes. Riku looked like someone who had lost everything. "Riku, it's okay, we are here now, we are here for you, and that is what matters, we are together and we will get through this together," Demyx called out to him as Zexion helped him over to the couch. Unfortunately, Riku didn't even look up from his palms. He was so lost in his pain he couldn't even hear what was going on around him. It was all just background noise to him.
As the redhead pulled him up off the floor, Riku startled looking at him with confused, red eyes. "I-I... I-I thought you would h-hated me... I took something, A-Axel, I-I couldn't stop him...." Riku sobbed to his friend before Axel hugged him. As Axel hugged him, Riku seemed to cave in to him. "I-I'm so, so sorry," he cried to him feeling himself shaking against the strong body. Riku just nodded to the redhead as he weakly wrapped his arms around the other. Riku didn't open up to people, except in these rare moments, so Riku was definitely vulerable right now. Demyx reached over to the silver haired male, and rubbed his back. "Yeah, Riku, you don't have to be strong anymore, we are going to take care of you," Demyx told him as he continued to sob into Axel's chest.
Riku soon calmed though as the drugs he was given started to kick in. Sucking up his tears, Riku's raddled frame pulled back from Axel. "I wanna leave now... Before I get too far gone... I don't want to have to be in public high... I don't want to risk the press finding us..." He said in a more, controlled voice. He still sounded pretty upset, but the drugs were giving him back some of the control he lost before.
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Posted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 8:49 am
"Ahh, it's okay, Riku. I'm a little peeved that you didn't come to me first, what with our history, but you don't new someone yelling at you right now. You need support, and I'm full of all kinds of support, " he told him, hugging him tighter.
He released him as he sat up and nodded to his words. "Okay, let's go, then," he said, standing up. "Let's stop by the office real quick so you can let her know that Zexion's gonna handle cancelling the lease and get that over with. Then we'll be on our way," he told him, watching Zexion Stan and throw Riku's bag over his shoulder. Then they hauled both Riku and Demyx out as quickly as possible.
They made it there, Riku informed Darlene that Zexion was handling the cancellation, and then Axel got Riku and Demyx to his car, Demyx in front so Riku couldn't mess with any buttons or anything if he got too far gone. Axel put the child lock on the back doors and locked the windows. "Onward to safety, then," he told them with a soft smile, pulling out of the complex.
"Okay, first of all, I'd like to apologize because I didn't listen to you. Axel broke the door down, but we are more than willing to pay for repairs. We just had to get him out of there. I really am sorry. He was about to destroy his life, and we just couldn't wait for police," he apologized to Darlene. "Second of all, I need to pay the cancellation fee for that lease he just bought today, like he said. He's gonna staying with Axel, because he needs a friend to watch him right now. And I obviously don't have the patience for it that he needs," he said, running a hand through his hair. "The original apartment he still has is fine, though. We're keeping that one."
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 12:11 pm
"I didn't come to you, because Zexion told me I wasn't allow to come back to the family until I could be a human being again..."Riku repeated to Axel in a dulled, low voice. Yes, Zexion had apologized, but the words didn't fix the trench of pain and hurt that orignally pushed him away from the band. He would have never gone to Hayner, if he thought he could still go to Axel, but the fact was that over the course of the past few days, Riku had become more and more isolated to the point where he wasn't functioning in the band anymore. Everyone had a place and a role except him. He was becoming background and it hurt especially when he had no where to turn to with Sora. Everyone looked at Riku and asked "why were you hurting, Sora?", when no one stopped Sora from hurting him.
Riku's words reached no one's ears, but Axel's as he mumbled a last thought to him. "I thought you hated me... So I was going to kill myself.. I was going to overdose, Axel..." His words were cold and distant as he spoke them into the redhead's embrace, but he meant them completely. Without the band, Riku didn't have a family and he didn't have a reason to live, so if they hadn't come for him, Riku would have purposefully taken too much and killed himself.
Riku's mind seemed to blur the details together of them walking down the office. Darlene looked really mad, but he was becoming too far gone to care. "Sorry, for the trouble... I meant no harm," Riku told her barely keeping his words together, before he was pulled away again to the car. The world was spinning and everything was moving really fast. "Onward!"' Riku chanted back to Axel's words before slumping over in the seat and staring at the ceiling of the car. He was losing all thought processes now.
Demyx frowned as he watched Riku from the front seat. He looked he was really getting lost in this imaginative, drug-impaired world. "Riku, how are you feeling?" Demyx asked cautiously as he watched the silver haired male start to examine his own hand. "What are feelings?" The other replied vacantly as he looked over to Demyx. "What do you think they gave him?" Demyx asked as he looked back at Axel. "Guys, we should go dancing, is that where we are going?" Riku asked as he tried to sit back up. Demyx pressed his lips together as he shrank back into his seat as he realized what they gave him. They gave him ecstasy, but knowing them it was probably laced with something else as well... They gave a kid who just broke up with someone, ecstasy... A sex drug... And who knows what else. Of course, the worst part about it all was that it took a good 6 hours to come off down from ecstasy. At least a coke high didn't take long to sober up from.
Darlene must have given Zexion and earful the entire thirty minutes he was in the office doing the cancellation paparework. Not only had they done exactly the opposite of what she said, several of the residents had called down concerned that the police needed to get involved. It was a miracle that she could even convince them not to. She would know better than to trust them ever again. From the accounts of neighbor residents, it was apparent they didn't even try and listen to her. "Now, please, get out of my office,"'she huffed as she took the completed paperwork. "And you can bet I will be charging you for every scratch in that apartment," she added as she waved him out of the door.
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Posted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 3:58 pm
Axel let out a deep sigh as he heard Riku losing it. "Ecstacy, definitly. Probably laced with LSD, knowing them, but I'm hoping not. I'm really, really hoping it's not laced with cocaine, because that's what he was addicted to before. It won't be as bad getting him back after this, but if it's cocaine...we're in for a wild ride," he told him, slumping his shoulders. He felt defeated, not being able to be there for his friend. Riku truly was his oldest friend, and it hurt knowing he thought he couldn't come to him--no matter what Zexion had told him. "It's a surprise, Buddy," he called back to Riku, answering his question. "You'll have to wait to find out where we're going, because it's a surprise."
"Thank you, Darlene. I'm really sorry," he told her once more before removing himself from the office. He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair again. Then he slowly made his way back up to Riku's apartment. He entered it and slowly shut the door, slowly looking up at the couch where the two twins laid. Well, there they were when he left them, and were not not. Instead, a blanket sprawled across the floor and the coffee table knocked aside, a few things that were on top of it laying on the floor. Zexion immediately went into panic-mode. Had that lunatic found them? How stupid was he to leave them up there alone, the door unlocked? He bolted for the back of the apartment, looking for them, and about passed out when he saw Sora hunched over the toilet, Roxas consoling him as he dry-heaved. The poor kid was shaking and sobbing, but his eyes were wide open. Like he had seen something terrible. "Hey, what happened?" he asked softly, willing his heart rate to slow down and walking gently over to them, kneeling on Sora's other side and rubbing his back.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Sep 19, 2014 8:38 pm
"Ohhh, are you guys talking about candy? Ohhh I hit some rock candy so hard right now," Riku mumbled as he rolled in the back seat to face them. Riku was definitely one of those completely composed people that on drugs lost every bit of their sanity. He didn't just do drugs, he got lost in them. There was a reason that when he drank, he got drunk. He had to drink more to feel it since he used to take so many drugs. "Oh~, a surprise that sounds super exciting," Riku told the redhead before forcing himself up on the seat. "Is it a rave? Because I'm pretty sure I am seeing spots and that would be really cool under neon lights, " Riku told the two as he leaned up in between the two front seats. The rush cars and roadside hurt his head though. "Oh, everything is hazy..." He mumbled before slumping back down in the seat. "How long until we get there...?" Riku asked in a bored fashion. Demyx stayed quiet as he listened to Riku babble on in the back seat. It was almost horrifiying to him to see Riku like this. Demyx had never seen Riku relapse, since he became friends with the two after Riku had gotten cleaned-up. He had been told what Riku was like high, but it was different actually being with him.
Roxas looked up at Zexion as he walked by him in the hallway. "Oh there you are, I was worried that you and Riku had disappeared, Sora woke up from a night terror and felt sick. He is still asking for Riku, can you ask him if he could at least just come sit with him, until he goes back to sleep, I know they aren't on great terms right now, but Sora was really upset by all this stress," Roxas told Zexion softly as he stood up and spoke so that it was out of earshot of the brunette for the last part about Riku.
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Posted: Sun Sep 21, 2014 12:57 pm
"We'll be there soon enough, Riku. Don't you worry. I'll take care of you," Axel told him, growing quieter at the end of his statement. "Why don't you try to take a little nap so you'll have plenty of energy when we get there?" he suggested to his silver-haired friend. He needed a break from this emotional stress, or he'd start up his own bad habit again--binge drinking.
Zexion gave a sigh when Roxas asked about Riku. "Rox, Riku leased a new apartment this morning and left you two this one..," he told him softly. "He...he called up some of this old...friends...and tried to do drugs. We intervened, and stopped him from willingly doing them, but one of the people he invited over shoved something down his throat before we could get to him. He's gonna be staying with Axel and Demyx for a while to get away from all of this. I've never seen him so broken, Roxas..," he told him.
Sora sniffled and wiped his mouth, flushing the toilet as he shakily stood from the floor. He washed his mouth out with the sink and dried his face with a towel. "I'm...gonna go lay down in R-Riku's bed. Try to sleep..," he told them quietly, wrapping his arms around himself as he shuffled out of the bathroom and down the hall. He slowly entered the room and closed the door quietly before curling up in Riku's bed, huddling down into the blankets. Softly he sobbed, closing his eyes as he tried to fall asleep.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Sep 23, 2014 9:42 am
Riku frowned as he rolled his eyes at the redhead. "Whatever, you could have just told me to shut up, Ax," Riku answered back before he did quieted down. He seemed to easily just sink away into his own little world. Soon they were at the apartment, and Riku seemed to sink into this mellow, lost state. At first he seemed to be peppy and excited, but whatever they mixed with it really made him relax finally. They probably gave him the equalevent of a date rape combo. For most of the night, Riku found himself just staring at the ceiling or wall completely gone. It actually worried Demyx more than when Riku was peppy, because he looked so empty. As he watched his friend, it was like looking at a shell of the former person. He even at some points would grow really confused and have to be reminded where he was or who Axel and Demyx were. Demyx was also pretty sure after being on the drugs for a while, Riku began to trip really bad since he really just seemed to be really gone. Axel would say something to him, and Riku wouldn't even realize he was talking.
The night came and went, and Riku eventually came back to the world. The next week went by uneventful though, just because Riku had a hard time even looking Axel in the face after that night. Particularly, Riku couldn't look Axel in the eyes, because when he finally came out of his high, he had to be reminded of everything that had happened. He couldn't remember anything that happened that whole day practically, and it made him feel like garbage. He had betrayed one of his oldest friends, and he now he had to live with that wound in their relationship. It was actually a little bit more than a week later that, Demyx couldn't take it anymore. "Riku, do you think you are ready to talk about last week? I mean I think you have sulked around the apartment not talking long enough to have thought about what happened," Demyx pointed out as he looked across the counter as Riku silently eat a bowl of cereal. The fact that he was eating was a good sign though, because they had to force him to eat those first few days.
"I don't know what we would talk about," Riku replied back, not even looking up from the bowl of Coco Puff. It was obvious he was still ashamed of the whole thing. He felt like he betrayed the whole band, and he didn't even know how to make up for it. How do you fix a completely betrayal of trust?
"We don't hate you, Riku. I know you don't remember, but you had said no, you were a complete wreck and you still said no. We don't blame for how it all turned out." Demyx told the male as he leaned across the table to touch his arm comfortingly. Riku didn't reject the touch, but he didn't seem to welcome either. Even if Demyx and Axel did forgive him, he couldn't forgive himself. He committed the ultimate sin in his mind, and he didn't know what to do now.
"I think everyone is beyond broken, right now," he mumbled back to Zexion. He had to hold his tongue in that moment, because Roxas really didn't agree with what Riku was doing right now. How hard was it to just be there for someone? Riku was running away, and Roxas wasn't about to support him like the others seemed to be doing. As Sora ran to hide away in Riku's room, Roxas frowned glancing back at Zexion. "I hope he finds what makes him happy," Roxas mumbled before walking away to be with Sora.
The apartment seemed to settle down over the next week, and Roxas was finally getting use to taking his medication again. Today was the day that they were supposed to go down to the station and meet the third victim, and he was so jittery over it, he already took his anxiety pills. All of this felt like he was tredging up the past. He wanted so desperately to forget about the years he spent in that hell, but they just kept coming back up. He knew that Sora needed this though. Sora needed to know that he wasn't alone in this fight against this monster. Roxas had spent so many years under that man's control, he had just learned to black it out. He didn't want to believe that world could really get to him here anymore than Sora did.
Over the past week, The main thing that really kept Roxas afloat was Sora. He could finally protect his brother again, and it felt so natural that he could easily forget his own troubles trying to sooths Sora's. Zexion was there too, but there was a different level of understanding between Sora and Zexion when it came to Roxas. He could honestly say that he loved them both, but if it came down it, Roxas would always pick Sora. It was in his basic instincts to do so. Over the last week, Roxas and Zexion didn't really spend a lot of time alone together, because of that fact. Sora needed someone and if Riku wasn't going to step up, the. he had to. Zexion would just have to understand.
As Roxas sat and thought as he drank his morning coffee from one of the few surviving mugs in the house, he knew that he needed to talk to Zexion about Riku. It had been an extremely touchy subject all week since Sora asked for him at least three times a day and all Zexion would give them was this bull excuse about how he was still working things out. From the counter, he slowly noticed the slate-haired coming back from taking a morning shower. "He will want him to be there today at the station, you know that right? You can't ask him to at least pull himself together for one day to help Sora through this?" Roxas spoke up as he looked at the other walking over as he towel dried his hair. He looked cute with his hair messy and wet.
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Posted: Tue Sep 23, 2014 12:49 pm
Zexion sighed softly and nodded to Roxas. "You're right, Roxas. He needs to suck it up for Sora right now. I'll text Axel and see if he can convince him. That's more likely to happen if it's Axel and not me," he told him softly. He walked over to Roxas and kissed the top of his head before turning and walking into the livingroom where he left his phone. He plopped down on the couch and left the towel to sit on his head as he texted Axel a brief message. "They meet the other victim today." He knew Axel would understand the meaning behind it, so he dropped the phone into his lap and sighed, relaxing back against the couch, towel falling over his face as he closed his eyes for a moment. He knew Roxas had to be there for Sora, so he didn't complain that they didn't get a lot of alone time since everything happened. He did miss him, though.
Axel groggily entered the kitchen, running a hand through his hair as he noticed Demyx trying to talk to Riku. He had received Zexion's text, and he was right. Though he didn't mention it in the message, Axel knew that Zexion wanted to convince Riku to be with Sora.
He walked over to Demyx and kissed his much healthier than before boyfriend on the cheek. He then plopped down in the seat beside him and leaned over to Riku. He knew Riku felt ashamed, whether everyone elae blamed him or not. "Hey," he told Demyx, sorrow filling his voice. "So...Roxas and Sora get to meet the other victim today," he said, looking over at Riku Briefly . "It's gonna be hard on them both, I think. Especially Sora, since it happened not so long ago. Zexion's going to be there with them when they meet him." He paused and fully turned to Riku. "Riku...I think Sora would really like it if you would be there with him. And I think you'd like to be there with him, too. I think it would help both of you right now."
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Sep 24, 2014 10:22 am
Roxas sighed a little as he watched Zexion walk away to the couch. As he watched him from the counter, he really couldn't resist walking over to them. "Hey, so we have a few hours until we have have to leave, and Sora is asleep right now, can we just be us for a little while?"Roxas asked softly with a pause before he continued to speak. "I know we haven't got to spend a lot of time together, and I really want you to know that I still want to be with you, but things are just really messed up right now with Sora and Riku...and I don't think I can be in a relationship right now, because it would hurt him to see me happy while he is so miserable. The only reason I can relate to him right now is, because both of us are going through the same things right now. We have been apart for so long, I just... I need to be able to be there for him right now. " Roxas told the other calmly as he joined him on the couch. He wasn't sure what was appropriate distance, so he sat next to him, but not couple-close.
Demyx didn't seemed to be getting anywhere with Riku as he looked up at Axel walking into the kitchen. "Hey Ax,"he mumbled to the redhead before he kissed him back. He seemed pretty bummed about the fact that Riku was still shutting them out. This terrible habit was what got Riku in trouble in the first place, but he couldn't get the silverette to see that they really weren't trying to hurt him or scold him. They were just trying to help. As Axel sat down and looked over at Riku, Demyx could tell that Axel was about to work on the rigid male. Riku and Demyx would naturally butt heads, but Demyx understood there was something special between Riku and Axel. It wasn't a relationship like what was between Demyx and Axel, but it was something special. Riku ultimately would listen to Axel, because Riku owed his life to the redhead. Axel helped Riku get his life together, and in turn, Riku opened up to Axel.
Slowly, Riku's hands sank away from his bowl as Axel spoke. He could tell that Axel was trying to guilt trip into going to see Sora. He remained quiet though until Axel directly addressed him. "...I don't think I can..." His voice shook as he stared down into bowl. Riku was unable to look into the rechead's eyes as he said this. He also knew he couldn't tell the redhead no, especially after last week, but he didn't think he could handle it. Everytime he thought about the brunette, he could feel that helplessness grow inside him again. Sora made him feel like he did with drugs. He wanted to say no, he knew he should say no, but he wanted that high no matter what damage or cost it came with. "...please don't make me go..." Riku asked the redhead as he finally looked up at him. There was this undeniable weakness in Riku's eyes that was begging for Axel's side in the argument.
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Posted: Wed Sep 24, 2014 10:48 am
Zexion pulled the towel off of his face and looked up at Roxas. "I know, Roxas," he told him, giving him a small smile. "Your brother comes first, so don't worry about it, okay? I mean...I'd like to still technically be considered your boyfriend through all this, because I'm not going to pressure you into anything. If anything it just makes me cherish the time we do get together, like right now." He rolled his head to the side, looking at Roxas as he sat beside him. "So, if you don't mind, I wouldn't mind a little bit of cuddle-time before Sora wakes up. If you're comfortable with it," he told him in an understanding voice, resting his arm across the back of the couch, inviting Roxas to cuddle up to him. "I've tried not to kiss you or hug on you with Sora around, and I'm sorry if I have. I know how torn up he is right now, and I'm trying to be respectful of it."
Axel frowned slightly at Riku's reply. He leaned over to him and gently grabbed him by the shoulders. "Riku," he said softly. "I know you're a mess right now, and you know I do whatever I can to keep you going. Right now, you need to be with him, or you both will be torturing yourselves. I have a bad feeling that if you two keep going down this road, Sora's going to close himself off just like you are, and then there will be absolutely no hope for either of you. You've got to get out of this funk, and I'm going to help you all that I can. However, there are some things I just can't do for you, and Sora will be able to. You need each other. It's been over a week, and from Zexion's told me, he's not doing too good. He barely eats, barely speaks, and lays in your bed all day. He asks about you constantly, and he needs you there just as much as you need him. I know you're ashamed, and I understand why. You invited them over, and you shouldn't have. But, Riku, you weren't in your right mind, and we all understand that. I think if you and Sora just saw each other for one day, that you can get over this bump in the road and start to get better, and so can he. Isolating yourself isn't going to help either one of you, and you know it; you're just scared to face him, but you have no reason to be. We're all here for you, whether you think we should be or not. And we're not leaving you. We've already forgiven you, you just need to forgive yourself, and wallowing in your own pity isn't going to get you anywhere," he told him softly, rubbing his shoulders gently then pulled back. "So I want you to get up off of your fine a**, take a shower, get dressed, and I'll drive you to the station when it's time to go. You have plenty of time, I think," he told him encouragingly, trying to get him to stop looking into himself and start looking ahead.
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Posted: Wed Sep 24, 2014 12:08 pm
Roxas smiled as Zexion gladly welcomed him into his arms. "Of course we can cuddle! That is like the best part about dating a person," Roxas joked playfully as he bridged the gap between them and hugged Zexion's chest close to him. "I think you have been, he knows you care about me, and I think if you just started to ignore my presence that it would just make it worse anyway. I think Sora would catch on that the reason that we aren't interacting as much is because of him, and then he would just feel worse about it. I think we are both doing the best we can for him right now, and I think we are slowly making progress with him." Roxas told Zexion softly as he hugged Zexion's torso. It was nice to be able to lay there with him. With a small deep breath, Roxas relaxed into the moment. "Let's just take a nap like this." Roxas mumbled as he realized that the coffee he had just consumed did nothing for his exhaustion.
Riku frowned as Axel pushed aside his pleads not to go. It was apparent by the way that Axel was talking that it really didn't matter what Riku said, Axel was going to make him go. There was no really point in fighting a battle that he wasn't going to win, even if he knew that this wasn't going to make the situation better. Sora didn't really love him. If Sora really loved him, he wouldn't have pushed him away. He wouldn't have told Riku that he thought Riku was being with him out of pity. He would have actually gave a damn about what Riku actually wanted, but he didn't. He pushed Riku away, because he didn't think Riku could love him the way that he did. He didn't see Riku's love as real... and it made Riku want to rip his own heart out and throw it off of a cliff. The decision that Sora made wasn't something you could really take back, and it was proof to Riku that Sora didn't really him. He liked the idea of Riku and what Riku could be, but he didn't really want it. He wanted something else, and Riku wasn't sure what that was or ever could be.
The silver haired male said none of this though. He just simply turned away from Axel and got up. "...whatever makes you happy." he mumbled as he walked out of the room. He did as he was told though and went to take a shower and change. He felt like he betraying himself agreeing to go back to see Sora, but he guessed that what he was feeling didn't really matter in the situation.
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