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 Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2015 12:40 pm
Sora nodded. "Yes. I just can't right now. I'm not ready," he whispered and slowly calmed his breathing down to normal. However, he didn't let go of Riku. He relaxed his grip on him slightly and stayed buried in his chest, eyes closed and just breathing him in. He felt like a hole inside of him was being filled once more, if ever so slightly.
Zexion smiled softly at the name and reached forward to shake his hand politely. "It's nice to meet you, Ventus," he said with a nod and then released his hold. "I agree. Police stations just have way too much intensity for situations like this. And if I remember correctly, his last name's...Kokoro? That sounds right," he told him. "Would you mind if we exchanged phone numbers? So I can communicate between the three of you until you want to meet again? And then we can decide on a location?" he suggested calmly as he pulled out his phone just in case Ventus agreed to it.
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Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2015 1:58 pm
Riku nodded to Sora's words. "Okay, we can try again another time. Just relax, no one is going to make you do anything you don't want to do, Sora," Riku told the brunette softly as he rested his head on Sora's. He could have stayed there with his other half for an eternity. After Riku felt the other calm down to something somewhat normal, he slowly pulled back and looked into Sora's reddened blue eyes. "You want to go back home to the apartment now?" Riku asked softly feeling Sora almost falling asleep on him before. As much as he would love to let Sora fall asleep on him and carry him back to the car and then into the apartment, Riku couldn't carry anything with his broken arm.
"Roxas Kokoro..." Ventus repeated in a soft whispered after Zexion said Roxas's last name. He knew that name. He just couldn't remember where he knew it. The identical blonde felt himself almost zone out thinking about the name, but he pushed the thought away as Zexion continued to talk. "Yeah, here, you can plug your phone number into my phone as well." Ventus told Zexion before he pulled out a white Iphone. He pressed a few buttons on the keypad before handing the device to Zexion and taking the other in exchange. He quickly typed his name and number into Zexion's phone and handed it back. "It was really nice to meet you, Zexion, but I think I might go ahead and head out of here. This was all really crazy. I'll be looking forward to hearing from you in a few days though." Ventus told Zexion after getting his phone back. The duplicate then moved towards the door as his eyes momentarily staring back at Roxas. Who was this kid to him? Without staying to continue on with the madness, Ventus walked out the door and left the building.
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Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2015 2:22 pm
Sora nodded once more and sniffled, wiping his eyes. "Is Roxas okay?" he asked softly and looked over to him, just to see the other Roxas walk past and out the door. The brunet stared after him then looked back at Roxas, who Zexion was walking back over to. what had just happened? Was there some odd familial detachment between he and Roxas? No... No, it didn't matter if he really was Roxas's brother or not, he still loved him like one.
He looked up at Riku and whispered, "Please don't leave," before letting go of him slowly. He crawled over to Roxas and Axel backed off, letting Sora hold him in his arms. "Roxas," he said softly as he ran his fingers through his hair. "It's okay, Roxas. I'm here," he whispered and leaned down to kiss his forehead before resting his own against it and closing his eyes. "I'm here."
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Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2015 2:30 pm
Riku frowned a little as he heard Sora tell him not to leave. "I'm not leaving." He repeated back to him almost instinctively as he watched the other leave his embrace and crawl over to Roxas. With a sad expression, Riku pulled himself up off the ground and moved to stand with Demyx at the door. After a moment of watching Sora try and comfort Roxas, who was thoroughly passed out, Riku gently reached down and ran his hand through Sora's hair. "Hey Sora, why don't we get out of here okay? I think Roxas needs to just sleep this off." Riku spoke softly to him as he looked down at the two.
Roxas looked pretty empty just laying lifeless against the wall, and Riku was worried that Sora was going to start freaking out again, because Roxas wasn't responding. If you didn't look closely, it was actually kind of hard to tell the blonde was even still alive. His features looked like a beautiful white marble. It wasn't quite as hard looking as stone, but there was this hard disconnect where the blonde looked cold. "I think it would be a good idea to get Roxas home, too, he looks like he needs to sleep this off," Demyx spoke out as he continued to look-on from the door. He had been trying to stay out of the way of everything. He wasn't sure what all happened though. He was pretty confused on the Roxas look alike. He didn't realize that Roxas and Sora had another brother.
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Posted: Thu Jan 22, 2015 12:07 pm
Sora looked up at Riku as he suggested getting out of the police station. His jaw clenched to keep his chin from trembling, then he nodded, looking back down at his brother. "Okay," he whispered, running his fingers over Roxas's face again before standing up. He stepped back and immediately grasped Riku's hand, squeezing gently. He watched Axel heave Roxas into his arms and then quickly moved out of the way so they could get out of the door, Zexion tailing after him to keep an eye on his boyfriend.
"Just lay him in the back seat," he instructed Axel as he opened the door up and helped him get Roxas comfortable, though he was sure Roxas would never know how they laid him down, nor would he care. This whole situation had most of them shook up.
Sora turned to Riku after they had gotten Roxas comfortable and said softly, "Are you coming back with us? Or back to Axel's?" His eyes searched Riku's as he held his hand, waiting patiently for an answer. Honestly, he was torn. He didn't want Riku to close himself off again, or it would hurt both of them, but he also wanted to spend as much time with Roxas as he could...especially with this new-found information of possibly having another sibling. He wanted to curl up with him and fall asleep, but he knew Riku was fragile right now as well.
Axel looked down at Roxas with a small frown before shutting the door and turning to Demyx. He pulled him into his arms and vaguely heard a car door open as Zexion got in the driver's seat. The redhead pulled Demyx to him, arms wound around his waist and gave him a soft smile before planting a gentle kiss on his lips. "It'll all work out," he whispered to the blond before pulling him into a hug. He wasn't sure if he was trying to comfort Demyx or himself at this point. Everything was just so ******** up.
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Posted: Sat Feb 07, 2015 11:12 pm
There was this slow, creeping feeling in Riku's gut that made him want to throw up as they all followed Axel out to the car they came in. The understanding finally hit him as he stared blankly at Sora asking if he was leaving with them or Axel? On the surface, Riku knew what he wanted to do. He wanted to go back with Sora and wraps his arms around him and make him feel safe and secure.... But just under that, Riku knew a part of Sora didn't think they worked. Riku had given Sora everything he had, and he still wasn't good enough. His stomach clenched in remembrance at all that had happened in his apartment, and he had to shallow hard to keep from upchucking right there. If he went back now, all the wounds that came with walking out, or being kicked out depending on how you saw it, would immediately open back up. He wasn't ready. Riku blanched quickly unable to give Sora an answer.
He could feel every joint and muscle locking up on him as he remained frozen in place. Was he even breathing? Riku felt his fingers coil inward towards his palms as they instinctively moved to make a fist, but it was in that moment that he remembered he was holding Sora's hand. Cursing in his head, Riku knew that Sora knew now. Riku suddenly felt so ashamed of himself. He was running away and he had no where to run or hide as he felt Sora’s hand moving in his. As self-loathing guilt filled Riku’s eyes, he couldn’t bare to look into Sora’s a second longer and he peeled his eyeballs off the concerned blue orbs trying to absorbing him with need. The craving to be numb again was suffocating him to the point where he was sure that he wasn’t breathing.
Riku’s almost mute response barely took ten seconds, but it felt like an eternity to him. “I-...I…don't” The silverette muttered softly trying to collect himself as fast as he could, but he wasn’t getting anywhere with the lack of oxygen to his brain. All the crawling, disgusting feelings of wanting just one more hit were starting to devour every morsel of Riku’s soul and mind. It actually startled him how fast it came on, since he didn’t really ever get a craving all this time he had been at Axel’s apartment… maybe it was because he had Axel carefully watching over him… always reminding him that that option wasn’t on the table. But regardless of how or why they were back, they were… and Riku had a disturbing feeling it was because of Sora’s presence and the idea of going back to the apartment where he almost snorted a line of coke. Riku could feel heat on the back of his neck again as his nerve endings burned with sharp pains. He was drowning and he couldn’t even utter a word to ask anyone to help him as he felt his body quite literally shutting down. Riku wanted drugs. He wanted that high somehow more than when he thought all of his friends had abandoned him. The need felt so deep it felt like it ignited his whole being on fire to keep the flame burning hot.
Demyx smiled as Axel wrapped himself around him. His presence was something that comforted and reassured him of something stable in his life. It didn’t matter what hell came their way, at least Demyx had the assurance of Axel being there to hold him. As the dirty blonde wrapped his arms around Axel’s midsection in return, he gently placed his head on Axel’s shoulders and laid there for a moment, resting in the redhead’s presence. His blue-green eyes softly peering up behind Axel at Sora and Riku. It seemed like they were just saying goodbye in their own weird way at first, but then something distinctively changed about Riku. All of the color seemed to drain out of his face, and he looked away from Sora as he seemed to remove himself from the situation without moving. Demyx couldn’t even stop himself as his arms tightened around his redhead and his eyes widened just watching Riku self-destruct. He wasn’t ready for all this emotional trauma. They had pushed him too far after his relapse. “Axel… “ Was the only word Demyx could muster as he watched Riku cringe and begin to shake. His eyes were currently looking at some spot on the asphalt, but Demyx could still see into the hauntingly empty windows. What had they done?
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Posted: Sat Feb 14, 2015 11:04 am
As Sora noticed Riku shutting down, he felt his heart drop. Ah. Of course. Just as he thought: Riku wasn't ready.
He squeezed the silveret's hand once more gently before slowly slipping his own out of his grip. "Riku, it's okay. Just breathe, alright? I know you're not ready. You're not being forced, and I'm not going anywhere. Breathe," Sora told him gently, giving him a soft smile. "And when you are ready to talk...you know where I am, okay? And now that we've gotten over the hump, you can call me any time you want. Because I've realized that I need you as much as you need me. I'll always be here to listen, even if you just want to ramble. So don't force yourself. I need to spend some actual time with Roxas after this, too. So don't over-stress. It's okay. You're not alone," he tried to console him gently, touching the upper arm of his good arm carefully and running his hand up and down it slowly in a calming gesture. "Please don't collapse inward again. We all need you, okay? And most of all, you need yourself. Go home and write some songs. I'd love to hear a new one when you're ready. But only when you're ready."
That's when Axel decided to cut in, knowing Riku couldn't handle much more of this. He walked over and wrapped an arm around Riku's shoulders and began to lead him away. "Come on, Buddy. Let's get you back to our place, alright? This relapse will be over soon. Don't you worry." He shot a small smile back to Sora and then ushered Riku into the back seat.
As soon as Sora saw the back door close, he pulled out his phone and held it up for Riku to see, reinforcing his words so Riku didn't think he was just saying all that he did before. Then he slid it back into his pocket and gave a small sigh as he walked up to Demyx. He reached forward and gave him a huge hug. "You guys are amazing for helping him out. Thanks for dealing with the aftermath of my ******** up." He released him and then wrapped his arms around himself because he realized how bad he was shaking. "I want you to know...that I do love him. God, I didn't realize how much I did, because I at first thought it was still my idolization of him showing through, but, Dem...as soon as I broke up with him, I thought I was being torn in half. We haven't known each other very long, but I know I haven't felt like this towards anyone else. And I've been through a lot of relationships and crushes and could-be's. I do want to get back with him so bad, but I also know he's in no state to address this whole situation right now. Just...I thought someone living over there needed to know so you knew you weren't giving him false hope or...or whatever..." He trailed off quietly as he looked down at his shoes.
"Come on, Dem. We need to get going or Riku's gonna hyperventalate in the car," Axel's voice suddenly spoke up, sliding a hand to the tall blond's lower-back. "Don't worry about him, Sor. We'll take good care of him," he told the brunet with a smile, Sora only smiling weakly and giving a small nod in return. "I know," he mumbled, looking back down. He squeaked a little when Axel engulfed him in his arms. "Hey, now. I don't wanna see that sad look on your face, alright? We've had enough depression from both of you goofs. No going back there, got it? Or you two are never gonna have a chance again." Sora felt emotion well up inside of him from how much he could tell Axel cared about them, and nodded, taking a shaky breath. "Thanks, Axel. I dunno what I'd do if I'd never gone to that party," he mumbled and then pulled away as Axel let go. The redhead just grinned at him and gave him a small wave before leading Demyx back to the car and holding the door open for him. Sora smiled at the two and then turned back to walk to the vehicle he was riding in. He slid into the passenger seat and did the seatbelt before looking over at Zexion and saying softly, "Okay, let's go."
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Posted: Sun Feb 15, 2015 2:41 am
Riku could hear Sora telling him to breath, but it sounded like he was listening to everything going on through a bubble. Everything sounded so distant and muffled to the silver haired male. Everything seemed to unobtainable. As Sora reached up and towards his arms, Riku had to force himself not to flinch away from the touch. It actually physically hurt to feel Sora touching him since all of his nerve endings were freaking out. Riku’s lost, empty eyes looked back up to Sora as he tried his hardest to push past the feeling needing to get high to connect with Sora. “D-don’t hate me…” Riku whispered, desperately. Tears started to leak from his cold eyes before Axel jumped in.
He actually did finch when Axel touch him since it was so much more forceful. Suddenly, though the world was spinning and Riku didn’t know what was going on. Sora wasn’t in front of him anymore… Sora was gone again… “...S-Sora…” He muttered in a lost, child-like voice as his eyes seemed to dart around him. Everything seemed to foreign and empty… He needed a hit, bad. The want was starting to make his head pound. As Axel put him into the backseat of the car, flashbacks came rush back to him of when he use to pimp himself out in high school for a hit. The idea of car hopping all night was nothing for him if he could get his fix. “Please, make the pain go away…” Riku told Axel as more tears came to his face. His skin was crawling so bad at this point, that Riku was scratching without even fully understanding why.
The redhead left though, and Riku felt himself growing colder and sicker by the second. The feeling of bile in the back of his throat was becoming too much for him to push down, and he struggled with the door handle on the outside of the car. He would have used the door next to him, but it wasn’t the door he looked at first, and he couldn’t process anything other than immediate surroundings. After barely being able to shove the door open, Riku puke up his entire breakfast onto the asphalt, before just dry heaving and gasping for air. There was a cold sweat running down his face now and sticking his hair to the back of his neck. Overall, he felt disgusting and clammy.
Demyx watched Axel with deep concern walk Riku back to the car, before turning to Sora as he felt his presence closing in on him. As Sora hugged him, Demyx gently hugged back, giving the brunette a soft smile. “Sora, you don’t need to thank me, none of this is on you, okay? I mean, I didn’t really know Riku when he was on drugs either, but I heard stories, and he was really bad. Axel cleaned him up, but Riku went through things that no teenager should have ever had to go through at such a young age. All of this that he is going through, it’s from those scars, Sora, and from his relapse. It was nothing of your doing, okay? Don’t blame yourself,” Demyx told him in return before feeling Axel’s hand slid across the small of his body. It was a very comforting and familiar feeling. Demyx nodded to Axel's statement, and comply without question to Axel's suggest to head back towards the car now.
Demyx frowned deeply after Axel started leading him back to the car though. He couldn’t see Riku’s head over the back of the seat, and the door on the other side of the car was open… Had Riku climbed out of the car and ran away? Demyx’s footsteps quickened as he rounded the car and looked down to see Riku laying across the back seat with his head hanging so that his forehead laid against the car. There was puke splattered against the concrete. If the car was even just a few more centimeters lower, Riku’s hair would be dipping down it currently too. “Oh, Riku…” The dirty blonde whispered scooping up his hair quickly while trying to avoid standing in the puke. Riku groaned a weak, “please kill me now,” in response as he couldn’t even find the energy to pick his head up. At least he was more coherent though having puked up some of the anxiety and uneasiness.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 16, 2015 11:19 am
As Zexion started up the car, Sora bit his lip as he rememberd Riku's pleading. D-don't hate me... He frowned as the words rang out in his head. The whisper of his name in Riku's hurt, lost voice brought tears to his eyes as that joined the ringing in his head. He pulled his phone back out and fiddled with it for a moment before flipping it open and typing out a quick text to Riku. "I don't hate you. I could never hate you." Then he flipped the phone closed and looked out of the window at Axel's car as Zexion finished backing up and switched gears to drive. His brows knitted together as he saw Demyx standing by the open back door, hunched over like he was holding something, and Axel hurrying over to him and leaning down. "Zexion, stop," he said quickly and undid his seatbelt, jumping out of the car before Zexion even had time to stop the car rolling forward. He ran over to the commotion and leaned over the car door, worry written all over his expression.
"Is he okay? Can I help? ...Riku?" he asked quickly, looking down at him and noticing Demyx holding his hair while Axel rubbed his back. Then he noticed the puddle of puke on the ground. The tears that were welled up in his eyes had slid down his cheeks. He was in such a hurry that he let go of the willpower to hold them back. The only thought running through his head was He needs me.
Axel cursed as he turned to get in the car and saw Demyx back there with Riku, the door open. He rushed over and swiftly avoided the puddle of upchuck on the pavement, reaching in the rub his back comfortingly. The poor guy had too much strain on him. And speaking of strain, that was when Sora popped up. Axel looked up at him quickly and said, "No, Sor. We got it," before Riku had a chance to speak up. The brunette's eyes filled with hurt and helplessness, and Axel gave a soft sigh. This situation just sucked. "Oh, um. Okay, well if there's anything I can do to help, just let me know, okay?" he replied softly and hesitantly backed away from the car, eyes glued to Riku's hunched-over form.
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Posted: Mon Feb 16, 2015 12:18 pm
Riku suddenly felt like there was a thousand people around him. He felt like after a performance when the paparazzi would crowd around and snap pictures of him. They were all waiting for this... for him to break. They were always on the hunt for juicy stories like how Riku had relapsed and secretly been hiding all this time that he used to do drugs. That was it, his life was official over, everyone knew that he was a drug addict. All those years of hiding and closing everyone out, it was all for nothing. All the hard work that Axel had put into him. It was all gone, and Riku was empty... Hollow. Maybe he would get lucky, and God would strike him with lightning to put him out of his misery.
Hearing Sora's voice, Riku officially lost every ounce of himself. The silver haired male curled into himself as he hugged his cast to his chest as he remained face down to the others. He was sobbing. Riku, the person that never showed open emotion, has openly sobbing. "...I let everyone down... I want another hit.. I need it... I'm such a fraud..." Riku sobbed out loud. Saying it out loud, in some ways made Riku feel better, but in others ways made Riku feel like Axel should have never saved him. He was such a waste of time and space.
Demyx had a deep frown set on his face as he loosely pulled Riku's long hair into a braid, so it would stay out of his face. "Axel, we need to get him out of here before someone see him like this." Demyx whispered as he finished the braid. It was barely a second later that Riku lurched followed again and puked again. Riku's good hand pressed into the side of the seat as he tried to grip onto something to hold him to this reality. He honestly felt like it was two hundred degrees, and sweat was dripping from every part of his body. "...why me?.... why did you save me... I'm such trash..." Riku choked out, barely able to form words in his sobs.
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Posted: Tue Feb 17, 2015 11:09 pm
Axel nodded to Demyx's suggestion and hald his hand out to usher Demyx backwards. "I got this, Dem. Thanks. Go ahead and get in the car," he told him softly and awkwardly leaned over Riku, hoisting him up into the car all the way. "Oh, come on, Buddy. Stop that," he told him quickly as soon as he heard Riku downing himself. "I saved you because you are my oldest friend, Riku. We've been through so much s**t together, your mistakes and mine. We're not gonna stop now just because you've relapsed." He held his shoulders firmly as he stared him in the face with a kind smile. "You will get through this. I will not let you drown in your self-doubts and cravings, do you hear me? Dem, go ahead and jump in the driver's seat. I'm staying back here with him until we get back," he called to his boyfriend, shutting the door as he slid onto the seat. He pulled Riku into his side with a hug and rubbed his arm with his hand.
Sora, meanwhile, had watched the situation a little longer and then forced himself to get back in Zexion's car. He buckled himself in and then pulled his knees up to hug them to his chest as he stared straight out of the car. Zexion looked over at him with a frown before driving forward once more. "It'll get better, Sora. All of this will. You just have to be a little more patient. You'll see," he told the sad brunet in an attempt to comfort him, but Sora gave no reaction. Zexion could almost physically see him closing into himself again, which had him worried.
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Posted: Thu Feb 19, 2015 1:44 pm
Riku looked up at Axel with confused pools of depression. He didn't understand what Axel saw in him. Axel, from the first day they met, saw this abundance of potential in Riku that Riku honestly never saw. To Riku, he was still the same drop-out waste of space that he was when Axel saved him all those years ago. He didn't understand how the redhead could have so much faith in a person that had betrayed him and relapsed after all the progress he had tried to make with him. Maybe the redhead was just a glutton for punishment. The silver haired male would have tried to resist Axel to keep him at arms-length, but he was too exhausted emotionally and physically to really move around at all. He just wanted to curl up and sleep forever. Maybe that is what he could get over all this. He could just slip off into a peaceful sleep and never wake up again.
The car started to move as soon as Demyx had buckled himself into the front seat, and Riku found himself curled up with his head in Axel's lap as they drove back to Axel's apartment. Riku didn't do much the entire rest of day. He mainly just slept, puked, or cried. By the night time though, he had stopped crying, and was just hardening himself back up again. He couldn't cry for long periods of time, he just couldn't. It wasn't in him, and being so emotional, just made him want to be numb even more.
As the night fell though, Roxas did wake back up. With a grumble, he found himself waking up on the couch in Riku's old apartment. "Zex? Sora?" He called out as he sat up and scanned the room. He didn't remember coming home at all.
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Posted: Sat Mar 28, 2015 7:37 pm
Zexion emerged from the kitchen soon after Roxas called out for either him or Sora. "Hey, Baby. How are you feeling?" he asked him softly as he walked around to the front of the couch and sat down on the arm of the couch beside the blond. "You had us worried for a little bit, there."
He leaned sideways a bit and ran his fingers through Roxas's blond hair gently before pulling back and letting him know that Sora was out on the balcony.
"He's been out there since we got home. I brought him a blanket out there so he didn't get too cold and wrapped it around him, but I'm not sure he really felt the cold in the first place. He's really torn up about everything. What with the other victim, and then Riku freaking out on him again. He probably would react more to you than he has to me, though, if you want to go out and sit with him. I'll get you a thicker blanket," he told him and stood, walking down the hallway. He came back with one of the mink blankets from Riku's storage and held it over to him. "And some water. You're probably thirsty." He left and returned once more with a glass of water and a gentle smile.
Sora, meanwhile, was sitting on the bench that Roxas and Zexion had had sex on not too long ago, blanket draped lazily around his shoulders as he hugged his knees into his chest and stared into space. Zexion had assured him that he would let him know when Roxas woke up, so he left him in his capable hands. He had a lot to think about, anyway.
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Posted: Sun Mar 29, 2015 12:54 am
Roxas was pretty stunned at first by Zexion's immediate response to his call. He had been scanning the room, but hadn't gotten all the way around yet, so he had no idea that he was behind him. Then Zexion answered and did just about every task that Roxas could have thought to ask of him. It was hard not to think that Zexion was a psychic for a moment as the hazy blonde just stared blankly at his helpfulness.
After a moment of just staring at him, Roxas blinked a few times, before starting to process through it all. "Umm, thanks, I guess I'll go talk to Sora." The blonde mumbled. At that point, it was really his only option, and Zexion had paved the road right to it. Unsure of what was really wrong outside of all the crazy stuff that went down in the police station, Roxas shuffled out to the balcony and sat down across from Sora. Staring into those identical eyes... those now hauntingly identical eyes, Roxas realized that he had no freaking clue what to say to Sora right now. He still hadn't processed anything that had happened before he passed out.
"....Sora, I want you to know, that you will always be my twin brother, okay? I don't care what anyone says, You are my brother, and I will always be here for you until the day I die, and then I might even still haunt you. I just love you that much." Roxas said in a caring, lighthearted manner, as he gripped the blanket that Zexion had given him a little tighter around his shoulders. "but to tell you to the truth about today... I don't really want to talk about it. I really don't want to bring up anything to do with this guy... I mean, he is literally everything I fear besides losing you. I think at this point, I would just rather it never come up again... but I know that isn't healthy... I know that where I am at isn't healthy... I just don't want you to get where I'm at...okay?" Roxas spoke out softly after a few seconds of silence between them.
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2015 10:17 pm
Sora glanced over as soon as Roxas sat down. He immediately recognized it as Roxas and not Zexion, and lifted his head a little, eyes losing that glazed-over look. He stared into his brother's eyes, realizing, by the look in them, that both of them felt the same way about the situation. So he listened to Roxas speak even though he obviously was having trouble getting the words out, then nodded and shuffled closer to him on the bench. He almost forced himself into Roxas's chest and buried his freezing face into his warm neck, arms wrapping around him as he shook slightly from the chill in the air. The blanket Zexion had left him really did nothing, and though his body was reacting, he didn't feel the cold until he pressed his nose into his brother's neck.
"I know," he mumbled, words muffled by Roxas's skin. "I know...we both freaked out today, I think. As soon as I saw you were gonna pass out, though... I knew nothing really changed. You've always been my brother. I love you, and nothing will make me feel differently, because we've always been there for each other," he said softly, holding onto Roxas with his almost-numb arms.
"I kind of want to meet him again, though. I want to learn about him, and figure out what happened and why it did to have us torn apart like we are. I don't think he knew about you either," he added, closing his eyes as he relaxed into Roxas's warmth. "So whenever you're ready...I want us both to face it again now that we know. Together."
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