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Kieran glanced up from his spot, spying the familiar white, blue, red, and black mixture of color that formed Tsuki. Getting a grin, he nudged Lysander, whispering, "You see? I told you this was a better way to finding him!"

Giving a wave, he also gave a shout, "Oi! Tsuki! What are you up to?"

Seeing the moon uke in such an agitated state, and hearing the tone in his voice (which told him it was an insult more than the words themselves did), Kieran's grin faded away, and he quickly whispered to Lysander, "He was doing so much better... I wonder if something happened?"

Rising swiftly, he rushed over and caught Tsuki by the arm, before he could actually run away out of sight. "Tsuki... are you okay? You seem upset. Here - why don't you sit down with pegasus boy over there, and tell us what's wrong?"

Kieran was only more surprised by the uke's violent reaction, for he could not think of a reason for it. Maybe I -am- just losing my touch... first I hurt Seki and Tsuki, then Seki wouldn't come speak to me again, and now Tsuki is hurt again? What's going on with me?!

Keeping a small smile on his face, he called over to Lysander. "Look... why don't you finish your drink, and then if I haven't managed to find out what's up with Tsuki, come upstairs and join us, okay?"

So saying, he dashed up the stairs after the moon uke, calling out, "Tsuki, wait! Why won't you tell me what's wrong?!"

Kieran was just confused, plain and simple, so he passed the door and bucket of water (and just what was a bucket of water doing there anyway, he could not help but wonder to himself), and continued following the moon uke. "Tsuki, PLEASE! If you don't tell me what's wrong, I can't possible fix it."

Lies? That struck Kieran hard, harder than he would have expected given all of the knocks his ego had been taking lately. What is he talking about? ... when did I lie?

Walking over to the now closed door, he glanced back to see Lysander coming up the stairs. Making a silent motion for the other seme to join him, he knocked on the door, allowing his confusion to leak into his voice. "Tsuki? I think there's been some kind of misunderstanding... I never lied to you!"

Kieran cursed himself as 9 kinds of a fool. Tsuki was right... he was a liar. As much as he tried to help others, to make them feel good about themselves and encourage them in their lives... and he had said everything was okay, when he had unknowingly managed to ruin the one thing that he himself could always count on: Seki's love.

There was no doubt in his mind that even if his lover would have been able to forgive him before, that there was no hope for it now. What was he to a person like Seki, someone who needed constant love and attention, which he obviously had only been able to provide for a limited time?

Turning his now redder eyes to the moon uke, he could not keep his voice from dropping in volume. "Tsuki... I never meant to lie. I made a mistake, yes, but I do... still care for Seki. I would never... ever have left him like this had I just known. But, that doesn't matter now. There IS someone out there for you, someone hopefully better than me. ... if you hate me now, I'll understand. I deserve that."

Looking up, he swallowed back the knot in his throat to speak louder, but gentler, "I... I don't want you to leave, Seki. I still... love you, although I know... I've screwed up. If... if anyone should go, it'll be me. I'll leave... and let you stay with Tsuki, who can care for you. I hurt you... and for that I don't know if I can forgive myself. But I still love you... and I always will. I'm sorry that I can't change that."

Each choked word that emerged from his mate's mouth acted as another stab to the seme's defenseless pysche, and it seemed as though, no matter how hard he tried, he could not stop crying.

Letting his tail droop all the way to the floor, Kieran fought for words. Comfort was what he had been good at... encouragement and comfort! But, his skills seemed to desert him now, when he needed them the most, and he simply broke down into sobs, fighting for ever word he spoke. "I... I can't say anything! What... what can I say? You're.. you're both right, and... and it hurts, and I'm sorry. Gods, Seki... you can't imagine how sorry. I t-thought I was doing the r-right thing... and now it's come to this."

The sobs only became hader, as he looked towards his lover... no, his former lover now, certainly, with tear stained eyes. "W-why... did you e-ever give me a c-chance? You d-deserve better... than some fool... like me."

The Moon uke looked up a little as he heard the words that had been mirrored in the comet uke the night before.
*No, it is wonderful, but.. it is something I like to cherish, something that is so magical I want to savour it for now. It.. is something.. special, something we share inside.*
"It is better to have the bad things with the good than just good things?" He shook his head a little confused. "But why does the bad things hurt so much. Why do people have to be in pain just to experiance something good?"

The uke hissed softly when the bandages were pressed onto his arm, covering the bleeding wounds. "Stop! Stop Helping me!" He sobed, trying to yank the injured arm away from him. " It'll soulve everything! Ishida will be happier with me gone... I hurt him and if I were erased from existance he could go about life happier!" He sobed hoplessly.

Ishida shifted, attempting to get up for a moment, and then failing miserably at it. He fell back to the ground, and curled up again. He wanted to believe it was nothing, and he wanted to be happy with Milo. The type of kiss he'd seen usually didn't happen when there was nothing though, did it? He tried moving again, but ended up not managing once more, though he got closer.

MIlo flinched when the other yelled, his eyes watering up a tad more. " Its true and you know it! Just let me go Caoi! I dont deserve to be here!!" He exclaimed, starting to feel a little woozy.

Ishida had to wait for a while before trying again. His legs felt weak at the current moment, and he then tried to once more push himself up. He got to his knees this time, and sat before forcing himself onto his feet. He stumbled over to his bed, and grabbed a blanket, wrapping it around himself. He was stuck now though as to what to do. He didn't really think he'd make it much farther walking at the moment. He wanted to check one more time, just ask one more time what would make Milo happier. Being with him or without him.

Milo did indeed shut up when the other said so, his eyes tearing up more. He didn't want to be here, he didnt deserve to be here amung all these kind and careing people. He hurt so bad right now, if Caoi didnt stop him he would be away from all this. Coughing softly, his whole form shaking as he started to feel very cold and woozy.

Ishida had ended up having to sit on the edge of his bed for a while. He blinked when he heard someone calling his name. He heard a few of the doors opening, and being knocked on. The one next to his room was opened, and Ishida sat, debating on answering. It didn't sound like someone he needed to worry about beating him again, so he finally forced himself to find his voice. "H-hai...?" he called quietly.

Ishida blinked a bit when the other came into his room, but then frowned softly when he heard that Milo was hurt. "He's hurt" he asked, obvious concern and a slight bit of panic in his voice. He forced himself to stand again, stumbling slightly, but making himself stay on his feet this time, the blanket still around him. If Milo was hurt, he needed to make sure the other was alright.

Ishida moved with Damalis, wincing a little at some points as he let the other help him along. He was feeling a bit more panicked now, because this seemed to serious. Not that Milo was just slightly hurt, but seriously so. If he was, it was Ishida's fault, and Ishida needed to try to make it right.

With glazed amber eyes, he looked down at his bandaged arm, clenching and unclenching his hands as he found fasination in the cold pain that ran up his arm. Taking in shallow and shaky breaths, he tried to keep himself awake but he was finding it really hard to do so. "S-so.... cold..." He mumbled softly, letting his eyes close. His whole form went limp in the others arms, head laying limp against the others shoulder.

Ishida's heart had about broken once more, and he held the other close when Milo was handed to him. "I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry," he mumbled quietly to the other, shifting very carefully to get the other back to his bed so he could lie down. He was extra careful, though he still stumbled just a little. Once he had gotten to Milo's bed, he made sure that he got any of the sheets with blood of them out of the way, and then laid Milo down. Ishida shifted into the bed besides him, laying down there, his tail wrapping around Milo gently. "I'm so sorry..." he mumbled quietly again.

Sitting on the edge of his bed, Lysander focused intently on the open book. He had spent the last ten minutes just looking up something inparticular and now sought to commit it to memory. He soundlessly mouthed the words, hearing them first in his mind before trusting his voice. When he felt secure in his knowledge, he set the book aside and recalled the recent events and their peculiarity.

"It was awfully odd for Kieran to just leave like that. I only went to the bathroom for a second." The pegasus stood and gave a stretch, both wings and body. "Hopefully it wasn't anything too horrible." At that, he left the quiet room to wander, unconsciously first heading to the communal living room.

Kieran frowned. Something... was certainly not right. But... I don't want to force him to tell me anything he's uncomfortable with. I'll try again later.

He was distracted by the entrance of Lysander, and he grinned as he waved to the other seme. "Hey you! Sorry about ditching you yesterday... something came up."

Lysander's ears twitched towards the voices, his head following to confirm their reports. Smiling, he came closer to join them.

"It's alright Kieran -- I figured something had come up." He then turned to Tsuki, his mind wavering at the look on the deer's face. "I have, Tsuki. I've also been looking for you for some time."

"Well, I sort of had to go tend to my mate. My poor Seki... hid from me, thinking I was mad at him, and I never even knew," Kieran replied, and although his voice was chipper, there was a more serious undertone to it. "But, he seems to be okay now... except that he can't talk. I'm hoping to clear that up."

Winking at Lysander, the scorpian seme laughed, "See? I told you the living room was the best place to try and find him!"

Lysander chuckled and smirked to Kieran. "If I don't get this out, it will all be for naught!" he responded jokingly.

Clearing his face to seriousness, he turned to the deer and began recalling the memorized words. "Go- gomen nasai." The foreign words tumbled out of his mouth rather ineloquently, and a tiny blush attacked the pegasi's cheek.

Kieran merely chuckled in return... until he heard the strange words. He knew he had heard Tsuki say them from time to time... but he still was not quite sure what they meant. Hopefully... Tsuki will though.

Lysander stammered, sure he had said something wrong -- a bad accent or perhaps a misplaced vowel? He quickly kneeled down and put his face next to the floor, peering at the deer sideways.

"I probably destroyed that, didn't I? Heh, I was just trying to apologize for what happened between Kieran and I before. Looks like I have to apologize again."

Kieran only smiled as he watched, unable to help himself. It was so nice... to see someone trying to please Tsuki so much.

"Oh," the pegasus stammered, sitting up as well. "I should have tried for a few more words, huh?" Smiling widely again, he went on with the explaination. "Anyway, I do hope you're feeling better, Tsuki. If there is anything I could do to make it up to you, let me know."

Lysander stood fully and offered a hand down to Tsuki, to help him up as well. Looking to Kieran momentarily from the corner of his eye, the seme gave a look of relief.

Kieran's grin only got brighter, as he flashed the pegaus a two-thumbs-up-sign. Really, the scorpian seme could not help but approve. Since Lysander and Tsuki had begun conversing, the uke had obviously become better. And, while it hurt him a bit to see he could not help his friend, his predominant emotion was relief that SOMEONE out there could.

Seeing the tremors running throughout his lover's body, Kieran instantly feared for illness. He pressed a cool hand to the J-rock Shounen's forehead, and he frowned slightly when the temperature was normal. Well... not all sickness' have fever as one of the symptoms...

Then, he happened to glance down and see the destruction being done to Seki's silver tail. He instantly snatched up the offending hand, pressing a kiss to the back of it. "Don't hurt yourself, Seki. There's no need for that."

Kieran, by this point, was beyond confused. He was, however, also becoming increasingly worried at his mate's behavior. Stopping Seki before h could reach the door, he asked, "Why don't you lay down? I know you can use the rest. I'll... read you a story, or something. Unless you're hungry? I originally came back in here to see if you wanted something to eat."

Kieran sighed, knowing that it was useless to try and keep the J-rock Shounen still. There was obviously something that he wished to do, and who was he to keep him? "Would you like me to come with you?"

"Very well then. I'm coming too," Kieran sighed, rising and begining to walk towards the door. He hoped that Seki would find some peace too, so that he would then rest. He really needs to rest to recover... but I'll do what it takes to help him.

Kieran gently took Seki by the arm, helping to lead him out into the main area. It hurt him to see his lover struggling so, but he knew better than to try and ask him to turn back. No, he would have to see this through to the end.