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The absolute worst headaches and dizziness occur when I wake up in the morninig and try to get going for work. But as of this morning and yesterday morning, which would have been Tuesday, I awoke without these symptoms. Nonetheless I am still taking Tylenol mid-morning because around noon or a little later the head starts hurting again. I can move my head around quite a bit without enticing the dizziness, nonetheless I still cannot tilt my head backwards fully as is needed in my second job where painting ceilings occurs often.

At the hospital I tried to stress that the dizziness was far worse than the headaches, but the guys would just nod their head and be out hte door. You just can't get a doctor at a hospital to talk to you unless something very serious is going on and they have to let you know what their course of action is. Despite this, I detect incremental progress and I knew/felt from the beginning I would be fine.

Any visitors, whatever the color of their hair may be, should be advised that I'll do my best to be rude, crude, and socially unacceptable if I don't find them to be open-minded enough. biggrin

Haha I was just thinking about that last night. Come to think those connotations aren't so bad. mrgreen But let's just say... having a sense of humor! Day three now of no waking headache, headaches during the day further reduced in intensity and now not requiring much tylenol. Dizziness has also subsided much, where I used to not be able to tilt my head back, I now can, and move around, and function, and the dizziness won't be triggered until after some amount of time and/or encouraging. I would say this is all very promising.

That sounds like very good news Dave!

I hate it when I let myself get confused and lose focus in regards to women and emotions.

I didn't know if I liked Mei or not, and if I did like her on what level, and after some much debating and dissecting I realize I wanted her only on a purely physical level which in hindsight wouldn't be enough to pursue her, especially considering her lack of availability.

Also, I've justbeen letting the general frustration of being single get to me. I flipped out at Mei because--after we both agreed that I would need help getting my first in-person gf--she says she wouldn't be able to help. I think we're oknow, but yeah, I flipped out.

And it's still eating at me (of course, the Crysis demo helps alleviate this).

I'm starting to come to the realization that I can be as confident/comfortable I want, as myself as I want, but it's moot unless I have access and connections. Bars and clubs/lounges are horrid places to pick ppl up here because everyon isolates themselves into pre-determined groups. And school isn't an option cause I only have one class there. So the only thing I can see things happening is either through sheer luck, or through a friend, and the last bit is probably what's eating at me the most right now. Either my friends do not think me a 'catch', or they all just don't like playing matchmaker.

All of that cost mucho dinero, though sad

I got my bill from the hospital yesterday: $7500! I sure hope insurance covers most of that. Otherwise I'm gonna be very ticked to discover I went to the hospital to be told I'm fine.