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Hi Dorg Endo. Welcome to the guild. I recall seeing you around Avatar Talk sometimes.

Hiya, and welcome to the guild, Sarah! Paranoia sucks! You and I have the same biggest hope!

Maki, born in '83, living in the Netherlands.
In 2002, I asked the RIAGG (The center for (minor) mental problems over here) for a full psychological evaluation after they had been messing about for 19 years and only 'helped' me further down than I already was because they hadn't tried to make a correct diagnose yet.
Anyway, after the buggers asked my mom (Hello?? 19 is adult over here!) whether or not they should go through with it and my mom said they should ask me, I got my damn evaluation and ended up with the 'neat' little stamp "PDD-NOS with possible Asperger syndrome".
After 19 years of insecurity and thinking I was alien, here I was with a human mental disorder: Autism.

So off I went to see more psychologists than I've seen in the period before my diagnose (Which is worthy of an entry in the Guinness Book of Records, I think, since I've seen too many psychologists/psychiatrists between the ages of 1 and 19. >_<) to try and find out what PDD-NOS means to me.

I'm currently still busy with the local center for autism and related problems, where I found a very nice belgian psychologist whom I trust as far as I dare to trust any psychologist/psychiatrist.

On top of that, however, I've self-diagnosed myself as having a form of GID (Gender Identity Disorder), which I'm not sure might be a side-effect of my autism or perhaps my autism is a side-effect of my GID. Both disorders would cause a person to be very withdrawn in crowded areas whilst being considered 'alien' to most people who fail to understand them.
I'm also working to 'fix' that problem, although this isn't the guild for discussing GID as much as another guild I've joined after hanging around in a certain thread in ED for a long time before the guild system was operational.

Anyway, here you have me, Maki, and my randomness. I can only hope I will make friends here and be the cause of some laughs, as I try my best to remain as optimistic about everything as possible.

Perhaps the very last thing I should mention is that my life-goal is to make EVERYONE happy, yet I've great difficulty in keeping my whip at my side when I hear of the (global) injustices that I learn of in my daily life. If I explode towards any of you, please accept my apologies in advance and give me a day to cool down? I thank you for your understanding.

Maki

EDIT: Oh, yeah.. from time to time I lose my trust in anyone and anything surrounding me. And I haven't trusted myself since I blew up in high school and nearly choked someone to death..
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..call it a faulty self-defense mechanism go wrong.. sweatdrop
I might explain at a later date... whee

My opinion differs from yours.
I will not debate this for the sake of my good mood.

Hi there, everyone! My name's Katie, I'm a high school student whose taken an advanced class in psychology with an emphasis on mental disorders and the criminal mind. I have been diagnosed with several psychological disorders in my life, some of them being chronic depression, anxiety, and severe "daydreamer's" ADD.

Other than being mentally ill, some of my hobbies include being active in high school Theatre, metalsmithing, listening and making music of pretty much all varieties, sketching, singing, dancing, writing, circus arts, the occult/Wicca and history, especially about pirates.

Hi, I'm Stephanie. I'm 16 years old and live in Virginia Beach, Virginia, USA. I was diagnosed with chronic depression and ADD around two years ago. I'm taking 20 mg of Lexapro now for the depression (Used to take Effexor) and 30 mg of Adderall for the ADD, but I don't really like it...because I feel unemotional and somewhat like a zombie...but when I don't take it I have huge emotional swings and I'm quick to anger...
Even on the medication, I'm extremely avoidant and reserved. Most people say I'm one of the most quiet people they've ever met. I hate social situations, and I've found myself to be extremely paranoid about almost everything.
Chronic depression and manic depression have run in both sides of my family for generations. I'm a little concerned that I might end up bipolar...but I don't know.
My mom seems to be a huge trigger for my depression because she's an alcoholic (which also runs in my family). She concerns me but I really can't do anything about it.
Even on the medication I find myself slightly suicidal. It worries me, and I've never told anyone about it in my life. I don't think I'd ever go through with it unless something serious happened, but even thinking about it worries me.
I've always found psychology interesting, and I'm thinking about taking it sometime in high school and/or college.

Hi, I'm Goat, 14 years old and going to be a sophomore in high school, and I have an eating disorder. Haven't been officially diagnosed, but I don't want to, since that would involve seeing a psychologist, forced recovery, etc. I don't want to recover at this point. I was in denial about it myself until I told my anoretic best friend about some of my behaviors and he told me I was kidding myself if I didn't think I was ED'd. So since then I've been coming to terms with it.

I suppose I have an ED-NOS, or for the uninitiated, an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. My behaviors have been, for the most part, a mix of anorexia and bulimia. When it started--a little more than a year ago--I'd just skip meals. Lost a very little amount (under 5 pounds) of weight. A few months after the school year started, I began bingeing, and would then make up for it by restricting. Those are behaviors of a non-purging bulimic, although that's a bit of a misnomer, since the restriction is considered the purging. Despite the purging, I gained back the weight I'd lost, plus another pound or two. About a month and a half ago, I started to try to vomit. I'd stuck a finger down my throat once or twice beforehand, but mostly just out of curiosity--I knew deep down nothing would come of it. This time I started actually putting my all into it, but it still took me between 5 and 10 attempts to get any results. It's hard for some people. I was able to get a small amount of food up a couple times, but nothing that would actually negate the binge, plus it was exhausting work, so I finally got fed up with it and stopped. Now I'm definitely spiraling into anorexic behaviors. On average about 200 calories a day since the Tuesday before this last one. Lost a bit of weight, but still have a ways to go.

So, that's me. (I'm also from Through the Looking Glass, the ED guild.) I'll be checking this guild frequently, even if I might not have much to say. smile