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 Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 12:17 am
Not wanting Jeff to change his mind. Yakov simply sat and waited for him to continue. Jeff had told him about his mother and the missadventures of high school...and the cutting was certainly no secret...what else did Jeff have locked away in there?
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 12:24 am
"To make it plainly simple, I have grade A depression. You know about how I grew up and one of the ways I tried dealing with it. Well, along with depression comes anxiety. With the two combined they basicly create a person with nerves that cross in the wrong places, physicly and mentaly unstable, and a total insomniac. I tried taking pills for it but my metabolism is just...then theres the whole on top of all the normal human problems the dealing with the were s**t. Basicly I am a broken toy." Jeff looked down at Yakov pleadingly. "I just, don't sleep well at night, or ever for that matter." He sighed and hoped that dumping all his problems on Yakov for the umteenth time wouldn't scare him away again, but sadly he would understand.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 12:46 am
Yakov tilted his head at Jeff for a moment and then kissed him. "That was what you were afraid to tell me. Jeff..." He put his hands on his head and closed his eyes for a moment trying to figure out how to say this. "Jeff, I love you. Sure you come in a great package." He trailed his hand over Jeff's chest. "And the sex, well...oh my god, but...but that's not why...I mean..." He moved closer so that his face was directly in front of Jeff's. "Everytime I look at your gorgeous eyes, I just see amazing looking back at me. You're smart." Kiss. "Funny." Kiss. "Caring." Kiss "Talented." Kiss. "You write beautiful songs." Kiss. "And you make everyone around you happier." Kiss. "If all that and every ounce of love I can give you still isn't enough to quiet the pain, then fine, be depressed, but I'm gonna be there holding your hand." Kiss. "Cause that package I was talking about, you gave it to me and I may have not seen it the first time, but it's the kind of gift I will never..." Kiss. "Ever let go of." Kiss. "You're mine Jeff...every last dysfunctional bit of you."
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 12:51 am
Jeff lost it. The tears soaked his cheeks. He felt so foolish and unworthy of such devotion. Why the hell was he crying? What was really wrong with him? Jeff sniffled softly and tried to work up the strength to stop crying but the tears wouldn't stop.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 12:56 am
"Stop fighting it and cry Jeff. It'll stop when its ready." He held Jeff close to him. "Take as long as you need. I'm not going anywhere."
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 1:09 am
Jeff did as he was told and let it all out. He didn't care that he was a fully grown man crying in the arms of another man. He cried into Yakovs shoulder, the sobs shaking his entire body.
It was a good ten minutes before Jeff finally calmed down. With a last sniffle or too he wiped his eyes and stared at Yakov. He had really found someone that not only did he always a need to tell him everything but who also really did love him. Jeff had never felt that way about anyone before. Sure he dated but he didn't really make relationships beyond the physical. This mental relationship was new and a little scary.
Jeff felt better now that he had let it out and hugged Yakov. "I love you. I don't think I beleived in love anymore until I found you."
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 9:40 am
Yakov kissed a lingering tear off Jeff's cheek and smiled at him. "Not to ruin the moment or anything, but you seriously need to wash out your hair and you've cried your eyeliner into chaos." He got out of bed and started pulling Jeff toward the bathroom. "Let's get you cleaned up." He couldn't smell anyone in the other room and was thankful. He really didn't want to have to deal with his sister or that damn hunter right now.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 1:44 pm
Jeff sensed no one around in Connors room so he let Yakov lead him into the bathroom. He smiled a little through the tear streaked makeup at how Yakov took charge. Normaly Jeff always felt like he had to controling of everyone and everything, but for some reason, he liked not being incharge around Yakov. He never thought of himself as submissive but this made him wonder.
Jeff stared down at his arm once he was inthe bathroom and the door was closed. "On the up side, I realized my arm works 100% again..." He had almost forgotten about the injury to his arm, another plus side to being were, quick recovery.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 1:48 pm
Yakov laughed. "I noticed last night, but I wasn't about to interupt anything by mentioning it, now get in there and and make sure to wash your hair twice. You'll never get that all out the first time." He gave Jeff a small push towards the shower.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 2:04 pm
Jeff slipped into the shower and turned the water on cool. He shivered slightly but it felt calming on his body. "It's so lonely in here though, and I can't get all the crap out of my hair!" He whined as he squirted a huge amount of shampoo on his hand.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 2:11 pm
Yakov squeezed into what little room there was in the shower. And scraped the shampoo off Jeff's hand into his own. "You are such a baby. And damn you shower cold." He reached up and started massaging the shampoo into Jeff's hair. "A guy confesses his undying love and suddenly you think you can make him do anything."
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 2:15 pm
Jeff smiled. "I don't think, I know. Plus if you want anything tonight..." He shivered but not because of the water. Whenever Yakov touched him he felt as if he could melt.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 2:24 pm
"Now that's just evil...well it would be if I actually thought you could go through with that threat. We both know you can't keep your hands off me."
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 2:26 pm
"And vise versa." Jeff added and started scrubbing the makeup off his face with the pink shower pompom he bought a few months ago.
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Posted: Wed Oct 22, 2008 4:58 pm
"Now what on Earth would give you that idea?" He made Jeff rinse his hair. "Wow, the stuff actually all came out. Your hair must be magic." He looked at Jeff's hair for another moment. "Well then, I guess my work here is done...unless there's anything you need me to do to any other part of you."
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