If I could seriously poke my heart I would.

So there's this guy. . . .

I work with him and he's about my age and I admit that I have a crush on him. My friend figured it out before I told anyone and now a few of my friends know now and just. Ugh.
It kinda sucks. I told myself not to like anyone for a bit because I fail at love. Even though I do have the courage to ask him out, I won't. He's been telling about a girl he likes and this s**t happens all the time with me.

I start to like someone and then I'm just a 'friend.' <********.

But I won't deny that I'm happy that we're working the same shifts tonight and on Sunday. WTF heart?! *Wants to tear heart out*

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